Closing off

I had to go back and read this about 5 times before I found something to say, because my mind went in so many ways again. *dramatic sigh* also I fractured my damn foot so I've been more stoned than normal.

Insomnia kisses you when the heart of your ardor is attempting to convince
Your mind of a different thing.
Its hard to accept that your going to keep falling and hurting, the longer you make the same choices that brought you where your at. Its harder to accept that not everybody around you honestly cares for you. It hurts your soul.

I'm ending with a quote;
" ...your heart knows what it wants and your soul knows when its real. "
----N.R. Hart

Thanks , and I know its toxic , but I'm stupid and I love to much and give to many chances ,

I know how hard it is. I should write off some people that don't deserve me in their life, but because they created me I don't.
Someone once gave me tough love and said I do have a choice, and I'm choosing misery.
Just a thought I guess.

Sounds like a bad relationship that can be ended by one foot in front of the other or a well placed bullet?

I'm capable of both , I think I just like to suffer ..? Idk I'm fucked in the head

Don't consider it fucked, but focused with a twist.

You're funny man I like ya , I don't care what they say about you ,

I hope its all good. LOl