LIFE AS A WRITER

From the depth of my heart and soul that is were you will find me, the me that very few people truly know and that is the me that I am beneath the surface of my subconsciousness. For I am that shadow which hides beneath the deepness of my silent hurt and pain, along with the process of my love had and love lost along the way of trails and tribulations.
For I don't speak much about my life I had for it is definitely true I have been through so much within this world. For life for me wasn't the life I chose as it was dealt to me by someone else hands, for as in life we get serve with things that not even we fully understand when you're young, for most of the time it's fake as hell with that pretend kind of love and honor and respect with devotion. For I have gone through so much within my life, I even have to question why have I been here so long when I should of been dead, from all the madness and insanity that I alone put my own life through. As I chose to live that street life at an early age due to my family life, which pushed me on the edge of the living dead causing me to face, the same course of actions that kill the most strongest of men's. For it took a long time for me to give a damn about my own life, as I silently thought that knowone else seems to care to know that I deserve better. As I was told lies that came from secrets being sweep under the rug, to have me believe that they truly loved me as her son, yet again that was all a lie yet I continue to keep a blind eye to the truth. For they say confession is good for the heart and soul, yet it is those struggles that will make or break you leaving you alone and afraid and abandon, with deep scars that seems to never go away like the memories that constantly continue to play over in your mind. Just like the nightmares of death walking around the corner, just waiting for you to break down and just give up before you even began to fight. But yet sometimes it is definitely necessary to leave the past behind you, as it will surely create illusions that well hold you back from enjoying your life. As it will surely have you not seeing the person, that who you can become by changing the images of the you that you once was into, being the person you are now as you have the power of manifestation to create, a new beginning of a new chapter in your own reflection of life. For if I can do it so can you for don't let what tried to destroy you be the one, that writes your life story about you for we are given choices to make a decision to make our lives better, for your life shouldn't stop there in the shadows and mist of the confusion of the storm, for you are not living amongst the dead for you are worthy as you live among the living who deserves to be love unconditionally for thyself.