I was always afraid Of growing older. I'm 47. My twenties and thirties were dark, Horrible times, Storms of insecurity and uncertainty. But now, peace has finally come. I realize I don't need anyone To make me happy. I only have myself. And that's enough. It's okay to be alone.
And everyday it was difficult, walking around and knowing that people saw me one way, knowing that they were wrong, so completely wrong, that the real me was invisible to them. It didn't even exist to them. So: If nobody sees you, are you still there? óAkwaeke Emezi, The Death of Vivek Oji
Visible written June 5th, 2021
I slowly approach the idea of being visible after a lifetime of being afraid of being seen.
Being invisible is a kind of protection. If I can be invisible disappear even to myself ...
I never knew SHE was there until SHE was born Painfully in labor from within my soul SHE was torn From the moment I sensed HER I knew SHE was the thorn to my rose and the breaking of a new dawn
SHE says baby love yourself more don't be afraid to explore SHE says touch yourself there and there and there just a little bit more SHE loves it when I ENJOY myself yes SHE adores My face of pleasure when I am a whore
SHE Whispers to me that I am a Queen Other times I'm a junkie high on benzene
As i wander off To the land of fae Whence i shall fly Under a moonlit sky And dance in circles With my fairy friends And ride on the backs Of dragons Warmed by their firey breath As their cinders Flow through the air Like glowing fireflies As their roar Like rumbling thunder Quakes the Earth And i will feel free again As i admire the magic all around me Engulfed by its' majesty As i escape these earthly shackles That bind me As i kiss The wet, and watery wind And...
Your scars tell me of the battles you have overcome Each and every one would have had me numb Strong as a King in command of his castle you did not succumb You fought and made life dance to the beat of your base drum
A warrior, battle scars that prove you are brave Your lust for life and love is what I crave Every warlord you defeated and made your slave Ready for the next king to show to a grave
Your smile is your best defense Wielding your weapon at every chance Victorious and with honor you did the sword dance Not ever...