shamed within an unashamed pettiness.

We all have last straw moments, it's human to get fed up at times. We can only hope that whatever you're going through works itself out. We hope that it's for the better of both involved, tight work Lady

I very much appreciate your comments my friend. Thanks for that thoughtful response. I always bask in your support and encouragement... I'm not going through anything really. It's more of a general idea of what of how I feel going forward.
To perhaps stick up for myself sometimes when I don't....  
Much love,  
🌹    
xo

So true. Sometimes it's hard to ignore things that hurts you.
Good write, Blue.🌹

Thank you for reading and understanding my journey, Grace... I appreciate you, so.
🌹
xo

Dear BV,

Oh I sooooooo get this. After years of fighting this side of me I’ve decided to embrace it. Now it’s an endearing quality (I’m totally fibbing) but I ask you, how can I be expected to be the bigger person when others behave like dopes? I always appreciate your candidate and open writes because they’re truthful and while you might start them from a place of fear in admitting them they are fearless for folks like me knowing I’m not alone in these feelings and responses. You go right ahead and wear that pettiness with pretty pride 😀
Rock on with your bad self. Great write. H🌷

You nail the conundrum, Honoria.
It's dopes and even more menacing, it's the master manipulators. Turning the other cheek and being the bigger person, is my usual m. o. most of the time and will probably continue to be, I'm sure but I think I'll also take a look at self evaluations that lead me to calling out the most heinous actors that perpetuate this bullshit behavior... lol.
Badass, indeed... Yesss!.. hahaha 😂
Ty for your kick ass encouragement, H
Right on! 🙏💪🏻👍🏻✊🏻
Much love,
🌹
xo

Sometimes we don't want to be the bigger person.  Just be yourself.  Keep on writing.

You got that right, Francisco...
Ty for reading and leaving your thoughts
I appreciate it
🌹

Nicely written Blu.  Hopefully you can leave those feelings on the page for a little while as you figure it out.

You're kindness is only outweighed by your considerate comments, Lj. I thank you for reading and taking the time to leave your thoughts.
I appreciate the list add for happiness, too
Thank you muchly :)
🌹
xo

Dear, Lady Blue
This is a courageous, vulnerable piece. We all feel ill will at times. That's human nature. I could ramble on about what I do when beset by such feelings but I wont. I am sad that you are struggling with such feelings.  Brava, BB❣❣

I wish you'd have given me a hint at your go to when you experience something like what I've described... but I understand. I'm not so much struggling as I am just fed up. I appreciate your empathetic comments and I thank you for leaving such kindness
Maybe one day you will let me pick your brain!
Much love, BB 🐻 💋 🐻
🌹
B

Sometimes we aren't reaching out to be fixed but to just vent and to have someone listen. That's why I chose to not make suggestion.
The primary ideas that empower me of late are that happiness is a choice and I can't make others happy with life, with me, or with themselves. My other, is the idea, attributed to many and I read it first in a Brené Brown book, the idea that what others think of me is none of my business. Three books I recommend, "The Untethered Soul," by Michael A. Singer and "The Four Agreements," by Don Miguel Ruiz. One classic that inspires me every time I read or listen to it is "Jonathan Livingston Seagull," by Richard Bach...there's an excellent version on YouTube read by Richard Harris. https://youtu.be/8COt1n3jDqA

I asked for it!... lol
Thank you for replying with such thoughtful honestly, it's greatly welcomed, my friend
I appreciate the read, recommendations, BB. Very kind of you and I'll be sure to check them out
🙏
xo

My pleasure, Lady Blue❣️❣️"The Four Agreements" read by Peter Coyote is awesome.

Will do, starting there, my beautiful friend (Awww!)
🐻🤗🐻🤗🐻🤗🐻
😉
xo

To describe how much this moved me would take words I do not have and I failed to see it the first time of reading.
Again you amaze me with your gift and such insight.
Richard

Richard,
Ty for reading, your comments just blow me away. I very much appreciate you, my dear.
Much love from across the pond,
🌹
-B

Thanks for the light, RiAN ... Maybe it'll shine upon my petty nonsense and illuminate.. leading me out the proper way , with self dignity and respect intact. I really appreciate your thoughtful comments and I am so grateful for your supportive visits.
Much love,
🌹

Hey beautiful
We all get that fuck then, moment.  Everyone says and often do things in the heat of the moment. It doesn't make you a bad person or ant less human
Deep inside you are a loving, caring bundle of awesomeness, you know that, I know that. So when you wish Ill will remember you are a beautiful person
Love and light gorgeous
Ron xx

I will take all of your comments and thoughts into consideration, that's for sure, Ron ;)
I really appreciate you reading and taking that time to remind me of true character. Ty my lovely salty sweetheart!
It's a great reminder, indeed
Much love,
🌹 💜 🌹
xoxo

who has been
prodding you
let me at 'em
grrrr

lol.... that was a good prodding, so no worries, my friend.  I thank you for having my back, though, it means a lot to me. I appreciate you reading, and the the list add as well. You're a wonderful friend, C
Ty Ty
🙏
xo

Nice authentic write ... great flow ... love the visual of the varied line length ... like the lower case "i"s ... very ee cummings ... nice poeting Bv ...

Hi there :)
Well, the idea was that the lower case i 's vs the only upper case  I at the very start were just going to be a humble way of showing a bit of honesty. So, at the onset with the capitalized I, I'm taking complete responsibility and then it's like some contrition with the lower case i's... Those were my thoughts , anyway... lol... Ty so much for reading and your generous list add LilD. Your thoughts are like a poetry class themselves and I truly adore them.... and you.
I'm so appreciative.
Much love and respectful, my friend
🌹
xo

Blue, your reflective and confessional writes resonate with so many of us here. Sometimes we struggle with similar thoughts and emotions it’s difficult to get out of those phases.
Thank you sharing with us.

I appreciate you saying that, Walter
Those are some incredibly kind sentiments and I'm always grateful for your insights.
Ty, my lovely friend
I'm glad to know I'm not alone...
🌹
xo

Lol. If it makes you feel better to hate then carry on hating until your head clears. I really like this write because it felt honest & more than a little uncomfortable to read. We know that pettiness is a bad thing but it's also what unlocks the creativity sometimes, which is what you were definitely hinting at, I think. I know you will be 'putting me right' after this. 😉

lol..
It's definitely not hate, that's for sure. I don't really hate anyone... or I try not to. It's more about wrestling with the fact that I can allow others to lower me to their level, when I should let it roll off my back. Instead, I can get stuck, in being petty and small. I don't like that feeling, not at all. I can get stuck though... it's tiresome, at times when you feel like you are always the one who is being the bigger person and rising above. I think there are excuses given to a certain cross section of folks who live their lives without honor or integrity and who definitely aren't deserving, yet get away with things, for one reason or another. However, it's the universe that shall sort that out, eventually (is my belief) not me.... Just my humble opinions, my lovely friend. Ty for sharing your thoughts, Billy... You know how much I love your visits!!
Much love from across the pond,
🌹
xo

You get stuck in your thoughts, like a caged animal, no doubt... Gwrrrrr! Yes, we all have these thoughts, it's just that some of us are perhaps more able to bring it across, like you have here. A definite RL for me & ' Poem Of The Day' in my view. Hey, now there's an idea, modulators... after all, we have 'poet of the week'. Some new flavours are warranted, I think. 😊

Ohhh Wow, Ty so much... You made my morning, Snaggy, 🌹☀🌹and I wholeheartedly appreciate the RL add 🙏
Poem of the day... I really like that idea!!!
... you should message Webmiss or the Mods to inquire if it's possible?!? 🙆🏻‍♀️
-xoxo

Now , being me , a little poem written
for those who fuck with me , my feelings ,
my friends...

I do not hold back...

They do it , they deserve it...

Perhaps it may serve you...

"A Little Bitchy , I Get Witchy ,
Then I Get An Itchy , To Scratch You"

( A Little Blood For My Spell )...lol... ( I am serious , though )

( Well written poem , my friend ! )

Dearest I. M. Blackwolf,  
I wish I had even the tiniest portion of courage you do, BW. Your ability to not take any shit is an area where I need to develop my skills. (note to self!)  

My appreciation soars - for the protection of your words which I cherish like I do our friendship. Thank you for stopping by and leaving that sentiment and casting it for my benefit. 🙏  

I loved seeing you 🦋  
Please don't be a stranger.
(I am over the moon you enjoyed reading my poem, btw.)  

Much love and well wishes,  
my generous friend.  
🌹
xo  
-Susan

My neighbor wakes me in the morning playing his music too loud and as I lay there half asleep I imagine all sorts of revenges upon him, but it's just thoughts. lol *hugs I hear you though Susan. I love the vulnerable contemplative mien of this.

You are such an enlightened and beautiful soul, my friend. I thank you for your admittance...I giggle in solidarity... That's kinda the worst way to wake me..It's happened to me, too... lol
Ty for understanding my mind and soul's confessions, Daniel.
We're all humans.. with all our fallibilities in tow..
hahaha

Much love for not being spooked by them
🌹
xo

So:  first time, first line i read:  '' I am pretty''    not ''petty'' and that thought of ''pretty'' makes you a much better person inside and out.  True, we all have these very negative moments and thoughts.  Seems we all constantly have to fight that devil in us.   Hugs, Robert.

We are all so human with that propensity inside... I myself am not proud of it, yet sometimes it can be sort of a protective layer, too... In my opinion

I giggled a little bit at the pretty vs petty... I am definitely not that self confident to start a poem that brazen... lmao. hahaha 😂

I thank you so much for reading and leaving your thoughtful sentiments, Robert
🙏
hugs to you, too!
🌹
xo

...but you are quite pretty.  Start from there.   Kisses, Robert.

doh!! (blushes)..
A girl will try!
Ty, my lovely friend 🙏
-x