Self Poems
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Personal poetry about the way you feel about yourself
This area is for personal poetry: poems about yourself and your feelings about who you are. Poems here focus on identity, ego, self confidence, insecurities and personality. For readers it's a chance to get to know the poet better and for writers it's an opportunity to analyse themselves by poetic means. The self poems category encourages the poet to lay themselves bare for all to read about, it can be both a frightening and empowering experience.
Performance Review
I wish I could have been encouraged
by those closest to me,
I was taught we should be fortunate for the basics
and I believe that to be true
I see it was defeat
that carried them through life
and in turn
that translated
that one must settle instead of strive
But here I am
mid-life,
and unfulfilled in career
my only salvation
often the imagination
I envy those so driven,
qualities I can't always find in myself
the power of repetitive mindsets
having that influence
It isn't that I...
by those closest to me,
I was taught we should be fortunate for the basics
and I believe that to be true
I see it was defeat
that carried them through life
and in turn
that translated
that one must settle instead of strive
But here I am
mid-life,
and unfulfilled in career
my only salvation
often the imagination
I envy those so driven,
qualities I can't always find in myself
the power of repetitive mindsets
having that influence
It isn't that I...
#identity
#PersonalGrowth
#SelfReflection
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Silent warrior
I know now what I want to be
It is not to make war with weaponry
I have no arsenals at my disposal
No strength but what is inside
I want to be
A silent warrior
A loud warrior runs towards danger
And enjoys the thrill of the fight
And does everything to appear tough
And runs away from what is inside
A silent warrior is open and truly free
Not afraid to see
Everything that is inside
She turns away from violent fight
She wages war on fear and ignorance
Her war is with herself, not others
And...
It is not to make war with weaponry
I have no arsenals at my disposal
No strength but what is inside
I want to be
A silent warrior
A loud warrior runs towards danger
And enjoys the thrill of the fight
And does everything to appear tough
And runs away from what is inside
A silent warrior is open and truly free
Not afraid to see
Everything that is inside
She turns away from violent fight
She wages war on fear and ignorance
Her war is with herself, not others
And...
#courage
#determination
#strength
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creature of habit
27 of 30
I have a startlingly large collection of movies
among them are television series...
{some from my childhood days...}
documentaries ...
& a bizarre array of disaster films...
...many of them low budget & cheesy
about which my family teases me
but I love them
550 {& counting...} dvds...
yet I will binge watch the same dozen or so
when asked why I don't view the rest
I was at a loss to explain
until I saw an article that deeply resonates
it stated that trauma survivors frequently...
I have a startlingly large collection of movies
among them are television series...
{some from my childhood days...}
documentaries ...
& a bizarre array of disaster films...
...many of them low budget & cheesy
about which my family teases me
but I love them
550 {& counting...} dvds...
yet I will binge watch the same dozen or so
when asked why I don't view the rest
I was at a loss to explain
until I saw an article that deeply resonates
it stated that trauma survivors frequently...
#confessional
#learning
#NaPoWriMo2024 #vulnerability
#NaPoWriMo2024 #vulnerability
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1 Comment
voyagers
Voyagers
The old ship
rust stripped like a Sudanese mule
doomed to carry fleeing people across
a landscape of despair
Why, she floats is a lasting mystery
From one obscure port to another
she finds her way
The captain and the chief are never sober
plays ten-cent poker
The captain signs the manifesto but takes
no interest, what's in the ship's hold
other than massive rats
when did the pair come onboard, was it
when they were young and wore uniforms
and had shiny black shoes inspected
the crew's fingernail...
The old ship
rust stripped like a Sudanese mule
doomed to carry fleeing people across
a landscape of despair
Why, she floats is a lasting mystery
From one obscure port to another
she finds her way
The captain and the chief are never sober
plays ten-cent poker
The captain signs the manifesto but takes
no interest, what's in the ship's hold
other than massive rats
when did the pair come onboard, was it
when they were young and wore uniforms
and had shiny black shoes inspected
the crew's fingernail...
#forgiveness
#love
#motivational #strength
#motivational #strength
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Am I Cheating Death or Is Death Cheating Me?
Am I alive or just surviving
Waking up and going through the motions
I breathe, my heart beats
Yet I suffocate beneath the surface
Earning my share of the air in my lungs
Everything is mortgaged
I wager time and bid on my dreams
I take the risk of delays against the hope of an un-promising tomorrow
Can dimmer futures house within the light of brighter days ahead
In this world overcast of shadows
The clouds are circling to descend
Heaven is a loaded orbit
Like we’re playing roulette with the stars we provoke
How long...
Waking up and going through the motions
I breathe, my heart beats
Yet I suffocate beneath the surface
Earning my share of the air in my lungs
Everything is mortgaged
I wager time and bid on my dreams
I take the risk of delays against the hope of an un-promising tomorrow
Can dimmer futures house within the light of brighter days ahead
In this world overcast of shadows
The clouds are circling to descend
Heaven is a loaded orbit
Like we’re playing roulette with the stars we provoke
How long...
#dark
#depression
#despair
#disappointment
#NaPoWriMo2024
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The Dissolution
There's a lot of water under this bridge
I tried to jump off and go for a swim
I was met with the current too strong for me
For it triggered my wounds until they toppled me
I tried so hard to feel safe and secure
But there was no buoy to help me anchor
The thoughts and feelings instead sank her
Each reinforcement tainted her
She returned to the bridge escaping further pollution
Avoidance was the only solution
I tried to jump off and go for a swim
I was met with the current too strong for me
For it triggered my wounds until they toppled me
I tried so hard to feel safe and secure
But there was no buoy to help me anchor
The thoughts and feelings instead sank her
Each reinforcement tainted her
She returned to the bridge escaping further pollution
Avoidance was the only solution
#anxiety
#depression
#MentalHealth
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Mausoleum Style Mind
tail spin life
spiralling
into darkness
sinking feelings
bite down
securing a
tighter grip
guilt crawls
over self
mausoleum
style mind
sadness
weaved tightly
totally bound
to it
acratched deeper
onto skin
plumetting trust
never recovered
pussling imagination
drowning me
ponder all
shades vlack
powerful expression
tearing inside
ripping out
reason for living
nothingness resides
guest like
but altogether ...
spiralling
into darkness
sinking feelings
bite down
securing a
tighter grip
guilt crawls
over self
mausoleum
style mind
sadness
weaved tightly
totally bound
to it
acratched deeper
onto skin
plumetting trust
never recovered
pussling imagination
drowning me
ponder all
shades vlack
powerful expression
tearing inside
ripping out
reason for living
nothingness resides
guest like
but altogether ...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#NaPoWriMo2024
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7 Comments
one beautiful night
funny how a child
sees the
world
how they weigh the
balance of what is
important
like going to
Burger
Chef:
hamburgers: .18c
cheeseburgers: .25c
big chef: .45c
french fries: .15c
milkshakes: .20-30c
sodas: .10-20c
bring a mere child at that
time I was at the mercy
of my
parents
who decided that plain
old hamburgers and
cheeseburgers
was all I was
equipped to
handle
my mom would always
ask, " what would you ...
sees the
world
how they weigh the
balance of what is
important
like going to
Burger
Chef:
hamburgers: .18c
cheeseburgers: .25c
big chef: .45c
french fries: .15c
milkshakes: .20-30c
sodas: .10-20c
bring a mere child at that
time I was at the mercy
of my
parents
who decided that plain
old hamburgers and
cheeseburgers
was all I was
equipped to
handle
my mom would always
ask, " what would you ...
#childhood
#nostalgia
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2 Comments
Nyctophobia
When an impressionable child
darkness I could not abide
Every night when out went the light
petrified I lay in bed
Feeling so vulnerable, so isolated,
Left alone, with no protector
for they were fast asleep
or gone to heaven.
My only safe haven,
an impervious blanket fortress.
When overcome by fear
of creeping, crawling, slithering things;
the gnarly monster hands
reaching up from under the bed
my skinny neck to wring
I would frantically dive
deep under the covers.
Where, yes, it was darker still ...
darkness I could not abide
Every night when out went the light
petrified I lay in bed
Feeling so vulnerable, so isolated,
Left alone, with no protector
for they were fast asleep
or gone to heaven.
My only safe haven,
an impervious blanket fortress.
When overcome by fear
of creeping, crawling, slithering things;
the gnarly monster hands
reaching up from under the bed
my skinny neck to wring
I would frantically dive
deep under the covers.
Where, yes, it was darker still ...
#anxiety
#fear
#NaPoWriMo2024
#night
#peace
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My Waterpark
Like benzyl peroxide in a stagnant body of water
liquids pooled up in these cables
forming knots in my hose
And there's piss everywhere
guess these kiddos were never taught
where to do their business outside
Everybody body-dipping, in and out
diluting pieces of the mind
leaving dead flesh, they never washed
What a paradox
how this Waterpark seems so unclean
the efforts in vain
Stalling in hotdog shops
taking drinks in between breaks
When will I take this plunge?
liquids pooled up in these cables
forming knots in my hose
And there's piss everywhere
guess these kiddos were never taught
where to do their business outside
Everybody body-dipping, in and out
diluting pieces of the mind
leaving dead flesh, they never washed
What a paradox
how this Waterpark seems so unclean
the efforts in vain
Stalling in hotdog shops
taking drinks in between breaks
When will I take this plunge?
#courage
#strength
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Deprived Dreams
I'm breaking down
In mid of day
The connections
That keep the peace
'Tween truth and lies
Ripping back drapes
Monsters flashing
Before my eyes
Cogs tearing down
Machinery
Overheating
Cognition slips
Brain in first gear
Red lights seem green
Heading full speed
Something Inside
Scream. Screams! SCREAMING!!
Brakes glowing red
Heart shakes and aches
Adrenaline
Quick infusion
Caffeine can't match
Carries safely
My return home
In mid of day
The connections
That keep the peace
'Tween truth and lies
Ripping back drapes
Monsters flashing
Before my eyes
Cogs tearing down
Machinery
Overheating
Cognition slips
Brain in first gear
Red lights seem green
Heading full speed
Something Inside
Scream. Screams! SCREAMING!!
Brakes glowing red
Heart shakes and aches
Adrenaline
Quick infusion
Caffeine can't match
Carries safely
My return home
#NaPoWriMo2024
#nightmares
#scary #sleep
#scary #sleep
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Animal matter
What if I said
there are hard parts i'll never reveal,
if I said how wind knows my back
more than most people
well, maybe you oughta know
exactly where i'm coming from
in the way my skin has been handled
like carcasses in a slaughterhouse
battered into soft leather matter,
durable, wrapped round large hands
that turned everything into shit soon
as the callous parts touched it,
maybe you oughta know
exactly where i'm coming from
in the way my fingers switch on the news ...
there are hard parts i'll never reveal,
if I said how wind knows my back
more than most people
well, maybe you oughta know
exactly where i'm coming from
in the way my skin has been handled
like carcasses in a slaughterhouse
battered into soft leather matter,
durable, wrapped round large hands
that turned everything into shit soon
as the callous parts touched it,
maybe you oughta know
exactly where i'm coming from
in the way my fingers switch on the news ...
#confessional
#nature
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