I'm hurt and beat. Laying down in defeat. I lay here on the floor. Unsure of what to do anymore. Not wanting to feel this way. But on the ground I still lay. What steps do I take? Which choices do I make? I no longer wish to hide. From the sorrow inside. Trying to stand my ground. With the vigor I've found.
I can't see it there. Yet, its mine to bear. Be that as it may. It marks me in some way. So that I'm left out. I have no doubt. That it's on my forehead. Or my back instead. Somehow you can tell. You see the target well. That's why you don't relent. Even though I'm spent. Where did it originate? What was the date? If I only knew. Maybe I could understand you.
I wish I could tell everyone I meet everything that makes me special how I wish I could convey my deepest thoughts show how smart I think I am don't want any secrets want to put all my cards down show them off to everybody who doubted me don't want to gloat just want to show I am more than appearance
guess I can't find the right words to say like a rat trapped in ah cage I scream and claw at my surroundings I'm the loud American
oh how I have loved and how I have lost ashamed of the...
I don't wish to recall Nor pine to remember Remove the recant I won't hold those words Even at arms length. Wretched reminisce, are Rancid restarts Living for a short-term life Or is it a long-form lie? No steps to retrace I've forgotten those walks Relish the relief Of a life untold, Unspoken, unthought Un-anaylse the roads Unburdened isn't unhappy. Or am I incomplete Cowardly and meek To seek to be blind † † † † † † † † † † † Eyes closed are the weak.
Lost in the black mist. Is there a path I missed? I know that I'll find my way. Out of darkness into day. This time, I won't give in. No matter what may spin. Even if I fumble about. I'll push myself until I'm out. I'm not who I used to be. Now I can plainly see. It's different than before. I'm not powerless anymore.
I thought I was alone. With a need to atone. But lately I've come to realize. Beyond the sorrow and my cries. I now have people who care. Who will treat me fair. That won't laugh at me. They love me very dearly. Angels who guide me along. Keeping me standing strong. Granting me their love. Showering it from above. Feeling the magic touch. Thank you ever so much.
I'm feeling very weak. My hurt is at it's peak. Pills in my mouth. As my life goes south. Feeling nothing inside. Open long and wide. Numb away my pain. Stare into the rain. Throwing away my humanity. Losing all of my sanity. It's far worse without it. I'm not mentally fit. They linger and haunt. The voices laugh and taunt. But at the end of the day. I can't go on this way.