Sitting here, destroying another nail afraid of how I might fail At everything I set my mind to All my life, I know it to be true
Looking back on a life full of mistakes I remember feeling myself break
Sweaty palms, fingers digging into the grass fragile, at any moment I could break, like glass Shaking, I can't stay still sweating, yet, I feel a chill My heart is pounding in my ears the tears in my eyes will clear Eventually, the panic will go away and I'll live to die another day
All the chaos driven years Tacked on fear after fear Until I was terrified to live you took until I had nothing left to give
Chance after chance still, you barely gave me a glance
To keep this friendship, I've fought and yet, I've become an afterthought Now I'm left with battle scars so confused, I see stars Dancing around my head making me wish for my bed This takes me back to when I was having a rough time without you back to when I felt so alone, like I had no one to go to
The pictures leaving a void reminding me of what I destroyed
Your memory haunts my nightmares showing me a time when you still cared Swirls of emotion, of grief though what we shared was brief
At night, my subconscious calls for you somehow, unaware that we're through My lips still remember your kiss how it brought complete bliss The heat that erupted our friendship being corrupted You were always there to lead me through this abyss one step ahead, you knew when something was amiss
It hurt so much, I could hear my heart breaking devastated, my world was shaking Now that the calm has come and I'm no longer numb I can feel without dying and remember without crying
Finally, I don't think of you everyday living with how I cast you away
When you are on my mind once again my heart can be kind Memories I can hold dear while not remembering the end was near Devoid of suffering, I'll cradle my past cherish my memories whilst they last Like listening to your favorite sad song knowing how it...
Shadow bound, born, and bred her emotions high and darkness spread
Dead are your senses you lose all defenses Cast into this place it feels like an empty space there are trees and a sky full of stars, a forest perhaps the gloomy magic that surrounds threatens to collapse
Opening this door to the world, even briefly, a certain chaos fled the aftermath feeds on humanity, throughout the world they spread Seducing some to their cause destroying others, they defy human laws The murder of Adam's family, so vicious ...
My wounds still raw and aching this body, my heart forsaking The mirror showing flaws bringing out it's claws
Tearing away my confidence, scratching the first layer repeating to myself, everyday, one single prayer Destroying what was once unbreakable will repair itself, I'll be unshakable My painful past will not dictate how I'll emerge Someday, this path will diverge It has to get better, even by sheer will my joy, my happiness this shan't kill Though, this is easier said than done silently struggling with the...
One step forward, two steps back it's never enough, there's always something I lack Give and give until there's nothing left losing pieces of myself I should have kept Not recognizing myself is my biggest fear more falls away and I feel that point is near
The point of no return, leaving only a ghost my soul lost, a bleeding heart resides within a dead host Cut off from that which resembles or induces peace my mind in overdrive, a tornado that will never cease It feels as if the world is closing in crushed by my failures and my...