Poems by Cosmonaut-x
LOVE POEM
Published
15th Apr 2018 4:45am
15th Apr 2018 4:45am
Crush me
I'm broken down
That's what i shouted
And she never doubted it ..
I've been struggling
Muggling buggeling
Crawling in the darkest corners
And i haven't found it ..
Im fucking deranged
The pain leaks thru theses hollow veins
Spilling onto pages and nothing will change
Im enraged
Do you hear the deafening sorrow
Say I'm melodramatic
and trace the scars to
You know nothing like i do
I soar above you
White wings
Hawk eyes
always scoping you
Point some fingers
Point the blame ...
That's what i shouted
And she never doubted it ..
I've been struggling
Muggling buggeling
Crawling in the darkest corners
And i haven't found it ..
Im fucking deranged
The pain leaks thru theses hollow veins
Spilling onto pages and nothing will change
Im enraged
Do you hear the deafening sorrow
Say I'm melodramatic
and trace the scars to
You know nothing like i do
I soar above you
White wings
Hawk eyes
always scoping you
Point some fingers
Point the blame ...
#anxiety
#love
#LifeStruggles
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DRUGS POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2018 8:05pm
3rd Apr 2018 8:05pm
Slammin and jammin
Fuck i slipped up
I thought i got rid of all of that meth
Start new and fresh
No paranoid thoughts
Making me want to peel my flesh
Hear and trust
Not interrogate and play bad cop bad cop
I don't do good cop
I'm an outlaw
First run in with the fuzz i was 9
I bashed a Harley to shit with some rocks
Pissed on the side walk
And ran off yelling fuck you call the cops
He did
And knew where i lived
When i answered the door
I got ghost white real quick
3000 dollars in Damages estimated
I worked for...
I thought i got rid of all of that meth
Start new and fresh
No paranoid thoughts
Making me want to peel my flesh
Hear and trust
Not interrogate and play bad cop bad cop
I don't do good cop
I'm an outlaw
First run in with the fuzz i was 9
I bashed a Harley to shit with some rocks
Pissed on the side walk
And ran off yelling fuck you call the cops
He did
And knew where i lived
When i answered the door
I got ghost white real quick
3000 dollars in Damages estimated
I worked for...
#hate
#ImSorry
#childhood
#abuse
#drugs
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LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2018 10:36am
3rd Apr 2018 10:36am
The truth shall set me free
It's clear what you did
And where you've been
You want love and trust
But none you can give .
The 7th we got off early
I put my heart and soul into you
Finally believed and was trusting
But two days before you did me dirty
You stare me in the face and lie right to me
cowardly you still said yes
I think just to destroy me
You will never be honest with me
You will never sacrifice for me
You will never hurt to do the right thing
Instead you'll lie
And just keep killing me
Leading me on like you were back...
And where you've been
You want love and trust
But none you can give .
The 7th we got off early
I put my heart and soul into you
Finally believed and was trusting
But two days before you did me dirty
You stare me in the face and lie right to me
cowardly you still said yes
I think just to destroy me
You will never be honest with me
You will never sacrifice for me
You will never hurt to do the right thing
Instead you'll lie
And just keep killing me
Leading me on like you were back...
#sadness
#dark
#forgiveness
#TruthOfLife
#honesty
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LOVE POEM
Published
12th Mar 2018 5:47pm
12th Mar 2018 5:47pm
Vices
Do you know what its like
To always feel guilty and never right ?
To be abused by the hand that you hold so tight
To be alone right there in sight
This seems to be my life
You break me down then want a fight
I tell the truth you scream and flight
Avoiding any deeper conversation
Youre used to stabbing
Picking away completely
Waiting for a reaction
You love to torture me
My anxiety and insecurities manifest horribly
Then I'm crazy
For reacting sanely
Fuck this hypocrisy
I'm going anarchy
Steal...
To always feel guilty and never right ?
To be abused by the hand that you hold so tight
To be alone right there in sight
This seems to be my life
You break me down then want a fight
I tell the truth you scream and flight
Avoiding any deeper conversation
Youre used to stabbing
Picking away completely
Waiting for a reaction
You love to torture me
My anxiety and insecurities manifest horribly
Then I'm crazy
For reacting sanely
Fuck this hypocrisy
I'm going anarchy
Steal...
#love
#forgiveness
#heartbroken
#lies
#betrayal
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
28th Feb 2018 11:29am
28th Feb 2018 11:29am
Whos got my 6
You say you got me
But you always forget about me
Leaving me stranded
With all my cash in your hand
Tonight someone tried to break in
You gave away our guns
Didn't even keep one
Even tho i pleaded
Now it's needed
What if i die tonight ?
If they come back looking for a fight ?
And I'm all alone in this home,
Quiet as a stone
It seems we always forget me and my needs
Or safety
And you being gone allowed me to breath
Now that I'm not suffocating
I see how poorly you treat me
How you don't...
But you always forget about me
Leaving me stranded
With all my cash in your hand
Tonight someone tried to break in
You gave away our guns
Didn't even keep one
Even tho i pleaded
Now it's needed
What if i die tonight ?
If they come back looking for a fight ?
And I'm all alone in this home,
Quiet as a stone
It seems we always forget me and my needs
Or safety
And you being gone allowed me to breath
Now that I'm not suffocating
I see how poorly you treat me
How you don't...
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LOVE POEM
Published
27th Feb 2018 4:26am
27th Feb 2018 4:26am
Arrow to the knee
It's like night then day
And when I awake the feelings stayed
The love that grew
Who knew I wouldn't give up on you
You fooled me once but I still loved you
I broke you down and punished you
Making you see the pain you cause from the things you do
I brought justice to a soul that knew
That it had wronged and damaged
So many lives
And it just wanted to pay for its crimes
I gave you what you need
I gave you freedom and release
A blank sheet
I always thought I'd die alone
And I still could
But...
And when I awake the feelings stayed
The love that grew
Who knew I wouldn't give up on you
You fooled me once but I still loved you
I broke you down and punished you
Making you see the pain you cause from the things you do
I brought justice to a soul that knew
That it had wronged and damaged
So many lives
And it just wanted to pay for its crimes
I gave you what you need
I gave you freedom and release
A blank sheet
I always thought I'd die alone
And I still could
But...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th Feb 2018 10:42pm
20th Feb 2018 10:42pm
Broken homes
You're losing it look at you
Everyday getting worse I don't even recognize you
You once were happy and loving
Now you self loath resent and act like you're mourning
You're depression is killing us
I've tried to be there for you but you always give up
On us
Screaming hatred
Everyday at me
I'm tired of your hands me
I could easily break you
But I don't because I love you
You get violent more everyday
Scratches,pushing slaps to the face
I don't know how much more I can take
I don't...
Everyday getting worse I don't even recognize you
You once were happy and loving
Now you self loath resent and act like you're mourning
You're depression is killing us
I've tried to be there for you but you always give up
On us
Screaming hatred
Everyday at me
I'm tired of your hands me
I could easily break you
But I don't because I love you
You get violent more everyday
Scratches,pushing slaps to the face
I don't know how much more I can take
I don't...
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STORY POEM
Published
20th Feb 2018 9:09pm
20th Feb 2018 9:09pm
I tried to say...
You never seen me when I was there
Looking past me into the air
I tried to reach out to you hoping you would feel me
Touch me
And Show me I'm living
I feel like nothing
Months went by with no feeling
No healing
Always Begging just for a hold
To feel something
Other than alone
And so cold
That day I tried to talk to you one last time before you stormed off.
I tried to tell you that I love you and I'm sorry
You screamed in my face vile profanities
Breaking the last parts of me
Before I took the leap ...
Looking past me into the air
I tried to reach out to you hoping you would feel me
Touch me
And Show me I'm living
I feel like nothing
Months went by with no feeling
No healing
Always Begging just for a hold
To feel something
Other than alone
And so cold
That day I tried to talk to you one last time before you stormed off.
I tried to tell you that I love you and I'm sorry
You screamed in my face vile profanities
Breaking the last parts of me
Before I took the leap ...
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ANGER POEM
Published
20th Feb 2018 00:39am
20th Feb 2018 00:39am
Betrayal
Life seems hollow now that you took off your disguise
The lies
penetrating the heart and mind
I was a child to believe you
To trust a human like you
I should of trusted my gut and ran far Away
like everyone else seems to do
But I'm gullible and I stayed
Now I'm hurting deep down below
But it's my fault for trusting in you
For giving my heart and soul over to you
Just to be abused
I wish I was never born
Just so I would never have to meet you
Loved you or ever liked kissing you
You succubus you'll get...
The lies
penetrating the heart and mind
I was a child to believe you
To trust a human like you
I should of trusted my gut and ran far Away
like everyone else seems to do
But I'm gullible and I stayed
Now I'm hurting deep down below
But it's my fault for trusting in you
For giving my heart and soul over to you
Just to be abused
I wish I was never born
Just so I would never have to meet you
Loved you or ever liked kissing you
You succubus you'll get...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Feb 2018 6:17am
14th Feb 2018 6:17am
Dream within a nightmare
You're right
What if this is the dream ?
And when we sleep
That's the reality
Controlled humanity
A Blurred sensory
Controlled and oppressed
Like a farmer does his sheep
What if when we close are eyes
We plug back in to reality
Escaping the illusion
Entering a different dimension
Were all just energy
Specks of nothing
Floating on the winds of what could be
But when I open my eyes
I see nothing.
What if this is the dream ?
And when we sleep
That's the reality
Controlled humanity
A Blurred sensory
Controlled and oppressed
Like a farmer does his sheep
What if when we close are eyes
We plug back in to reality
Escaping the illusion
Entering a different dimension
Were all just energy
Specks of nothing
Floating on the winds of what could be
But when I open my eyes
I see nothing.
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LOVE POEM
Published
7th Feb 2018 9:25pm
7th Feb 2018 9:25pm
From our Ash's
I'm sorry for everything negative that’s happen
I never planned them
Just landed myself right in the middle of them
Trying to start my life over again
Trying something new and bonding with you
I was excited to begin
Then
Now everything is different
I'm not the same fuck up
I was on a righteous path
With love and no hatred
And no violence to speak of
I'm not myself
Because I think I gave myself to you
Even tho I didn't want to
And I told you
I'm not something you can hold...
I never planned them
Just landed myself right in the middle of them
Trying to start my life over again
Trying something new and bonding with you
I was excited to begin
Then
Now everything is different
I'm not the same fuck up
I was on a righteous path
With love and no hatred
And no violence to speak of
I'm not myself
Because I think I gave myself to you
Even tho I didn't want to
And I told you
I'm not something you can hold...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Feb 2018 10:55pm
4th Feb 2018 10:55pm
From the pain
And you'll know from the pain
If you feel the same as me
Its as clear as the sound of rain as it falls upon the leafs
And these lies
are the cracks
That scar a broken mind
And the past they say
Is just a place were stuck in time
You said that you could stop my pain
You said you could take it all away
You said we could start again
And wash all these tears away
But now I hear a choir of angels calling out my name
And they sang
As the wind passes thru the leafs
And the rain touches the day
You will find...
If you feel the same as me
Its as clear as the sound of rain as it falls upon the leafs
And these lies
are the cracks
That scar a broken mind
And the past they say
Is just a place were stuck in time
You said that you could stop my pain
You said you could take it all away
You said we could start again
And wash all these tears away
But now I hear a choir of angels calling out my name
And they sang
As the wind passes thru the leafs
And the rain touches the day
You will find...
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