Submissions by ThiaTartorum
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Writing has always been therapeutic for me, somewhere I could always turn to. This has helped me be who I am and live with my scars.
ANGER POEM
Published
31st Jan 2022 6:33am
31st Jan 2022 6:33am
Untitled
I am curious
and have always been this curious person
I always have too many questions
Questions no one wants to answer
And since they haven't an idea what to say
they just stare
Wondering why the hell I care
I'm wondering why the hell you don't
For me, the answer to that question seems simple but it's not
It's complicated, like me
too much, like me
They all said I was too much
Felt too much, said too much, knew too much
Imagine how that could be a bad thing?
But it made them uncomfortable ...
and have always been this curious person
I always have too many questions
Questions no one wants to answer
And since they haven't an idea what to say
they just stare
Wondering why the hell I care
I'm wondering why the hell you don't
For me, the answer to that question seems simple but it's not
It's complicated, like me
too much, like me
They all said I was too much
Felt too much, said too much, knew too much
Imagine how that could be a bad thing?
But it made them uncomfortable ...
#anger
#PTSD
#nightmares #vulnerability
#nightmares #vulnerability
388 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th May 2020 4:26am
8th May 2020 4:26am
I am More than My Anxiety
Sitting here, destroying another nail
afraid of how I might fail
At everything I set my mind to
All my life, I know it to be true
Looking back on a life full of mistakes
I remember feeling myself break
Sweaty palms, fingers digging into the grass
fragile, at any moment I could break, like glass
Shaking, I can't stay still
sweating, yet, I feel a chill
My heart is pounding in my ears
the tears in my eyes will clear
Eventually, the panic will go away
and I'll live to die another day
I pull up my knees and...
afraid of how I might fail
At everything I set my mind to
All my life, I know it to be true
Looking back on a life full of mistakes
I remember feeling myself break
Sweaty palms, fingers digging into the grass
fragile, at any moment I could break, like glass
Shaking, I can't stay still
sweating, yet, I feel a chill
My heart is pounding in my ears
the tears in my eyes will clear
Eventually, the panic will go away
and I'll live to die another day
I pull up my knees and...
#anxiety
#depression
#strength
#hope
#despair
635 reads
12 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
25th Apr 2020 6:51pm
25th Apr 2020 6:51pm
Is It Worth It?
All the chaos driven years
Tacked on fear after fear
Until I was terrified to live
you took until I had nothing left to give
Chance after chance
still, you barely gave me a glance
To keep this friendship, I've fought
and yet, I've become an afterthought
Now I'm left with battle scars
so confused, I see stars
Dancing around my head
making me wish for my bed
This takes me back to when I was having a rough time without you
back to when I felt so alone, like I had no one to go to
The more we don't talk, the...
Tacked on fear after fear
Until I was terrified to live
you took until I had nothing left to give
Chance after chance
still, you barely gave me a glance
To keep this friendship, I've fought
and yet, I've become an afterthought
Now I'm left with battle scars
so confused, I see stars
Dancing around my head
making me wish for my bed
This takes me back to when I was having a rough time without you
back to when I felt so alone, like I had no one to go to
The more we don't talk, the...
#learning
#FeelingLost
#disappointment #hurt
#disappointment #hurt
534 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
5th Mar 2020 3:46am
5th Mar 2020 3:46am
A Journey for More
I am a lost girl
with no wings to unfurl
Oh, how I wish for a big silver set
it would be worth it, no matter the debt
Then I could soar through this fog
far from here, all the way to Prague
Exploring places all over the map
no time to rest, no time for a nap
The desire never runs dry
inspiration strikes and I take to the sky
Flying free
so much to see
No time to waste
oh, the cultures I'll taste
Just a matter of time, I'll...
with no wings to unfurl
Oh, how I wish for a big silver set
it would be worth it, no matter the debt
Then I could soar through this fog
far from here, all the way to Prague
Exploring places all over the map
no time to rest, no time for a nap
The desire never runs dry
inspiration strikes and I take to the sky
Flying free
so much to see
No time to waste
oh, the cultures I'll taste
Just a matter of time, I'll...
#happiness
#strength
#hope #dreams
#hope #dreams
509 reads
15 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
30th Jan 2020 3:40am
30th Jan 2020 3:40am
My Closure
#depression
#grief
#dark #suicide
#dark #suicide
804 reads
15 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
21st Apr 2019 6:36am
21st Apr 2019 6:36am
Six Years
#dark
#abuse
#MeToo
#SelfHarm
#shame
752 reads
24 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Feb 2019 11:26pm
14th Feb 2019 11:26pm
For Those Left Behind
Those of us who lose the best thing in our lives
be it your fathers, sisters, husbands or wives
Whichever loss it was that broke you
I remember how it feels, it broke me too
How fleeting is this life?
makes one wonder about an afterlife
You never believe that life is this short
check off your bucket list as if it's a sport
You'll never regret a single thing
it's the things left undone that sting
Remarkably things left unheard and unseen
when the time...
be it your fathers, sisters, husbands or wives
Whichever loss it was that broke you
I remember how it feels, it broke me too
How fleeting is this life?
makes one wonder about an afterlife
You never believe that life is this short
check off your bucket list as if it's a sport
You'll never regret a single thing
it's the things left undone that sting
Remarkably things left unheard and unseen
when the time...
#hope
#rebirth
#pagan #acceptance
#pagan #acceptance
701 reads
8 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Jan 2019 5:08am
19th Jan 2019 5:08am
Broken Promise
The pictures leaving a void
reminding me of what I destroyed
Your memory haunts my nightmares
showing me a time when you still cared
Swirls of emotion, of grief
though what we shared was brief
At night, my subconscious calls for you
somehow, unaware that we're through
My lips still remember your kiss
how it brought complete bliss
The heat that erupted
our friendship being corrupted
You were always there to lead me through this abyss
one step ahead, you knew when something was amiss
Left without a guide ...
reminding me of what I destroyed
Your memory haunts my nightmares
showing me a time when you still cared
Swirls of emotion, of grief
though what we shared was brief
At night, my subconscious calls for you
somehow, unaware that we're through
My lips still remember your kiss
how it brought complete bliss
The heat that erupted
our friendship being corrupted
You were always there to lead me through this abyss
one step ahead, you knew when something was amiss
Left without a guide ...
#regret
#grief
#hope #redemption
#hope #redemption
536 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
20th Dec 2018 8:07am
20th Dec 2018 8:07am
Whispers of the Wind
It hurt so much, I could hear my heart breaking
devastated, my world was shaking
Now that the calm has come
and I'm no longer numb
I can feel without dying
and remember without crying
Finally, I don't think of you everyday
living with how I cast you away
When you are on my mind
once again my heart can be kind
Memories I can hold dear
while not remembering the end was near
Devoid of suffering, I'll cradle my past
cherish my memories whilst they last
Like listening to your favorite sad song
knowing how it...
devastated, my world was shaking
Now that the calm has come
and I'm no longer numb
I can feel without dying
and remember without crying
Finally, I don't think of you everyday
living with how I cast you away
When you are on my mind
once again my heart can be kind
Memories I can hold dear
while not remembering the end was near
Devoid of suffering, I'll cradle my past
cherish my memories whilst they last
Like listening to your favorite sad song
knowing how it...
#regret
#heartbroken
#confusion
636 reads
6 Comments
STORY POEM
Published
12th Dec 2018 3:37pm
12th Dec 2018 3:37pm
Veiled in Shadow
Shadow bound, born, and bred
her emotions high and darkness spread
Dead are your senses
you lose all defenses
Cast into this place
it feels like an empty space
there are trees and a sky full of stars, a forest perhaps
the gloomy magic that surrounds threatens to collapse
Opening this door to the world, even briefly, a certain chaos fled
the aftermath feeds on humanity, throughout the world they spread
Seducing some to their cause
destroying others, they defy human laws
The murder of Adam's family, so vicious ...
her emotions high and darkness spread
Dead are your senses
you lose all defenses
Cast into this place
it feels like an empty space
there are trees and a sky full of stars, a forest perhaps
the gloomy magic that surrounds threatens to collapse
Opening this door to the world, even briefly, a certain chaos fled
the aftermath feeds on humanity, throughout the world they spread
Seducing some to their cause
destroying others, they defy human laws
The murder of Adam's family, so vicious ...
#fairies
#mythology
#sacrifice
673 reads
5 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
12th Dec 2018 3:03am
12th Dec 2018 3:03am
Behind Closed Doors
#erotic
#BDSM
#passion
1230 reads
20 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
12th Dec 2018 2:53am
12th Dec 2018 2:53am
My Recovery
My wounds still raw and aching
this body, my heart forsaking
The mirror showing flaws
bringing out it's claws
Tearing away my confidence, scratching the first layer
repeating to myself, everyday, one single prayer
Destroying what was once unbreakable
will repair itself, I'll be unshakable
My painful past will not dictate how I'll emerge
Someday, this path will diverge
It has to get better, even by sheer will
my joy, my happiness this shan't kill
Though, this is easier said than done
silently struggling with the...
this body, my heart forsaking
The mirror showing flaws
bringing out it's claws
Tearing away my confidence, scratching the first layer
repeating to myself, everyday, one single prayer
Destroying what was once unbreakable
will repair itself, I'll be unshakable
My painful past will not dictate how I'll emerge
Someday, this path will diverge
It has to get better, even by sheer will
my joy, my happiness this shan't kill
Though, this is easier said than done
silently struggling with the...
#sadness
#loneliness
#TimeHeals #MovingOn
#TimeHeals #MovingOn
678 reads
5 Comments
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