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Thirty Pieces of Silver
For this
paltry sum
I’d throw
away
my
morality.
Is this, truly, who I am?
I ponder
the query
hoping not
but…
The sun
shines
brightly
as if oblivious
to my
deliberately
delicate
mental debate.
Turning a corner,
the dawning
of a new vision
sheds clarity
on an old
desire.
Yet,
the heart
pounds
stronger
for what
it’s been
denied.
Plucking
daisy petals
“I will do”
“No, I won’t do”
brings levity ~
for a brief moment.
Sadly,
wishful
thinking
won’t
cleanse
my soul.
Reality
dictates
for
thirty pieces
of
silver
*
*
*
I’m a
Sell Out.
paltry sum
I’d throw
away
my
morality.
Is this, truly, who I am?
I ponder
the query
hoping not
but…
The sun
shines
brightly
as if oblivious
to my
deliberately
delicate
mental debate.
Turning a corner,
the dawning
of a new vision
sheds clarity
on an old
desire.
Yet,
the heart
pounds
stronger
for what
it’s been
denied.
Plucking
daisy petals
“I will do”
“No, I won’t do”
brings levity ~
for a brief moment.
Sadly,
wishful
thinking
won’t
cleanse
my soul.
Reality
dictates
for
thirty pieces
of
silver
*
*
*
I’m a
Sell Out.
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Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
28th May 2023 7:31am
Heavy, Honoria. Depth and existential anguish.
Excellent.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
Excellent.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
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31st May 2023 5:04am
Dear BK,
The anguish in this circumstance almost did me in. Perfect word to describe the emotion. Thank you for your kind comment. I’m very grateful for your support and for taking it into your RL, I’m honored. H🌷
The anguish in this circumstance almost did me in. Perfect word to describe the emotion. Thank you for your kind comment. I’m very grateful for your support and for taking it into your RL, I’m honored. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
28th May 2023 7:49am
yes we sell out our dreams at some point during life
the price we pay for moving on
but if we remain truthful.we still have a soul
the price we pay for moving on
but if we remain truthful.we still have a soul
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31st May 2023 5:06am
Dear AP,
Remaining truthful, what an awesome perspective to point out. I really appreciate that. Thank you so much for your insight and lovely comment. I’m very touched. H🌷
Remaining truthful, what an awesome perspective to point out. I really appreciate that. Thank you so much for your insight and lovely comment. I’m very touched. H🌷
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Do you have change for 50 pieces of silver? 👿 But seriously folks...what a poignant pondering. You seem like the type who would not sell out but go for what you know is right and in the best manner possible. I am the poster child for putting up with an unhappy situation just to keep my seas relatively calm...BTW my dad was featured on the poster before me😁 But enough about me...what do you think about me😁 I would love to see Honoria go for whatever brings her the most abundant happiness. Bravissima, dear goddess poet😘
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31st May 2023 5:09am
Dear GW,
I totally get putting up with a situation less than ideal so as not to rock the boat. It feels like the devil I know. The funny thing about that is when the situation does change its staggering how much better things can be. For the most part anyway. What I do think about you, you ask. Pretty darn terrific. 😉
Thank you very kindly for the wonderful comment, constant support and RL add. Wonderful way to start the week. H🌷
I totally get putting up with a situation less than ideal so as not to rock the boat. It feels like the devil I know. The funny thing about that is when the situation does change its staggering how much better things can be. For the most part anyway. What I do think about you, you ask. Pretty darn terrific. 😉
Thank you very kindly for the wonderful comment, constant support and RL add. Wonderful way to start the week. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
28th May 2023 9:26am
A Place to Bury Strangers in...
Aceldama...
Tis difficult to stay pure and keep one's soul in tact...
Also, to know oneself and trust oneself...
I think if one really knows oneself...
And learns to trust oneself...
They can never sell their soul...
I mean...
The more one understands the self
the more one understands all things...
And when you understand the
deeper nature of things...
This kind of wisdom
truly clarifies all...
You will always understand
your behaviors, decisions, and the dynamics of the universe...
You will transcend the mundane
because you understand the movement of the mundane...
You understand yourself, both:
Within and without the mundane, and the movement of the mundane...
Aceldama...
Tis difficult to stay pure and keep one's soul in tact...
Also, to know oneself and trust oneself...
I think if one really knows oneself...
And learns to trust oneself...
They can never sell their soul...
I mean...
The more one understands the self
the more one understands all things...
And when you understand the
deeper nature of things...
This kind of wisdom
truly clarifies all...
You will always understand
your behaviors, decisions, and the dynamics of the universe...
You will transcend the mundane
because you understand the movement of the mundane...
You understand yourself, both:
Within and without the mundane, and the movement of the mundane...
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31st May 2023 5:15am
Dear CO,
What an amazing comment. I am transfixed by “You will transcend the mundane because you understand the movement of the mundane...” I found this particularly interesting as I use it toward the circumstance of this write. I love the notion of understanding the movement of the mundane. Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. I really appreciate how it’s making me think of different view points. H🌷
What an amazing comment. I am transfixed by “You will transcend the mundane because you understand the movement of the mundane...” I found this particularly interesting as I use it toward the circumstance of this write. I love the notion of understanding the movement of the mundane. Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. I really appreciate how it’s making me think of different view points. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
28th May 2023 1:28pm
Dear H,
This poem is very deep and beautifully penned. I would have to say it's one of your best ones to date. Expert writing, my beautiful friend
F
This poem is very deep and beautifully penned. I would have to say it's one of your best ones to date. Expert writing, my beautiful friend
F
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
31st May 2023 5:19am
Dear F,
Thank you so much for this lovely comment, RL add and very high praise indeed. Funny, I debated posting it because of the circumstance of it, then threw caution to the wind. Thank you, again for your support, I’m truly touched and very grateful to you. H🌷
Thank you so much for this lovely comment, RL add and very high praise indeed. Funny, I debated posting it because of the circumstance of it, then threw caution to the wind. Thank you, again for your support, I’m truly touched and very grateful to you. H🌷
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28th May 2023 2:10pm
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31st May 2023 5:21am
Dear R,
So true. I suppose I should be glad it was only going to cost me this much. Thank you for your read and thoughtful comment. I greatly appreciate it. H🌷
So true. I suppose I should be glad it was only going to cost me this much. Thank you for your read and thoughtful comment. I greatly appreciate it. H🌷
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Lacking context, I would simply say, lets talk, one betrayed to another 🌼💙
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
31st May 2023 5:25am
Dear AJ,
Ah, a member of the club. I’m sorry. Yes, a nice long chat would be just the ticket. Maybe things would stop hurting so much. As always, I’m very grateful for thoughtful kindness and support. H🌷
Ah, a member of the club. I’m sorry. Yes, a nice long chat would be just the ticket. Maybe things would stop hurting so much. As always, I’m very grateful for thoughtful kindness and support. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
28th May 2023 4:36pm
Thinking about TODAY
if 30 pieces equated to 30 million dollars i am pretty certain the company room would be mightily crowded.
However, i would not be there.
The older i get, the more i come to see and realize that less of more is more than less or more or less.
66 yrs old doesn't feel any different than this day last year but i've donated a lot of clothes that no longer fit a fatter me
and You know what?
i feel lighter!
Wonderful msg lining this spill, Sister,
thank You for sharing
if 30 pieces equated to 30 million dollars i am pretty certain the company room would be mightily crowded.
However, i would not be there.
The older i get, the more i come to see and realize that less of more is more than less or more or less.
66 yrs old doesn't feel any different than this day last year but i've donated a lot of clothes that no longer fit a fatter me
and You know what?
i feel lighter!
Wonderful msg lining this spill, Sister,
thank You for sharing
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
31st May 2023 5:28am
Dear T,
There is no greater feeling than that of feeling unburdened by the weight of emotional baggage is there? Your positive experience gives me pause and hope for the future. Thank you very much for your kind comment. I’m very much obliged to you. H🌷
There is no greater feeling than that of feeling unburdened by the weight of emotional baggage is there? Your positive experience gives me pause and hope for the future. Thank you very much for your kind comment. I’m very much obliged to you. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
28th May 2023 4:41pm
"The heart pounds stronger for what it's been denied"... says it all, to me. We always so desperately want what we cannot have, don't we? This whole piece pulls you in, from the format that drips little disclosures down the page to the carefully constructed stanzas that hit hard, one after another... But it's your last line that smacks you across the face with such blatant honesty that it really left me marveling in how brave that particular introspection was ... I remember reading this during NaPo and hoped you'd publish it so we lovers of your ink could get a chance to leave the amazing feedback it rightly deserves, dear lady
Phenomenal poeting!
🌹💙 - B
Phenomenal poeting!
🌹💙 - B
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31st May 2023 5:34am
Dear BV,
I seem to want what I have AND what I don’t have. I’m greedy that way 😏
Thank you so much for your lovely kindness. While this doesn’t really hold a candle to your generosity I’m stoked you wrote it so. Someday I hope to not be so needy. Until then…
As per, thank you for this wonderful, sweet comment. xx
H🌷
I seem to want what I have AND what I don’t have. I’m greedy that way 😏
Thank you so much for your lovely kindness. While this doesn’t really hold a candle to your generosity I’m stoked you wrote it so. Someday I hope to not be so needy. Until then…
As per, thank you for this wonderful, sweet comment. xx
H🌷
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
31st May 2023 5:38am
Dear B,
Yes, poor Judas. Prime example of human behavior with the ultimate in sad endings.
Thank you very much for your read. I’m very touched and grateful by your lovely comment and compliment. H🌷
Yes, poor Judas. Prime example of human behavior with the ultimate in sad endings.
Thank you very much for your read. I’m very touched and grateful by your lovely comment and compliment. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
29th May 2023 7:23pm
I really appreciate what BV and Cipher had to say. Excellent relatable metaphor, feeling of personal experience, confessional seems well chosen theme. I'd expand on it, but you know how I do it.
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
31st May 2023 5:42am
Dear DC,
LOL, I do know how you do it. But I’d be sure to make a real mess of it. I don’t have your panache 😊
I’d lose my train if thought and then start rambling my grocery list, what I ate for dinner the night before.
I really appreciate you thinking I might/could expand on it. I’m taking that as a total win. Thank you! H🌷
LOL, I do know how you do it. But I’d be sure to make a real mess of it. I don’t have your panache 😊
I’d lose my train if thought and then start rambling my grocery list, what I ate for dinner the night before.
I really appreciate you thinking I might/could expand on it. I’m taking that as a total win. Thank you! H🌷
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3rd Jun 2023 8:30pm
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4th Jun 2023 9:23am
Dear JZ,
Thank you very much for your lovely comment. I can’t begin to tell you how touched I am and by your generous RL add. It’s lovely to have you on my page and thank you, once more, for this awesome compliment. H🌷
Thank you very much for your lovely comment. I can’t begin to tell you how touched I am and by your generous RL add. It’s lovely to have you on my page and thank you, once more, for this awesome compliment. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
4th Jun 2023 2:28pm
You write feelings with such ease and yet the reader feels it .,incredible talent. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
6th Jun 2023 6:43am
Dear M,
This has truly made my night after a very arduous day. Thank you very much for your lovely comment. I’m very grateful.
H🌷
This has truly made my night after a very arduous day. Thank you very much for your lovely comment. I’m very grateful.
H🌷
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6th Jun 2023 12:12pm
More than welcome . You really do have an incredible talent., it blows me away .
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Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
4th Jun 2023 11:17pm
The moral high ground is a lonely place. Doing the right thing or not selling out becomes quite difficult when the rent / mortgage is due, and you are short. The situation made worse if you have a dependent (child, friend or family) relying on you.
Life, at times, requires compromises; cost is only a small part of your soul.
Your poem conveys the angst in truth to yourself versus bending to achieve a needed goal. Sometimes this "bending" provides an easier journey, but its path may also bring you to further hardships. A roll of the dice.
Life, at times, requires compromises; cost is only a small part of your soul.
Your poem conveys the angst in truth to yourself versus bending to achieve a needed goal. Sometimes this "bending" provides an easier journey, but its path may also bring you to further hardships. A roll of the dice.
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
6th Jun 2023 6:49am
Dear DV,
Very well put. Knowing when to stay the moral high ground or do what’s needed to survive is an absolute roll of the dice. Life is difficult even when things appear to be good. Thank you very much for this wonderfully thoughtful comment. It’s been making think about so many different circumstances I’ve experienced and wondered what would have happened had I chosen another path. Thank you so much. H🌷
Very well put. Knowing when to stay the moral high ground or do what’s needed to survive is an absolute roll of the dice. Life is difficult even when things appear to be good. Thank you very much for this wonderfully thoughtful comment. It’s been making think about so many different circumstances I’ve experienced and wondered what would have happened had I chosen another path. Thank you so much. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
5th Jun 2023 3:26am
Shitballs. Everyone got the good bits, and I'm running late.
Hon. Yes. The cost of our souls is really such a fucking paltry bit of coin. And yet....
And yet.
This kicked ass. As do you, my friend.
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
6th Jun 2023 6:53am
Dear B,
LOL, “everyone got the good bits”. That’s fabulous. I’m very glad you got here tonight. I’m putting my soul up for sale. I’m so done with it. I’m truly grateful for your lovely comment and too generous RL add. Made my evening. Thank you.
H🌷
LOL, “everyone got the good bits”. That’s fabulous. I’m very glad you got here tonight. I’m putting my soul up for sale. I’m so done with it. I’m truly grateful for your lovely comment and too generous RL add. Made my evening. Thank you.
H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
10th Jun 2023 6:26am
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10th Jun 2023 8:33am
Dear J,
Thank you kindly for your wonderful comment and support. I’m so grateful.
H🌷
Thank you kindly for your wonderful comment and support. I’m so grateful.
H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
11th Jun 2023 6:22pm
How did I miss this one?!
Some days I'm a blur mentally, that's how!
I'm also out of RLs again. Stupid rule.
The gist of this write, for me, is how our values may alter, to conform to the current need. Yes? Not necessarily a downgrade, not at all. But, a stepping away from our safety. Trying a different approach, perhaps. My own curiosity is usually approached tamely, but still it's insatiable.
This write likens to that. Where frustration meets boldness once again.
Excellent expression, Honoria. I'm fortunate to find this gem.
Some days I'm a blur mentally, that's how!
I'm also out of RLs again. Stupid rule.
The gist of this write, for me, is how our values may alter, to conform to the current need. Yes? Not necessarily a downgrade, not at all. But, a stepping away from our safety. Trying a different approach, perhaps. My own curiosity is usually approached tamely, but still it's insatiable.
This write likens to that. Where frustration meets boldness once again.
Excellent expression, Honoria. I'm fortunate to find this gem.
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
11th Jun 2023 10:34pm
Dear S,
You’re here, so you didn’t miss it at all😊.
Values, I think can alter depending on a situation and the people involved. I feel like it’s only after an event that ends poorly do I ever see what I’ve forfeited. I’m still working to reverse that process with any luck it’ll happen before I draw my last breath. I’m very glad to see you today and receive this lovely comment. It’s cheered me up considerably. Thank you very much. H🌷
You’re here, so you didn’t miss it at all😊.
Values, I think can alter depending on a situation and the people involved. I feel like it’s only after an event that ends poorly do I ever see what I’ve forfeited. I’m still working to reverse that process with any luck it’ll happen before I draw my last breath. I’m very glad to see you today and receive this lovely comment. It’s cheered me up considerably. Thank you very much. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
12th Jun 2023 10:29am
How did this slip by me... nicely penned H... like the layout... love the flow...
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
14th Jun 2023 6:06am
Dear L,
Thank you so much for the lovely comment and RL add. I’m never sure about the whole left side margin vs center but if you think it worked than I’m jazzed 😊, thank you. I’m honored and very glad to see you! H🌷
Thank you so much for the lovely comment and RL add. I’m never sure about the whole left side margin vs center but if you think it worked than I’m jazzed 😊, thank you. I’m honored and very glad to see you! H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
25th Jun 2023 7:07pm
We knew right away from looking at the title what the metaphorical message would be, but going down each line pulls in even further into the internal struggle.
Excellent work.
Excellent work.
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
26th Jun 2023 2:39am
Dear W,
A conundrum for sure. Balancing all the parts of the human psyche is a full time job. Thank you very much for such a wonderful comment and as always thank you for your support of my writing. H 🌷
A conundrum for sure. Balancing all the parts of the human psyche is a full time job. Thank you very much for such a wonderful comment and as always thank you for your support of my writing. H 🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
26th Jun 2023 12:42pm
I missed it too.
Thankfully DUP does have the section highlighting the more popular poems of the month and your silver is shining brightly sitting at the top of the heap. Your poem hits my heart with a thud, it is so expertly expressed. The praise of others well deserved. This is BIG
BIG LIKE
RL AWARD
Highest Honor I can give to extraordinary writing
❤
Thankfully DUP does have the section highlighting the more popular poems of the month and your silver is shining brightly sitting at the top of the heap. Your poem hits my heart with a thud, it is so expertly expressed. The praise of others well deserved. This is BIG
BIG LIKE
RL AWARD
Highest Honor I can give to extraordinary writing
❤
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
27th Jun 2023 4:38am
Dear PS,
Wow! I’m touched and very honored! Thank you so much. I truly appreciate this. Makes me feel like I’ve just won an academy award. I’m floating on air. Thank you again. xx
H🌷
Wow! I’m touched and very honored! Thank you so much. I truly appreciate this. Makes me feel like I’ve just won an academy award. I’m floating on air. Thank you again. xx
H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
26th Jun 2023 2:49pm
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27th Jun 2023 4:40am
Dear L,
It’s such an honor to receive this kindness. Thank you very much for your read and support. I’m so grateful. H🌷
It’s such an honor to receive this kindness. Thank you very much for your read and support. I’m so grateful. H🌷
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5th Aug 2023 2:00pm
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6th Aug 2023 11:56am
Dear CR,
Thank you. Yes, I suppose there is a stream of conscientious as I just kept thinking about stuff😊
I really appreciate your kind comment. Thank you once again. H🌷
Thank you. Yes, I suppose there is a stream of conscientious as I just kept thinking about stuff😊
I really appreciate your kind comment. Thank you once again. H🌷
Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
7th Aug 2023 10:10pm
Thirty pieces of silver seems like a lot for morality.
Most throw it away for free...
So you my beautiful lady are not cheap at all.
Perhaps I am gathering my thirty pieces of silver...
Because I want to see what you will do with me.
Um. Nevermind * innocent look *
But there is so much I want to know about what you would do.
Those old desires, and the new ones too.
That need only grows so much stronger.
So many contradictions, so many conflicts...
But "I will do" sounds so seductive.
To cleanse a soul takes a lot of "I will"
Or maybe it's "I won't", I get so confused.
Still thirty pieces of silver is so beautiful.
Just like you...
Most throw it away for free...
So you my beautiful lady are not cheap at all.
Perhaps I am gathering my thirty pieces of silver...
Because I want to see what you will do with me.
Um. Nevermind * innocent look *
But there is so much I want to know about what you would do.
Those old desires, and the new ones too.
That need only grows so much stronger.
So many contradictions, so many conflicts...
But "I will do" sounds so seductive.
To cleanse a soul takes a lot of "I will"
Or maybe it's "I won't", I get so confused.
Still thirty pieces of silver is so beautiful.
Just like you...
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Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
8th Aug 2023 1:31am
Dear K,
I love your comment. “Those old desires, and the new ones too.
That need only grows so much stronger.
So many contradictions, so many conflicts... ” this in particular, is worthy of hours of self reflection. I agree old desires burn strongly but the new ones have a ferocious heat on their own. I can’t get out of my own way without tripping over my own conflicting thoughts.
Some days feel impossible to maneuver the self doubt is so heavy. Thankfully, you always appear at my most vulnerable hour to lift my lowest spirit and I can fly again. Thank you. xx
H🌷
I love your comment. “Those old desires, and the new ones too.
That need only grows so much stronger.
So many contradictions, so many conflicts... ” this in particular, is worthy of hours of self reflection. I agree old desires burn strongly but the new ones have a ferocious heat on their own. I can’t get out of my own way without tripping over my own conflicting thoughts.
Some days feel impossible to maneuver the self doubt is so heavy. Thankfully, you always appear at my most vulnerable hour to lift my lowest spirit and I can fly again. Thank you. xx
H🌷
Re: Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
8th Aug 2023 7:13pm
I really love to see you fly with glee.
And so it's probably just greedy of me.
But I really want you to see...
How beautiful you are to me.:)
I suck at rhyming so I will leave it be.
Just know your response means so much to me.
X :)
And so it's probably just greedy of me.
But I really want you to see...
How beautiful you are to me.:)
I suck at rhyming so I will leave it be.
Just know your response means so much to me.
X :)
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Re. Thirty Pieces of Silver
28th Aug 2023 5:34pm
Gosh, NaPo seems ages ago - but it certainly brought out of you a sharp poem; nice that you posted it here.
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29th Aug 2023 9:10am
Dear J,
NaPo does feel ages ago but more scary is that NaPo 2024 will be here before we know it! Thank you for remembering it and this wonderful comment. Alas, some experiences will evoke such emotion as to make it into poetry. Thank you again. H🌷
NaPo does feel ages ago but more scary is that NaPo 2024 will be here before we know it! Thank you for remembering it and this wonderful comment. Alas, some experiences will evoke such emotion as to make it into poetry. Thank you again. H🌷
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19th Apr 2024 6:41am
Dear S,
😂 I’m in good company. Awesome.
Thank you so much for your wonderful comment and RL. Humbled and grateful.
H🌷
😂 I’m in good company. Awesome.
Thank you so much for your wonderful comment and RL. Humbled and grateful.
H🌷