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all because I said god damn
my whole body is broken
but I still have my will
our beliefs are different
and yet I love you still
but you push me away
because I don’t believe in god
i can’t work for my own way
so you guys help me out a lot
and in a fleeting moment
when I was far too slammed
yeah, I might’ve really fucked up
all because I said god damn
so now we’re not talking
you won’t answer the phone
you say that it’s alright
that you know I’m full grown
but you say you’ll leave me
if I don’t get my shit together
even after I told you I was scared
to be left out in the weather
to be left out in the cold
out of our family I’d been ran
pushed to the corner or the curb
all because I said god damn
there goes your compassion
to consider what would cut the deepest
you found the well and drew on it
of all the shots, that was the cheapest
so here I am alone again
left to my own mind to toy around
i couldn’t trust you with that fear of mine
though already too late I have found
don’t text me back
you didn’t know how sorry I am
but to pull out all the big guns — tsk
all because I said god damn
but I still have my will
our beliefs are different
and yet I love you still
but you push me away
because I don’t believe in god
i can’t work for my own way
so you guys help me out a lot
and in a fleeting moment
when I was far too slammed
yeah, I might’ve really fucked up
all because I said god damn
so now we’re not talking
you won’t answer the phone
you say that it’s alright
that you know I’m full grown
but you say you’ll leave me
if I don’t get my shit together
even after I told you I was scared
to be left out in the weather
to be left out in the cold
out of our family I’d been ran
pushed to the corner or the curb
all because I said god damn
there goes your compassion
to consider what would cut the deepest
you found the well and drew on it
of all the shots, that was the cheapest
so here I am alone again
left to my own mind to toy around
i couldn’t trust you with that fear of mine
though already too late I have found
don’t text me back
you didn’t know how sorry I am
but to pull out all the big guns — tsk
all because I said god damn
Published 19th Jul 2019
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19th Jul 2019 7:56pm
Love should always be more important than anything ... If it's god, great ... If not, just love ... Bless and much love dear Liv ...
19th Jul 2019 8:28pm
19th Jul 2019 8:25pm
Some seem to try and set the bar to high for others, but can they leap over the same bar they set. Worth thinking about
19th Jul 2019 8:29pm
19th Jul 2019 8:38pm
I have said so much worse (lol) I had a tempestuous childhood and by the age of 13 I finally found my voice. My inner rage and rejected christianity to become an atheist. needles to say that didn't go down well in a foster parent's home where they were members of the salvation army.
Two lessons in life I have learned and hold dear:
1. Blood is not thicker than water
2. All you need is one really good, friend
I loved this poem, you are quite the wordsmith :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Two lessons in life I have learned and hold dear:
1. Blood is not thicker than water
2. All you need is one really good, friend
I loved this poem, you are quite the wordsmith :-))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
19th Jul 2019 10:00pm
Aww, David, I do have some really good friends and a great support system here on DU! Thanks so much for the unrelenting support❤️
19th Jul 2019 9:32pm
When religion pulls people apart you can't make sense of it. I always go by the mantra, you believe what you want but don't force those beliefs on anyone else.
19th Jul 2019 10:05pm
THATS ME TOO. I respect you as far as you respect me. Thanks for the kind words, dear. I’m glad you enjoyed this piece.
19th Jul 2019 9:42pm
Your poem made me think of the song Mississippi goddam by Nina Simone:
https://www.bing.com/search?q=mississippi+goddam+nina+simone&form=EDGNTT&qs=AS&cvid=f9b5bc6c2fd144cdb6b7a8d9ad58f8f6&refig=1a56c658df8a4a26abaf67c05c9b3f4e&cc=GB&setlang=en-GB&PC=HCTS
https://www.bing.com/search?q=mississippi+goddam+nina+simone&form=EDGNTT&qs=AS&cvid=f9b5bc6c2fd144cdb6b7a8d9ad58f8f6&refig=1a56c658df8a4a26abaf67c05c9b3f4e&cc=GB&setlang=en-GB&PC=HCTS
19th Jul 2019 10:07pm
19th Jul 2019 10:01pm
Sounds very petty to me. Whatever happened to 'understanding' huh? Nice write.
19th Jul 2019 10:25pm
Yeah, right, Snaggy! I couldn’t agree more. Thanks for the reading and commenting, luv!
GD! To alienate nay ostracize an ostensible loved one for cussing, taking the Lord's name in vain, is truly not Christian. To love unconditionally in spite of perceived faults is truly Christ Like. No one is worthy to cast the first stone. I say amen sister to this one 😁🙏
19th Jul 2019 10:40pm
I’m way too high to understand what you just said. Thanks Gahddess for the read and comment!❤️
19th Jul 2019 11:51pm
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20th Jul 2019 1:16am
So saddened to read this Beautiful
When my (immediate) family learned that i'd renounced Christianity that i was raised up in,
they did not shun, or demean, or do anything negative to me. I mean, we are Family!! We still love each other.
I lost some Friends but not very many. I've tried to be authentic as much as possible all my life and so now i've gained a new set of friends and life is exciting and while i was a wee bit sad to lost some family and friends, that is on them and not on me!!
Likewise, Your choices and growth is for You and Your benefit and if they can't accept or handle it
that is on them and never on You!!
You keep doing YOU as You are talented and Gorgeous and Strong
When my (immediate) family learned that i'd renounced Christianity that i was raised up in,
they did not shun, or demean, or do anything negative to me. I mean, we are Family!! We still love each other.
I lost some Friends but not very many. I've tried to be authentic as much as possible all my life and so now i've gained a new set of friends and life is exciting and while i was a wee bit sad to lost some family and friends, that is on them and not on me!!
Likewise, Your choices and growth is for You and Your benefit and if they can't accept or handle it
that is on them and never on You!!
You keep doing YOU as You are talented and Gorgeous and Strong
20th Jul 2019 1:17am
Love the writing of this and the lyric to a favorite tune which caused a lot of conterversy back in the day started spinning in my head. "Did you make mankind after we made you..." You have a way with words
