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The dark art of a sometimes girlygirl, submissive, expunk-goth and almost poet with a penchant for self hatred...
...(and other stories)
It's taken years
[hard fought and battle torn]
from first memories— to this very exhale
with pen in hand
to find even small-ish comfort
inside a skin
that should have always been
my safe home of harbored self security,
an abundant wellspring flowing healthy current
"Oh to dream dreams as that once, little girl"
Honest as these thoughts are
and as I will the words to be,
sort of scouring clean
my humanity
en prose,
it's not the whole truth of it
when haunted cringes
worthy of the finest self-hatred
still randomly
plague and poke
their particular echoed torment
piercing hard
rebreaking brittle bones
I crack open way too easily, even now
shame and embarrassment spilling forth
finding a way
to bubble to the surface
through red angry scars,
that even thousands of written words
never seem to fully heal
Leaks of boiling blood and marrow
are an end result
of 'a mother's love'
distorted by time-space,
childhood fractures and
my own voice's silencing
Arbitrarily disoriented
lost and losing myself
hearing faint sounds
recognizing rot
memories of name calling
slaps in the face,
thighs,
belly
or any jiggly bit,
was purposely tattooing reminders
Instant flashes — heartbeats beating old rhythm
I watch as my inherited black blood
slowly escapes each tiny fissure
of tainted acid ache,
burning a sad trail of total disappointment
infused by inferior-ugly
Oozing obsidian outrage
breathing in pants
like the rage dearly loves
while it breeds,
growing
taking control
"I feel my chemical composition rapidly altering"
At least I tell myself
I have that super power—
skills learned in captivity, I muse,
creating and recreating,
forcing by will
scabs to form and bones to mend
Etching hope into willed reality
with each gloss,
shade
and contour—
colors dawn from blackest night
born bursting the daylight
A spectrum opening
the vastness of possibility
and the proof to makeover a dark identity
into a full array of beauty
which always laid beneath
It's taken years
[hard fought and battle torn]
from first memories— to this very exhale
with pen in hand
to find even small-ish comfort
inside a skin
that should have always been
my safe home of harbored self security,
an abundant wellspring flowing healthy current
"Oh to dream dreams as that once, little girl"
Honest as these thoughts are
and as I will the words to be,
sort of scouring clean
my humanity
en prose,
it's not the whole truth of it
when haunted cringes
worthy of the finest self-hatred
still randomly
plague and poke
their particular echoed torment
piercing hard
rebreaking brittle bones
I crack open way too easily, even now
shame and embarrassment spilling forth
finding a way
to bubble to the surface
through red angry scars,
that even thousands of written words
never seem to fully heal
Leaks of boiling blood and marrow
are an end result
of 'a mother's love'
distorted by time-space,
childhood fractures and
my own voice's silencing
Arbitrarily disoriented
lost and losing myself
hearing faint sounds
recognizing rot
memories of name calling
slaps in the face,
thighs,
belly
or any jiggly bit,
was purposely tattooing reminders
Instant flashes — heartbeats beating old rhythm
I watch as my inherited black blood
slowly escapes each tiny fissure
of tainted acid ache,
burning a sad trail of total disappointment
infused by inferior-ugly
Oozing obsidian outrage
breathing in pants
like the rage dearly loves
while it breeds,
growing
taking control
"I feel my chemical composition rapidly altering"
At least I tell myself
I have that super power—
skills learned in captivity, I muse,
creating and recreating,
forcing by will
scabs to form and bones to mend
Etching hope into willed reality
with each gloss,
shade
and contour—
colors dawn from blackest night
born bursting the daylight
A spectrum opening
the vastness of possibility
and the proof to makeover a dark identity
into a full array of beauty
which always laid beneath
Published 3rd May 2022
| Edited 25th Feb 2024
Author's Note
Because celebrating who you've become despite harsh obstacles can take on many colorful faces...
A majority stream of consciousness spill...
©Blu2022
Pic: Mine
Admiring the leaves clanging colors felt apropos
A majority stream of consciousness spill...
©Blu2022
Pic: Mine
Admiring the leaves clanging colors felt apropos
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
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3rd May 2022 11:59pm
Abuse, should had been added to your themes. This is sad and abuse should never, in our opinion, be compared. One abused victim is as damaged as another just in different ways. The vase never cracks in exactly the same ways. Hold your head up, you're a survivor, if Lil Blue could handle those days, well surely BlueVelvete can handle these. Tight work Lady
4th May 2022 4:30am
Hey there, dear Me
You're right, I considered that theme usage but didn't want this piece to solely be about that aspect, alone. To me this spill (because it felt like one) was more about how I rally myself from sinking, how I feel about myself as a whole and how I refuse to feel bad about liking what I like and being exactly who I am. I have layered myself with an 'armor' of all that makes me, me.
From my dire love of makeup, getting my hair cut and colored, smelling good or going to see my favorite 80's punk band play /perform to finding the best sale possible of sterling silver jewelry or limited edition Dr Martens, all those things plus a thousand more quirks allow me to be multifaceted and proud of each different face I create. I know I'll probably always struggle with my origin story, in one from or fashion but each day that passes is another one that I'm beautifully alive on this planet trying to make my way the best and happiest way I know how.... That's what I had hoped to convey, if even only the tiniest bit.
Thanks for having such kind, encouraging positivity sent my way, it's awesomely felt, my friend 🙏
I'm taking that 'tight work' to heart and smiling wide!
😁
Much love,
🌹 - 💙
B
You're right, I considered that theme usage but didn't want this piece to solely be about that aspect, alone. To me this spill (because it felt like one) was more about how I rally myself from sinking, how I feel about myself as a whole and how I refuse to feel bad about liking what I like and being exactly who I am. I have layered myself with an 'armor' of all that makes me, me.
From my dire love of makeup, getting my hair cut and colored, smelling good or going to see my favorite 80's punk band play /perform to finding the best sale possible of sterling silver jewelry or limited edition Dr Martens, all those things plus a thousand more quirks allow me to be multifaceted and proud of each different face I create. I know I'll probably always struggle with my origin story, in one from or fashion but each day that passes is another one that I'm beautifully alive on this planet trying to make my way the best and happiest way I know how.... That's what I had hoped to convey, if even only the tiniest bit.
Thanks for having such kind, encouraging positivity sent my way, it's awesomely felt, my friend 🙏
I'm taking that 'tight work' to heart and smiling wide!
😁
Much love,
🌹 - 💙
B
You a strong beautiful smart sexy woman. You have come out to the side of the light. Keep on writing.
4th May 2022 4:31am
4th May 2022 3:12am
eyes open
every
mornimg
haunted
by everything
thats got me here
rumbles of memories
being paonfully shy
forcing myself to speak
never comfortable
fitting in
teenage angst
self imposed exiles
from the world
i still don't understand
functional steps taken
are as hard as breathing
just to survive
all my invisible sccars
are glaringly visible
to my eyes
each time i leave
my sanctury it's for
a familiar combat zone
an innocent soul
with niave
beating heart
like a toddler
learning
to walk
still here
trying
to be human
the best
way
i know
every
mornimg
haunted
by everything
thats got me here
rumbles of memories
being paonfully shy
forcing myself to speak
never comfortable
fitting in
teenage angst
self imposed exiles
from the world
i still don't understand
functional steps taken
are as hard as breathing
just to survive
all my invisible sccars
are glaringly visible
to my eyes
each time i leave
my sanctury it's for
a familiar combat zone
an innocent soul
with niave
beating heart
like a toddler
learning
to walk
still here
trying
to be human
the best
way
i know
4th May 2022 3:27am
That last stanza!! Just.... Holy cow! That is the whole ball of wax, isn't it!! ... A completely brilliant end to a truly epic poem-ply, C.
I marvel!
So, I wrote this poem so quickly (except for the end, which I almost always have trouble with per my usual way) that I wasn't quite sure if it made sense to anyone but me, so I really do deeply appreciate you being inspired enough to create what you have... that's so so meaningful to me....
Thank you-💙
🌹B
x
I marvel!
So, I wrote this poem so quickly (except for the end, which I almost always have trouble with per my usual way) that I wasn't quite sure if it made sense to anyone but me, so I really do deeply appreciate you being inspired enough to create what you have... that's so so meaningful to me....
Thank you-💙
🌹B
x
4th May 2022 4:02am
Your will is very strong. I feel it through your words. Words have some power to heal.
4th May 2022 4:11am
I completely agree 👍🏻
Thanks for taking the time to feel a bit of what I hoped to convey and for leaving me such thoughtful comments, Robert
I sincerely appreciate the feedback
🌹 - 💙
B
Thanks for taking the time to feel a bit of what I hoped to convey and for leaving me such thoughtful comments, Robert
I sincerely appreciate the feedback
🌹 - 💙
B
4th May 2022 6:31am
Dear BV,
This write makes me think of my own self loathing and why I never appreciate my own self worth? I really liked the references to cracking open and darkness escaping through tiny fissures. For me, it felt like a way of releasing my inner junk. In my case selfishly, to spread my misery and to release the burden of carrying it around alone. Rather like, if I’m miserable I’m gonna make sure the entire universe is miserable with me. Then it’s more like a party. A dark sad one, but still…without question you’ve managed to express this in an outstanding and abundance of poetic gift. A lyricism I could never attain yet wholeheartedly admire. I’m very grateful you can express my feelings so awesomely. H🌷
This write makes me think of my own self loathing and why I never appreciate my own self worth? I really liked the references to cracking open and darkness escaping through tiny fissures. For me, it felt like a way of releasing my inner junk. In my case selfishly, to spread my misery and to release the burden of carrying it around alone. Rather like, if I’m miserable I’m gonna make sure the entire universe is miserable with me. Then it’s more like a party. A dark sad one, but still…without question you’ve managed to express this in an outstanding and abundance of poetic gift. A lyricism I could never attain yet wholeheartedly admire. I’m very grateful you can express my feelings so awesomely. H🌷
Hey there, H
I know that I went through similar feelings of letting my misery almost infect others, inadvertently, when I was younger... I realize now it was more of a safety feature, protecting myself like a shield... Unaware then but knowing now that my thought process was if I infected others first then I wouldn't have to worry about letting people in, where they could potentially hurt me worse... Luckily, I found that whole way of existence to be as terrible as you can imagine, and made changes, enormous changes, years ago to rectify how I made my way through life as well as a ton of other work on myself, too...
You, saying that you can relate to my darker experiences like you've written, makes my heart ache for you, dear lady, but it also selfishly leaves me with a sense of bonded sisterhood like only admitting to these similar feelings could probably have evoked....You're a beautiful person who's honest, raw and cleverly witty insights have become such a powerful source of inspiration for me.
I'm so so glad I could do us both a bit of justice in my attempt at expression, here... 😏
Much love, my friend 🙏
🌹 - 💙
B
I know that I went through similar feelings of letting my misery almost infect others, inadvertently, when I was younger... I realize now it was more of a safety feature, protecting myself like a shield... Unaware then but knowing now that my thought process was if I infected others first then I wouldn't have to worry about letting people in, where they could potentially hurt me worse... Luckily, I found that whole way of existence to be as terrible as you can imagine, and made changes, enormous changes, years ago to rectify how I made my way through life as well as a ton of other work on myself, too...
You, saying that you can relate to my darker experiences like you've written, makes my heart ache for you, dear lady, but it also selfishly leaves me with a sense of bonded sisterhood like only admitting to these similar feelings could probably have evoked....You're a beautiful person who's honest, raw and cleverly witty insights have become such a powerful source of inspiration for me.
I'm so so glad I could do us both a bit of justice in my attempt at expression, here... 😏
Much love, my friend 🙏
🌹 - 💙
B
4th May 2022 8:58am
Killer pic B...
Most especially because
of the beautiful lady...
:)))
I...
Think that poets
exist in a chaos of divinity & anathema...
(writing prompt!)
But it's like...
I feel like most people
maybe barely even know they are alive...
To really be alive... I think
Is to be aware of the dualities, polarities & complexities
of the self...
Dynamics that are potentially
unavoidable in the parameters of this existence...
Constantly challenging
our divinity...
The divinity that we reach out for,
the divinity that is ever present in some form or another...
Like gods with amnesia...
Even if we be dark, girlygirl, submissive, expunk-goth almost poets with penchants for self hatred goddesses...
:))). :))). :))). :p
Teetering between deification and self destruction...
Something like this...
and then sometimes...
I still feel like there are some,
perhaps out of obliviousness...
Have always walked a golden path?
I know that is likely not the case
as this life stains...
I sometimes think...
Damn...
A lot of others maybe had
an easier time of it...
Fuck them
I wouldn't want it any other way...
I love my edges scars and marred appearance
Nevertheless
I say that to say...
It maybe makes a difference
if one had a much harder time then the rest...
Which is highly possible... Probable even
But if this be the case
there is meaning to be sought after...
Why?
For what reason?
If no reason
what are the implications of this.?.
This was some deeply thought provoking,
poignant... Dark existential ink
That I relished
Most especially because
of the beautiful lady...
:)))
I...
Think that poets
exist in a chaos of divinity & anathema...
(writing prompt!)
But it's like...
I feel like most people
maybe barely even know they are alive...
To really be alive... I think
Is to be aware of the dualities, polarities & complexities
of the self...
Dynamics that are potentially
unavoidable in the parameters of this existence...
Constantly challenging
our divinity...
The divinity that we reach out for,
the divinity that is ever present in some form or another...
Like gods with amnesia...
Even if we be dark, girlygirl, submissive, expunk-goth almost poets with penchants for self hatred goddesses...
:))). :))). :))). :p
Teetering between deification and self destruction...
Something like this...
and then sometimes...
I still feel like there are some,
perhaps out of obliviousness...
Have always walked a golden path?
I know that is likely not the case
as this life stains...
I sometimes think...
Damn...
A lot of others maybe had
an easier time of it...
Fuck them
I wouldn't want it any other way...
I love my edges scars and marred appearance
Nevertheless
I say that to say...
It maybe makes a difference
if one had a much harder time then the rest...
Which is highly possible... Probable even
But if this be the case
there is meaning to be sought after...
Why?
For what reason?
If no reason
what are the implications of this.?.
This was some deeply thought provoking,
poignant... Dark existential ink
That I relished
7th May 2022 7:55am
Thanks for the deep soul spilling and in depth comments, C.
You're a true source of great strength and realness.
It's often difficult to accept those scars, bumps and bruised that stain us, permanently. Yet, I too don't think I'd change much (except for some awful childhood parts) other than me, being able to figure out how to access my pain, to heal it in a healthy way, much much sooner than I did in my life. Finding my own voice and not who I was expected or supposed to be...
Loved the writing prompt!! Hell yes... Good one!
I appreciate the kind words and complimentary thoughts... You made me smile... Which you usually do... But this one was 😁.. My cheesy goofy smile... Lol...
We are the sum of our experiences, to date... We all have pain, ache and sources of darkness that fester... ALL of us do... For me and I believe loads of people... It's how you funnel some of that 'ick' to allow for some breathing room.... Fresh air!!
I know you know...
Much love, dear soul brother...
🌹 - 💙 - 🍃
xo
B
You're a true source of great strength and realness.
It's often difficult to accept those scars, bumps and bruised that stain us, permanently. Yet, I too don't think I'd change much (except for some awful childhood parts) other than me, being able to figure out how to access my pain, to heal it in a healthy way, much much sooner than I did in my life. Finding my own voice and not who I was expected or supposed to be...
Loved the writing prompt!! Hell yes... Good one!
I appreciate the kind words and complimentary thoughts... You made me smile... Which you usually do... But this one was 😁.. My cheesy goofy smile... Lol...
We are the sum of our experiences, to date... We all have pain, ache and sources of darkness that fester... ALL of us do... For me and I believe loads of people... It's how you funnel some of that 'ick' to allow for some breathing room.... Fresh air!!
I know you know...
Much love, dear soul brother...
🌹 - 💙 - 🍃
xo
B
4th May 2022 8:41pm
Love you BlueBoo be back when i have some headspace
Love always
Jackie ♥️♥️♥️xoxoxox
Love always
Jackie ♥️♥️♥️xoxoxox
5th May 2022 10:10pm
5th May 2022 1:48am
5th May 2022 11:05am
Smashed out the park again gorgeous
It takes many facets to make a Diamond shine. You my love are a shining Diamond
Love and light
Ron xx
It takes many facets to make a Diamond shine. You my love are a shining Diamond
Love and light
Ron xx
💎💙💙💎
Thanks for the lovely, kind words, dear Ron
You've left me smiling ear to ear.
I'm beyond grateful you enjoyed reading and decided to leave me your thoughts... It's morale boosting and truly meaningful to me.
Hope you're feeling better and the results from the hospital visit are as good as possible!
Much love from across the pond ✨ 🌊 ✨
🌹 - B
Thanks for the lovely, kind words, dear Ron
You've left me smiling ear to ear.
I'm beyond grateful you enjoyed reading and decided to leave me your thoughts... It's morale boosting and truly meaningful to me.
Hope you're feeling better and the results from the hospital visit are as good as possible!
Much love from across the pond ✨ 🌊 ✨
🌹 - B
5th May 2022 2:25pm
Each molting gives us clarity and freedom....to walk on beyond each previous incarnation.
That person that we wanted to be gets surpassed by the one we learn of on our journey.
Then that layer....
Never getting to some final perfection...or fixation... but rather a peace of mind in transition.
That person that we wanted to be gets surpassed by the one we learn of on our journey.
Then that layer....
Never getting to some final perfection...or fixation... but rather a peace of mind in transition.
5th May 2022 3:17pm
Acceptance that we alone have the power to determine what it is that makes us the healthiest and happiest...To figure out how it is that we ultimately forge that path ahead, ensuring that continued goal.
Sounds easy when I write it out.... Hahaha... Much harder to do in practical daily existence... I am better at it today, than I have ever been...How 'bout that progressive growth!!...
😉
Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me, RT.
You have a way of putting things that I really look forward to experiencing / exploring.... You made my day today!
I'm so glad you decided to stop in - 🌹
—B
Sounds easy when I write it out.... Hahaha... Much harder to do in practical daily existence... I am better at it today, than I have ever been...How 'bout that progressive growth!!...
😉
Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me, RT.
You have a way of putting things that I really look forward to experiencing / exploring.... You made my day today!
I'm so glad you decided to stop in - 🌹
—B
5th May 2022 8:51pm
6th May 2022 10:26pm
Oozing obsidian outrage ! indeed to the core...deeply felt.
with much respect to the one you have chose to be..inspite of everything and all..
like you rightfully conclude....In a full array of beauty that always laid beneath !
eventually we all are the thoughts of what we wish to be...be at peace.
with much respect to the one you have chose to be..inspite of everything and all..
like you rightfully conclude....In a full array of beauty that always laid beneath !
eventually we all are the thoughts of what we wish to be...be at peace.
6th May 2022 10:33pm
It's is a hope that with some diligent hard work and willingness to yourself be who you're meant to be.... Finding and relishing in a lovely and comfortable space of truth and glorious autonomy...
Thanks for the thoughtful and generous comments...~ like a beautiful breeze~
They're much appreciated-🙏
Always a pleasure, to_be_me
🌹 - B
Thanks for the thoughtful and generous comments...~ like a beautiful breeze~
They're much appreciated-🙏
Always a pleasure, to_be_me
🌹 - B
8th May 2022 1:56am
Scars, be them visible or not, may not always heal.
Thank you for writing.
Thank you for being brave enough to write.
Much peace to you.
Mary
Thank you for writing.
Thank you for being brave enough to write.
Much peace to you.
Mary
I completely agree about the scars we carry with us.... Although writing definitely helps along the healing process...
Thank you for taking the time to leave your thoughts with me, it's meaningful, comforting
and very much appreciated, Mary!
such a pleasure seeing you 🦋
🌹 - B
Thank you for taking the time to leave your thoughts with me, it's meaningful, comforting
and very much appreciated, Mary!
such a pleasure seeing you 🦋
🌹 - B
21st May 2022 2:13pm
Knowing you as I do i can envision every detail laid out in this master piece of pain reflection and resolve. Reading this, your journey through life makes me love you that much more.
You’re stronger than you think♥️
Loves you lots 🤗😘🤗😘
Always your sister
Jackie 😘♥️
You’re stronger than you think♥️
Loves you lots 🤗😘🤗😘
Always your sister
Jackie 😘♥️
You have no idea how much I needed to read these comments.... (super hugs!)
Recently being attacked again by lying liars here on DUP almost left me packing my bags...I'm still considering...
This place would be a beautiful source of learning and positivity if those hateful liars and gaslighting manipulators decided they no longer enjoyed poetry..... if only.
Pm me for the latest awful updates.... it's the same ol disgusting shamefulness...just with new twists of bullshit.
*Big hugs and even bigger thank you's for such beautiful motivation.
🌹 - 💙 - 🤗
xoxo
Recently being attacked again by lying liars here on DUP almost left me packing my bags...I'm still considering...
This place would be a beautiful source of learning and positivity if those hateful liars and gaslighting manipulators decided they no longer enjoyed poetry..... if only.
Pm me for the latest awful updates.... it's the same ol disgusting shamefulness...just with new twists of bullshit.
*Big hugs and even bigger thank you's for such beautiful motivation.
🌹 - 💙 - 🤗
xoxo
Who ever is messing with you telling lies are insignificant TROLLS! Let me at em spill—!
Who are these fucktards that are so jealous of your beauty in poetry and your beautiful soul😘♥️😘♥️😘🥰
Never leave for good this place has so many layers, unfortunately you have to peel back quite a few until you find your place where you don’t give a shit what other people say or think on this site. Bullies are everywhere
Dup has plenty!
Stay strong my love 😘🤗😘😘♥️♥️♥️♥️
Your sis
Jackie xoxox
Who are these fucktards that are so jealous of your beauty in poetry and your beautiful soul😘♥️😘♥️😘🥰
Never leave for good this place has so many layers, unfortunately you have to peel back quite a few until you find your place where you don’t give a shit what other people say or think on this site. Bullies are everywhere
Dup has plenty!
Stay strong my love 😘🤗😘😘♥️♥️♥️♥️
Your sis
Jackie xoxox
21st May 2022 2:32pm
29th May 2022 4:36pm
Line for line of this write can see within thee the afluxiating desire to reveal thy pain and hurt on thine ah sympathy. This write truly reach the surface of my desires to read more of thy writing. U don't fear expressing thyself.
31st May 2022 4:03pm
Thanks for reading and for seeing what it is you see, S.
I'm so glad you enjoyed reading and found that tidbit of fearlessness you did.
🌹 - 🙏
B
I'm so glad you enjoyed reading and found that tidbit of fearlessness you did.
🌹 - 🙏
B
31st May 2022 4:15pm
31st May 2022 4:28pm
hey there beautiful...you know I relate to this deeply on so many levels
you know I have love for who you are not who you aren't...
all of us writers du poets especially I feel can relate to this...
I believe this place sacred and only certain souls are drawn here
you being one of them... so gifted and honest in your sharing that it gets to the heart of us...
keep sharing beautiful Blue and in all truth I will do my best not to envy your gift and the admiration
you garner for being so brave in your discovery of self and so giving a person 💕
this is a very beautiful write in that it is giving not taking ❤️❤️❤️
love you Blue...
you know I have love for who you are not who you aren't...
all of us writers du poets especially I feel can relate to this...
I believe this place sacred and only certain souls are drawn here
you being one of them... so gifted and honest in your sharing that it gets to the heart of us...
keep sharing beautiful Blue and in all truth I will do my best not to envy your gift and the admiration
you garner for being so brave in your discovery of self and so giving a person 💕
this is a very beautiful write in that it is giving not taking ❤️❤️❤️
love you Blue...
31st May 2022 6:16pm
Ohhh Bren,
You have me misty eyed, sweet lady.
You are one of the big reasons that I was so encouraged and impressed, when I originally arrived here on DUP. Those feelings have only intensified over the years and become constant inspiration, dear lady. You honor me with such reverence and the beautifully heartfelt way in which you've summed up how you see me... I am awed and beyond humbled. You needn't harbor one ounce of envy, because it's poets and poetess' like you that have greatly influenced and indirectly guided me to be able to find my way amidst this poetic journey. Without your kindness, compassion and the gorgeous poems shared to learn from, I would never be where I'm at.
I'll always be incredibly thankful and observant of those facts.
My heart is so full of your sentiments; I deeply cherish each and every word.
Love you too, Crim
🌹-💙🖤
xo
Blue
You have me misty eyed, sweet lady.
You are one of the big reasons that I was so encouraged and impressed, when I originally arrived here on DUP. Those feelings have only intensified over the years and become constant inspiration, dear lady. You honor me with such reverence and the beautifully heartfelt way in which you've summed up how you see me... I am awed and beyond humbled. You needn't harbor one ounce of envy, because it's poets and poetess' like you that have greatly influenced and indirectly guided me to be able to find my way amidst this poetic journey. Without your kindness, compassion and the gorgeous poems shared to learn from, I would never be where I'm at.
I'll always be incredibly thankful and observant of those facts.
My heart is so full of your sentiments; I deeply cherish each and every word.
Love you too, Crim
🌹-💙🖤
xo
Blue
31st May 2022 6:56pm
it's hard to believe it's been years already but it has thank you for not discounting me as a poet and peer as a lot in the past have done...I know the visions I see are difficult at best sometimes...you are a giving soul... a beautiful soul I am not always able to absorb beauty maybe I don't think it's meant for me always... I'm so grateful you are here and I am able to feel your presence today... it's not always the case... I deeply cherish you ❤️
24th Jun 2022 7:31pm
Not sure why I thought of the butterfly coming out of it's cocoon while reading this.
This past makes us who we are today, and it sounds like for everything you experienced in your journey has given you some powerful, colorful wings to spread. It shows in your writing, in your passion for life.
I want to thank you for sharing, for giving hope to those who may be at their lowest right now and as it might help them overcome whatever it is they are going through by reading your example.
This past makes us who we are today, and it sounds like for everything you experienced in your journey has given you some powerful, colorful wings to spread. It shows in your writing, in your passion for life.
I want to thank you for sharing, for giving hope to those who may be at their lowest right now and as it might help them overcome whatever it is they are going through by reading your example.
Walter,
Your kindness and deep insight leave me emotional and wholly grateful that there are souls like yourself, who generously take the time to invest, observe, reach out and understand another human being in such a meaningfully beautiful way. You make a difference and instill morale... allowing my mind and heart to reach places that I never quite figured were possible. I'm so thankful and truly indebted. The idea that my ink could possibly be used as an example is terrifying (ha!) and realistically something that never occurred to me but leaves me ridiculously humble. I'm awed you think so.
Thank you for sharing your wealth of goodness and encouragement.
I'm beyond appreciative 🙏
🌹 - 💙
B
Your kindness and deep insight leave me emotional and wholly grateful that there are souls like yourself, who generously take the time to invest, observe, reach out and understand another human being in such a meaningfully beautiful way. You make a difference and instill morale... allowing my mind and heart to reach places that I never quite figured were possible. I'm so thankful and truly indebted. The idea that my ink could possibly be used as an example is terrifying (ha!) and realistically something that never occurred to me but leaves me ridiculously humble. I'm awed you think so.
Thank you for sharing your wealth of goodness and encouragement.
I'm beyond appreciative 🙏
🌹 - 💙
B
20th Oct 2022 2:04am
Raw wonder that escapes the bounds of the ordinary confessional. There is dark beauty within your words that let me see a trace of where you came from. I am so incredibly proud of you in your journey. The imagery here is stronger than strong. It is a woman's heart that so often falls prey to insenitive fools. But you made it all the way and beyond. And now you can look back with pride and strength. That is a feat not everyone woman or man can do. You did it and are living proof to others who need reassurance. That is a gift you give to young women and men who walk in the shoes you did.
XoXoXo
John
XoXoXo
John
I hadn't reread this one in a while, John. It's hard to relive the feelings here.. Ones that I mostly live now with them all packed away...
Thank you for all the kind words of wisdom and care. It's beyond moving and meaningful to me that you feel like this can hold up and speak to others in a sort of form of solidarity.... What an unbelievable opportunity/ notion....
Deepest thanks and love
🌹💙-S
Thank you for all the kind words of wisdom and care. It's beyond moving and meaningful to me that you feel like this can hold up and speak to others in a sort of form of solidarity.... What an unbelievable opportunity/ notion....
Deepest thanks and love
🌹💙-S
