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A, THE, conversation with God
A, THE, conversation with God
Alright God. I give.
My ass is kicked.
I've gotta get this shit licked.
My son, he said he hates me?
Took my last pill.
But I really needed to just fucking chill.
Okay, lying. Again. Took more than a few.
And my last drink.
But you know, a cocktail helps me think.
Fine God, thats bs. My cocktails now are bottles.
But God, hey, im on my damn knees!
Just fucking help me please!
I want, no, i need to get better.
My life no longer has meaning.
I no longer feel like a human being.
Just the walking dead.
Long time ago, stopped being bout self discovery.
A friend, he talked to me about recovery?
And I'm....I'm, yes. I am ready to surrender.
Aaahhh.. I just felt such release!
And....I think maybe, was that peace?
Its been so long.
Alright, im ready, I am really, through!
Yours God, just show me what to do.
I! Am no longer dying.
(comp entry "ending of self destruction" about my surrender to addiction, plunging into the 12 steps.)
Alright God. I give.
My ass is kicked.
I've gotta get this shit licked.
My son, he said he hates me?
Took my last pill.
But I really needed to just fucking chill.
Okay, lying. Again. Took more than a few.
And my last drink.
But you know, a cocktail helps me think.
Fine God, thats bs. My cocktails now are bottles.
But God, hey, im on my damn knees!
Just fucking help me please!
I want, no, i need to get better.
My life no longer has meaning.
I no longer feel like a human being.
Just the walking dead.
Long time ago, stopped being bout self discovery.
A friend, he talked to me about recovery?
And I'm....I'm, yes. I am ready to surrender.
Aaahhh.. I just felt such release!
And....I think maybe, was that peace?
Its been so long.
Alright, im ready, I am really, through!
Yours God, just show me what to do.
I! Am no longer dying.
(comp entry "ending of self destruction" about my surrender to addiction, plunging into the 12 steps.)
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Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 8:01pm
I read this is the comp. Jennifer it is a very real and powerful testament of what can be achieved by giving yourself over to a higher power..
congratulations again on the win :)
with love Brenda
congratulations again on the win :)
with love Brenda
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Re: Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 8:16pm
Thank you swetheart! And in such good company, your runner up not close to second best, a gorgeous piece about Brenda. Loved it.
💜Jennifer
💜Jennifer
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
Anonymous
4th Sep 2015 8:11pm
"ending of self destruction" . . . I can absolutely identify with this piece, Jen. I didn't take the 12 steps, but I became so frightened in the gas station bathroom where I was unable to find a fucking vein to insert the syringe that I flushed my shit down the toilet and stomped my syringe into about a million pieces, walked out of that .bathroom, bloody from my many attempts to get high, and left the drug culture. It was rough going for a few months, but I kicked the damn habit forever. Except for my two (three sometimes) cheap California burgundy. Yes. I relate. Fantastic write. It grabbed me.
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Re: Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 8:19pm
Good for you mih doll! Serious sack to kick that shit. 👣 A lil bugandy never Hurt anyone (exept for my drunken ass and the rest of us alchoholics.) Jerry thanks always for your faithful reads and lovely compliment s.
💜Jennifer
💜Jennifer
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 8:17pm
Without question one of the most down-to-earth, and delightful, prayers I've ever read. You talk to your Higher Power with honesty and a sense of humor, and I'm sure He listens. But he does work in mysterious ways, of course. For now the act of surrender brings some measure of serenity. Really enjoyed this Jennifer!
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Re: Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 8:24pm
Lol well me and the big G are tight. He knows the word Fuck comes outta my mouth bout as much air. Thanks Crow. Lol
🐷🐽
Jen
🐷🐽
Jen
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 8:33pm
Our inner child loves the word Fuck. It's the ultimate rebellion against expected conformity.
Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us.
Thank you for sharing this part of yourself with us.
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Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 8:40pm
Lol yeah my child is all fuckin over the place. Thanks for saying so doll. Appreciated.
🐜🐜
Jennifer
🐜🐜
Jennifer
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 9:56pm
very down to earth poem very well put but I think you are a down to earth person good for you
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4th Sep 2015 10:10pm
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
4th Sep 2015 10:36pm
J. yes these feeling and promises are home to many of us. You poem the earnest pleadings, the uncertainity and all of this is threaded with hope.
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4th Sep 2015 11:22pm
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
Anonymous
5th Sep 2015 4:33am
A prayer, puked from the gut while on your knees. Powerful Jennifer. Awesome.
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5th Sep 2015 4:36am
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
5th Sep 2015 9:46am
wow I think I can relate. very good write honest and real.
fathermadness
fathermadness
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Re: Re. A, THE, conversation with God
5th Sep 2015 11:48am
Thank you father, have sinned. 🐍
Happy to see a new face on my writes. Even a clown one. They freak me the fuck out!
🍒
J
Happy to see a new face on my writes. Even a clown one. They freak me the fuck out!
🍒
J
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
5th Sep 2015 4:25pm
"Alright God. I give.
My ass is kicked. "
~most epic lines.. is lying fuckery if any can say they *haven't felt this way.
read as the perfect plea of raw desperation, readiness to change/try also.
"Long time ago, stopped being bout self discovery."... hard-hitting, m'doll!
Ever lovin the honesty and soul-search of this one..such seriousness becomes you, with your perfect
dabs of sarcasm and humor. See well, the win from this. fantastic job! I do know small townin led to alot of my
addictions in past, boredom mainly [bad I know but truth] and so, feel this keenly Jen-darlin.
..but you're still my minxy creampuff, god or no! ;) *kisses and fuck words all over.
~d
My ass is kicked. "
~most epic lines.. is lying fuckery if any can say they *haven't felt this way.
read as the perfect plea of raw desperation, readiness to change/try also.
"Long time ago, stopped being bout self discovery."... hard-hitting, m'doll!
Ever lovin the honesty and soul-search of this one..such seriousness becomes you, with your perfect
dabs of sarcasm and humor. See well, the win from this. fantastic job! I do know small townin led to alot of my
addictions in past, boredom mainly [bad I know but truth] and so, feel this keenly Jen-darlin.
..but you're still my minxy creampuff, god or no! ;) *kisses and fuck words all over.
~d
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Re: Re. A, THE, conversation with God
5th Sep 2015 5:46pm
Lol good. Prefer to stay stay your sexy creampuff!
Tjanks for seeing all you did in it.
My sexy darlin T.
Lu ya! You sweet treat yo self!
🍩🍰🍧
Jennifer
Tjanks for seeing all you did in it.
My sexy darlin T.
Lu ya! You sweet treat yo self!
🍩🍰🍧
Jennifer
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
6th Sep 2015 7:10am
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
6th Sep 2015 7:16am
Re. A, THE, conversation with God
6th Sep 2015 6:23pm
god's tits & teeth, miss jen... how gritty & gripping this is ... i have never been on the best terms with this higher power but, your pleas here are wrenching, worthy of being heard & i'm glad they were
xoxox
such powerful ink
xoxox
such powerful ink
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Re: Re. A, THE, conversation with God
7th Sep 2015 5:50am
Thank you sweet, thank him er day they were! Keeps me from poison.
Lu ya
Jen
Lu ya
Jen