Image for the poem me me me me me me me me me me † † † †Part †5,751

me me me me me me me me me me † † † †Part †5,751

these tendencies towards "darkness" trouble me

my albums overflow with kodachrome of joyous expressions.

Is the purpose of these records to capture our carefree moments

so we can smile and reminisce about spirited times ?

Perhaps they serve as receipts, PROOF that happiness

WAS experienced, evidence that we indeed

have recieved our share of sunshine.

  I dont quite grasp my position within Our continuum. Why

arent I distracted by "the grand parade of lifeless packaging"?*

 I havent spent more than a half hour in a Shopping Maul

since I was a teen. And there have only been a handfull of

these uncomfortable mini-excursions over the past couple of

decades. Yet it seems the vast majority of people frolic

in these "monuments to commerce" like 3 year olds nakedly

dancing between water drops at a sprinkler park.

 †Innately I know that whichever "Half Empty/Half Full" outlook

a person tends to lean toward will rule their perception of

the world, and how well-adjusted they are within it. So how

come I cant simply "WILL" the social discomfort away?

 I'm pretty damn good at controling pain.

Ive "mental toughnessed" myself through more than a half-dozen

 declined surguries -- all of which have healed correctly.

In fact, an orthopedist

once told me †"I see you've broken your ankle" .....

"Yes you did, see this mass of scar tissue? You had a bad break....
about six or seven years ago....."

 Well shit, if I can bear something like that for months,

why the hell does my skin start to crawl as soon as I

step into a climate controlled department store?

*Peter Gabriel 1974
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