Submissions by Cosmonaut-x
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
23rd May 2020 10:32pm
23rd May 2020 10:32pm
Tarred and feathered
I'm a waste
Just garbage like they say
And all my anxiety and rage pushed them all away
I get better then I stumble
Mumbling it's your fault
Knowing I'm the cancer
that drains you each day
Im fuckin ill stay away
I'll only contaminate you
There's nothing to heal
Just only pain
You were everything I wanted
And Now you're just huanting
I wish I could take the pain away
I wish I could change all those days
But everything is lost
And I'm just forgotten.
Just garbage like they say
And all my anxiety and rage pushed them all away
I get better then I stumble
Mumbling it's your fault
Knowing I'm the cancer
that drains you each day
Im fuckin ill stay away
I'll only contaminate you
There's nothing to heal
Just only pain
You were everything I wanted
And Now you're just huanting
I wish I could take the pain away
I wish I could change all those days
But everything is lost
And I'm just forgotten.
#relationships
#SelfHarm
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3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
12th Jun 2018 11:58am
12th Jun 2018 11:58am
Hell's Valkerie
hell's valkyrie
I'm the kind of guy that men want to be
and I'm the dude your girl comes to see
sneaky late night, where were you honey
uh worked late?, traffic? got some grocery's?
I beat them cheeks brutally
she moans loudly
face to the pillow
is where she has to be
muffling the moans and screams
and it still could wake an army.
memories
looking at her makes me think
good times were had,
no time lost for me
drifting into endless positively
the best eternity continuously
...
I'm the kind of guy that men want to be
and I'm the dude your girl comes to see
sneaky late night, where were you honey
uh worked late?, traffic? got some grocery's?
I beat them cheeks brutally
she moans loudly
face to the pillow
is where she has to be
muffling the moans and screams
and it still could wake an army.
memories
looking at her makes me think
good times were had,
no time lost for me
drifting into endless positively
the best eternity continuously
...
#anxiety
#grief
#dark
#betrayal
#death
305 reads
3 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
3rd Jun 2018 11:10pm
3rd Jun 2018 11:10pm
Out the back
I had to be quiet she lay fast asleep
I crept and tiptoed out to the street
Getting in her car for a quickie
On the sneak
We've been at this awhile
The misses at home spits hatered that's vile
Teeth like a crocodile
But her friend seems to smile
Treating me like a king
I know it's only for the D
But In those moments
I forget that the one at home hates me .
I crept and tiptoed out to the street
Getting in her car for a quickie
On the sneak
We've been at this awhile
The misses at home spits hatered that's vile
Teeth like a crocodile
But her friend seems to smile
Treating me like a king
I know it's only for the D
But In those moments
I forget that the one at home hates me .
#sex
#betrayal
#dirty
389 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
1st Jun 2018 4:31am
1st Jun 2018 4:31am
Let me be myself
I'm not sure I can crawl from the depths of hell again
this time
This would be the third time
I've lost everything
including my mind.
I'm coming undone
Unraveling at the seams
Falling apart right before your eyes
The part that hurts most is you just watch me die
Trembling with anxiety from PTSD
Insecurities manifesting horribly
You pick and pick at me
My mind already tortures me
Devouring me sending me into the dark
Empty hollow guilty and broken
Wishing the God's would strike me down sending me to hell or...
this time
This would be the third time
I've lost everything
including my mind.
I'm coming undone
Unraveling at the seams
Falling apart right before your eyes
The part that hurts most is you just watch me die
Trembling with anxiety from PTSD
Insecurities manifesting horribly
You pick and pick at me
My mind already tortures me
Devouring me sending me into the dark
Empty hollow guilty and broken
Wishing the God's would strike me down sending me to hell or...
#love
#MentalHealth
#myself #FeelingLost
#myself #FeelingLost
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LOVE POEM
Published
31st May 2018 1:56am
31st May 2018 1:56am
Twist me
I wish you could see you as I do
Then those insecurities wouldn't be
Because your perfect to me
And fuck what they think and all do
It's me and you
You and I
And I will fight and love you till I die
Last breath leaving me
Saying fuck the world
But remembering my babygirl
And all the love I had with her
Every night I got to hold her
Kissing her forehead telling her I loved her
To me you are the perfect being
For the imperfect me
In this chaotic world
And we're both in need
We each fuel...
Then those insecurities wouldn't be
Because your perfect to me
And fuck what they think and all do
It's me and you
You and I
And I will fight and love you till I die
Last breath leaving me
Saying fuck the world
But remembering my babygirl
And all the love I had with her
Every night I got to hold her
Kissing her forehead telling her I loved her
To me you are the perfect being
For the imperfect me
In this chaotic world
And we're both in need
We each fuel...
#anxiety
#love
#depression #forgiveness
#depression #forgiveness
413 reads
8 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Apr 2018 4:45am
15th Apr 2018 4:45am
Crush me
I'm broken down
That's what i shouted
And she never doubted it ..
I've been struggling
Muggling buggeling
Crawling in the darkest corners
And i haven't found it ..
Im fucking deranged
The pain leaks thru theses hollow veins
Spilling onto pages and nothing will change
Im enraged
Do you hear the deafening sorrow
Say I'm melodramatic
and trace the scars to
You know nothing like i do
I soar above you
White wings
Hawk eyes
always scoping you
Point some...
That's what i shouted
And she never doubted it ..
I've been struggling
Muggling buggeling
Crawling in the darkest corners
And i haven't found it ..
Im fucking deranged
The pain leaks thru theses hollow veins
Spilling onto pages and nothing will change
Im enraged
Do you hear the deafening sorrow
Say I'm melodramatic
and trace the scars to
You know nothing like i do
I soar above you
White wings
Hawk eyes
always scoping you
Point some...
#anxiety
#love
#LifeStruggles
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DRUGS POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2018 8:05pm
3rd Apr 2018 8:05pm
Slammin and jammin
Fuck i slipped up
I thought i got rid of all of that meth
Start new and fresh
No paranoid thoughts
Making me want to peel my flesh
Hear and trust
Not interrogate and play bad cop bad cop
I don't do good cop
I'm an outlaw
First run in with the fuzz i was 9
I bashed a Harley to shit with some rocks
Pissed on the side walk
And ran off yelling fuck you call the cops
He did
And knew where i lived
When i answered the door
I got ghost white real quick
3000 dollars in Damages estimated
I worked for...
I thought i got rid of all of that meth
Start new and fresh
No paranoid thoughts
Making me want to peel my flesh
Hear and trust
Not interrogate and play bad cop bad cop
I don't do good cop
I'm an outlaw
First run in with the fuzz i was 9
I bashed a Harley to shit with some rocks
Pissed on the side walk
And ran off yelling fuck you call the cops
He did
And knew where i lived
When i answered the door
I got ghost white real quick
3000 dollars in Damages estimated
I worked for...
#hate
#ImSorry
#childhood
#abuse
#drugs
418 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Mar 2018 5:47pm
12th Mar 2018 5:47pm
Vices
Do you know what its like
To always feel guilty and never right ?
To be abused by the hand that you hold so tight
To be alone right there in sight
This seems to be my life
You break me down then want a fight
I tell the truth you scream and flight
Avoiding any deeper conversation
Youre used to stabbing
Picking away completely
Waiting for a reaction
You love to torture me
My anxiety and insecurities manifest horribly
Then I'm crazy
For reacting sanely
Fuck this hypocrisy
I'm going anarchy
Steal...
To always feel guilty and never right ?
To be abused by the hand that you hold so tight
To be alone right there in sight
This seems to be my life
You break me down then want a fight
I tell the truth you scream and flight
Avoiding any deeper conversation
Youre used to stabbing
Picking away completely
Waiting for a reaction
You love to torture me
My anxiety and insecurities manifest horribly
Then I'm crazy
For reacting sanely
Fuck this hypocrisy
I'm going anarchy
Steal...
#love
#forgiveness
#heartbroken
#lies
#betrayal
345 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
28th Feb 2018 11:29am
28th Feb 2018 11:29am
Whos got my 6
You say you got me
But you always forget about me
Leaving me stranded
With all my cash in your hand
Tonight someone tried to break in
You gave away our guns
Didn't even keep one
Even tho i pleaded
Now it's needed
What if i die tonight ?
If they come back looking for a fight ?
And I'm all alone in this home,
Quiet as a stone
It seems we always forget me and my needs
Or safety
And you being gone allowed me to breath
Now that I'm not suffocating
I see how poorly you treat me
How you don't...
But you always forget about me
Leaving me stranded
With all my cash in your hand
Tonight someone tried to break in
You gave away our guns
Didn't even keep one
Even tho i pleaded
Now it's needed
What if i die tonight ?
If they come back looking for a fight ?
And I'm all alone in this home,
Quiet as a stone
It seems we always forget me and my needs
Or safety
And you being gone allowed me to breath
Now that I'm not suffocating
I see how poorly you treat me
How you don't...
301 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
27th Feb 2018 4:26am
27th Feb 2018 4:26am
Arrow to the knee
It's like night then day
And when I awake the feelings stayed
The love that grew
Who knew I wouldn't give up on you
You fooled me once but I still loved you
I broke you down and punished you
Making you see the pain you cause from the things you do
I brought justice to a soul that knew
That it had wronged and damaged
So many lives
And it just wanted to pay for its crimes
I gave you what you need
I gave you freedom and release
A blank sheet
I always thought I'd die alone
And I still could...
And when I awake the feelings stayed
The love that grew
Who knew I wouldn't give up on you
You fooled me once but I still loved you
I broke you down and punished you
Making you see the pain you cause from the things you do
I brought justice to a soul that knew
That it had wronged and damaged
So many lives
And it just wanted to pay for its crimes
I gave you what you need
I gave you freedom and release
A blank sheet
I always thought I'd die alone
And I still could...
#love
#dreams
300 reads
0 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th Feb 2018 10:42pm
20th Feb 2018 10:42pm
Broken homes
You're losing it look at you
Everyday getting worse I don't even recognize you
You once were happy and loving
Now you self loath resent and act like you're mourning
You're depression is killing us
I've tried to be there for you but you always give up
On us
Screaming hatred
Everyday at me
I'm tired of your hands me
I could easily break you
But I don't because I love you
You get violent more everyday
Scratches,pushing slaps to the face
I don't know how much more I can take
I don't...
Everyday getting worse I don't even recognize you
You once were happy and loving
Now you self loath resent and act like you're mourning
You're depression is killing us
I've tried to be there for you but you always give up
On us
Screaming hatred
Everyday at me
I'm tired of your hands me
I could easily break you
But I don't because I love you
You get violent more everyday
Scratches,pushing slaps to the face
I don't know how much more I can take
I don't...
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#confessional
351 reads
1 Comment
STORY POEM
Published
20th Feb 2018 9:09pm
20th Feb 2018 9:09pm
I tried to say...
You never seen me when I was there
Looking past me into the air
I tried to reach out to you hoping you would feel me
Touch me
And Show me I'm living
I feel like nothing
Months went by with no feeling
No healing
Always Begging just for a hold
To feel something
Other than alone
And so cold
That day I tried to talk to you one last time before you stormed off.
I tried to tell you that I love you and I'm sorry
You screamed in my face vile profanities
Breaking the last parts of me
Before I took the...
Looking past me into the air
I tried to reach out to you hoping you would feel me
Touch me
And Show me I'm living
I feel like nothing
Months went by with no feeling
No healing
Always Begging just for a hold
To feel something
Other than alone
And so cold
That day I tried to talk to you one last time before you stormed off.
I tried to tell you that I love you and I'm sorry
You screamed in my face vile profanities
Breaking the last parts of me
Before I took the...
349 reads
4 Comments
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