Submissions by Medinda
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Find what you love and let it kill you -Charles Bukowski
SELF POEM
Published
28th Nov 2023 00:34am
28th Nov 2023 00:34am
The Depths
Sometimes I am afraid of water.
When it's cold and dark.
Deep and mysterious.
When I don't know what is lurking beneath me.
Sometimes I am afraid of water.
When I am in a dream and see the shark circling.
When it's clear that
I have nowhere to escape.
Sometimes I am afraid of water.
When it's too hot and I feel like I will faint.
When I remember my mother putting me in the bathtub.
When all I could see was the steam rising and I screamed as my feet touched the surface.
When I can't remember anything after that.
...
When it's cold and dark.
Deep and mysterious.
When I don't know what is lurking beneath me.
Sometimes I am afraid of water.
When I am in a dream and see the shark circling.
When it's clear that
I have nowhere to escape.
Sometimes I am afraid of water.
When it's too hot and I feel like I will faint.
When I remember my mother putting me in the bathtub.
When all I could see was the steam rising and I screamed as my feet touched the surface.
When I can't remember anything after that.
...
#water
#SelfReflection
#fear
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Oct 2023 9:43am
29th Oct 2023 9:43am
Poor Pitiful We
I'm just a cynic
And I can't seem to quit it
I try and I try
But it just feels like lies
I want to be good
Something useful
And beautiful
Yet I can't find anything
That feels like anything
I actually have a wonderful life
I have a good husband
He loves his wife
I'm still raising some children
I'm still trying to live life
But something is missing
Is it the struggle
The strife
No, it can't be that
Because I'm still up at the bat
I'm still fighting a war
It's alcohol now
Not as bad as the...
And I can't seem to quit it
I try and I try
But it just feels like lies
I want to be good
Something useful
And beautiful
Yet I can't find anything
That feels like anything
I actually have a wonderful life
I have a good husband
He loves his wife
I'm still raising some children
I'm still trying to live life
But something is missing
Is it the struggle
The strife
No, it can't be that
Because I'm still up at the bat
I'm still fighting a war
It's alcohol now
Not as bad as the...
#depression
#identity
124 reads
7 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Oct 2023 8:55am
29th Oct 2023 8:55am
Old Age OmaGot
#sadness
#funny
#aging
53 reads
2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
22nd Aug 2023 6:51am
22nd Aug 2023 6:51am
My Savage Daughter
She was my first born
The one that I looked upon
With a perfect apgar score
No one else before
Was as good as her
Named after my
Grandmother
Just perfect
In every way
That could be
She was better than me
And I thanked God
That she wouldn't be
Anything like me
And I still believe
That she's better than me
With her Bachelor's degree
And her husband who seems
To love her
More than I ever could
More than her step dad
Ever would
Be able to
Because we weren't good
Enough for her ...
The one that I looked upon
With a perfect apgar score
No one else before
Was as good as her
Named after my
Grandmother
Just perfect
In every way
That could be
She was better than me
And I thanked God
That she wouldn't be
Anything like me
And I still believe
That she's better than me
With her Bachelor's degree
And her husband who seems
To love her
More than I ever could
More than her step dad
Ever would
Be able to
Because we weren't good
Enough for her ...
#children
142 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Aug 2023 6:27am
22nd Aug 2023 6:27am
You guessed it
#friendship
#WritingPoetry
68 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
25th Jun 2023 5:52am
25th Jun 2023 5:52am
Something new
It's been a very long time
And this is not what I have for you
But I have something new
It's coming
Soon
And this is not what I have for you
But I have something new
It's coming
Soon
#happiness
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
24th Feb 2023 9:22am
24th Feb 2023 9:22am
Ain't Got Nothing
Devil ain't got nothing
on me
Because I'm bought by the blood
and I am totally free
But you don't seem
to believe in anything
I guess that's just on you
There's really nothing I can do
to make you see
to help you be
Everything you could be
if you would just believe
in something
Anything
But that's the thing
It's not just anything
It has to be
that ONE thing
Are you hearing me
ARE YOU HEARING ME
IT IS THAT ONE THING
that means everything
HE
I AM
you and me
All things ...
on me
Because I'm bought by the blood
and I am totally free
But you don't seem
to believe in anything
I guess that's just on you
There's really nothing I can do
to make you see
to help you be
Everything you could be
if you would just believe
in something
Anything
But that's the thing
It's not just anything
It has to be
that ONE thing
Are you hearing me
ARE YOU HEARING ME
IT IS THAT ONE THING
that means everything
HE
I AM
you and me
All things ...
#peace
#wisdom
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Feb 2023 7:27am
3rd Feb 2023 7:27am
Homesteading
Water glassing eggs
Putting up some okra
Cabbage, sweet potatoes
And whatever we can get
Ahold of
Neighbor shot a deer
That's some meat in the freezer
Going to the food pantry
For some cabbage
And for weeks we're
Processing it all
Doing everything we can
In case the system falls
But I ain't no damn
Conspiracy
Theorist
I just want to make sure
That we make it
In case the
Conspiracies
Are the realistic
View on this new
World order of things
Lord help us
And bring your...
Putting up some okra
Cabbage, sweet potatoes
And whatever we can get
Ahold of
Neighbor shot a deer
That's some meat in the freezer
Going to the food pantry
For some cabbage
And for weeks we're
Processing it all
Doing everything we can
In case the system falls
But I ain't no damn
Conspiracy
Theorist
I just want to make sure
That we make it
In case the
Conspiracies
Are the realistic
View on this new
World order of things
Lord help us
And bring your...
#happiness
#family
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DRUGS POEM
Published
20th Sep 2022 5:56am
20th Sep 2022 5:56am
Killing Me
It's so easy isn't it?
To just go buy another fifth
Or pint
Or big ass
gallon of wine
Just go get whatever
to kill the fucking time
and destroy another day
All my plans get swept away
But hey
I'm recovering
Yay!
I'm not a tweaker anymore
Never did I ever
sell my body
like a dope whore
But that doesn't really
make much difference
when I was so lost
Couldn't measure the distance
between being a mom
and being nothing at all
I thought I was functional
Yet I can barely remember ...
To just go buy another fifth
Or pint
Or big ass
gallon of wine
Just go get whatever
to kill the fucking time
and destroy another day
All my plans get swept away
But hey
I'm recovering
Yay!
I'm not a tweaker anymore
Never did I ever
sell my body
like a dope whore
But that doesn't really
make much difference
when I was so lost
Couldn't measure the distance
between being a mom
and being nothing at all
I thought I was functional
Yet I can barely remember ...
#alcohol
#confusion
#nostalgia
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Sep 2022 5:30am
20th Sep 2022 5:30am
Bakaddit
Have I lost it
Was the pain
all there was to it
Did happiness and joy
kill my conduit
Oh shit
There's this numbness
like the one in my clit
that can't feel a thing
Unless there's jackhammer
pounding it
I didn't just say that
did I
You know I never lie
Well maybe just a smidge
just to scratch the itch
Why is this being
such a fucking bitch
Trying to find it
again
Like my ink's run out of pen
and my mind's run out
think
Maybe I'm only happy
when I have nothing
good to say...
Was the pain
all there was to it
Did happiness and joy
kill my conduit
Oh shit
There's this numbness
like the one in my clit
that can't feel a thing
Unless there's jackhammer
pounding it
I didn't just say that
did I
You know I never lie
Well maybe just a smidge
just to scratch the itch
Why is this being
such a fucking bitch
Trying to find it
again
Like my ink's run out of pen
and my mind's run out
think
Maybe I'm only happy
when I have nothing
good to say...
#WritersBlock
#FeelingLost
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2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Sep 2022 11:20pm
16th Sep 2022 11:20pm
BlackWidow
Black Widow is me you know
Of course you do because
I left open the window
For anyone to see
the other side of me
Obviously
But there aren't very many
who want to see
the forrest that lies
just beyond the trees
Yes, I said lies
write before your eyes
Because that's who
I want to be
Well, ok
Not really
At least not all the time
Now I'll change the rhyme
Just seeking attention
Absolutely and
positively
So be my huckleberry
and come follow me
Down the yellow brick road
or...
Of course you do because
I left open the window
For anyone to see
the other side of me
Obviously
But there aren't very many
who want to see
the forrest that lies
just beyond the trees
Yes, I said lies
write before your eyes
Because that's who
I want to be
Well, ok
Not really
At least not all the time
Now I'll change the rhyme
Just seeking attention
Absolutely and
positively
So be my huckleberry
and come follow me
Down the yellow brick road
or...
#strength
#identity
#funny
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4 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
16th Sep 2022 10:43pm
16th Sep 2022 10:43pm
Smoking
I am out of cigarettes
I should probably quit
But I'm rather committed
It's no longer in fashion
Socially acceptable
Or politically correct
Fuck it
I still want a cigarette
I have already quit
Everything else that
I used to smoke or "hit"
Shit
Nicotine fit
That's as bad as it gets
Worse than withdrawals
from crystal fucking meth
Yeah baby
I'm in that two percent
Ten months since we quit
Cause I'm the ma'fuckin shit
Still want a cigarette
Damn I guess
I gotta go to bed
I should probably quit
But I'm rather committed
It's no longer in fashion
Socially acceptable
Or politically correct
Fuck it
I still want a cigarette
I have already quit
Everything else that
I used to smoke or "hit"
Shit
Nicotine fit
That's as bad as it gets
Worse than withdrawals
from crystal fucking meth
Yeah baby
I'm in that two percent
Ten months since we quit
Cause I'm the ma'fuckin shit
Still want a cigarette
Damn I guess
I gotta go to bed
#addiction
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