Cemetary Drunk

It's just down the road a few miles
from the hospital,  that hospital  
But they tried, So I can't be mad  
It's in a place just outside Chicago  
A very nice suburb to me  
McDonald's world headquarters  
Ray Croc would be proud,  maybe not  
Can't assume what a dead man thinks  
I'm thinking about this on my way  
Traffic, stop go. Stop go. Stop go.  
Just want to get to you. In a hurry.  
Finally, the gates that lead me there  
Little winding paths for cars  
Third one on the right  
That's where you're waiting for me  
So sweet,  you're always waiting for me  
I park, look around. See kids running  
They don't see me, thank God  
I pull out the paper bag and walk  
We're having drinks tonight baby  
I finally see the outline up ahead  
Of the headboards of your neighbors  
Yours lays flat with your name inscribed  
Perfect for me to put my face against  
As I lay on top of you whispering  
You don't whisper back to me  
Always so quiet these days even though  
Sometimes we fight and I scream  
And beg for you to speak to me  
Say something, anything please!  
But tonight we don't fight. Just love  
I drink from the bottle, give you some  
Not much, alcohol has always been  
A weakness of yours you tried to hide  
But I'm not telling anyone. Just us  
We drink until I start crying again  
I've always been one of those drunks  
You let me lay with you counting stars  
Unusual so close to the city, but  
Tonight they shine for us, twinkling  
I kiss your name. My lips on cold marble  
Oh I love you so much my beautiful man  
It's almost time for me to go home  
I have to pick up the kids from a friend  
Yeah, I'm an asshole because I was  
Drinking and now I'm going to drive  
But it was cheap wine not very strong  
I don't want to leave you ever  
Wish I could have a bed just like yours  
Right now I can't afford that luxury  
Raising kids gets expensive, one income  
I leave without a word till I reach the car  
Turning around to face you again  
I yell at the top of my lungs I Love You!!!  
Then I laugh because every time  
It reminds me of the day I fell for you  
You left the hotel where I worked  
Just stopped for a quick lunch  
When you went out to the car
me watching you from the lobby,  
You yelled at the top of your lungs  
I Love You!!! so loud I heard it inside  
I still hear it inside. Every day and night.