Unselfish Prayer

well,  I expect to see this adapted for the silver screen, a wonderful tale of resolve with a happy ending  

...did you post the right pic ? ...I mean I'd have thought any son woulda been at least twenty years younger :)  

good stuff, Lady  

shine on

Craic!!!!! :) Stoked to see you here luv! Yeah, I'm working on my real life novel now, at a snail's pace, I should be finished with it after I'm dead. :)  Oh you got jokes! lol.... I thought about posting a pic of him hooked to tubes, or when he was a toddler, but then I thought about the struggles he faced inside of me and the fight he faced to get here, and his resolve during a process that isn't finished yet, as he enters into adulthood, so I needed a pic to reflect his strength, saying, "Look at me now!" ;) Love your words Lep, ecstatic you decided to list her.xo

Ahhh, rain1courtel, luv ~ :-*

You are a marvel for whom I have the utmost respect. I see you.

I prayed for wisdom and discernment in the moment,
to be giving the tools to care for, and fight for my child-
no matter the complications.

I broke down in tears! They wouldn’t stop flowing,
I cried my eyes swollen, my voice weak and my heart heavy,

You speak the inmost portions of my heart, luv... :-*

Sweet Savaja, I think I shared bits of this story with you during a time where I know my conviction and resolve on all accounts were felt and could be at the very least shy comfort to you. Pen love~ xo
The respect is reciprocated~

I read this in the comp and it made my eyes water....and made me want to pull mine...saddened by the story & amazed by your strength.....you have to be one of the finest people i have ever almost met....you know what i mean....much deep respect to you :)

...sadness and pain is meant to nurture courage and foster strength, and this heartbreaking yet amazing event in my life, showed me just how strong I was. Really pleased you felt this emotionally, T! To receive it any other way would be my failure as a writer. I'm happy you didn't yank your poem, because it's amazing! ;)  
*you have to be one of the finest people I have ever almost met*<--literally laughed out loud, for real! lol...too funny! Thank you luv and elated you decided to shelf her.

(My eyes flooded with tears)
My sister my sister!!
You are an incredible woman. Thank God for your blessing in your son!! Through all things he is able and hold on to that promise . Your worlds touched my soul here because I truly understand the feelings associated with loving your niece😘. Ahhhh my gosh, the water works won't stop this was more than beautiful My Rain.
You indeed are a Queen, God has touched you and your life . May he continue to hold you and your family in the palm of his hand and no ma'am.. Doctors don't have the last say 😘❤️❤️ Love you big sis

aww suga, Most poets would be sad that this has caused you to cry but I'm truly ecstatic. It was the hardest decision I ever had to face and it literally changed my life, changed me as a woman, changed how I pursue happiness and strengthened my faith. Your tears are warranted, beautiful lady! xo  So many years have passed, yet I cried reliving the memories through this ink. Every day I look at my son, I think about how so many had given up on him, that he wasn’t suppose to be here, and every night and morning I kiss him, I’m literally kissing the power of prayer. Thanks cupcake for you heartfelt comment. Luvs ya lil'sis   xo

Oh Tara, my heart ached all the way through reading this. I can't imagine what it was like or how wonderful it felt after his birth and again on his graduation day. You amaze me in so many ways and now in so many more. I am not worthy to wash your feet dear lady!  
jj

….and that’s a beautiful pain to feel to me JJ! Elated that this moved you emotionally! I’m actually pretty shocked in a joyful way, that the men are the ones that embraced this in a way that they decided to list this ink. This was a horrible time I don’t wish on my worst enemy, JJ! Truly a story to write one day for inspiration.  
 “You amaze me in so many ways and now in so many more. I am not worthy to wash your feet dear lady!” <---  my wonderful friend, I don’t mind washing yours, in honor of your charm. ;) Thanks for the love and listing….

Holy Purple!! Sexy Rain.......what an emotional triumph you've shared with us.....I read this off line and just had to bring my purple self to drip purple luv all over your page.....such a personal write......I didn't mind the length......I'm glad you shared it all......you wrote this with such emotion I thought it was happening now.....then I thought.....well wait that's impossible......LOL!!! Brilliant write of visual ness and emotion.....tipping my pen in respect and luv to you......purple luv & hugs xo :)

For you to think I was going through this now says one or two things; the content was strong, or you were drinking something strong. Lmao….. Me? Expecting? Really? Lmao…..girl stop! ;) So happy this moved you emotionally pprincess. I honestly made this ink bearable for 'me' to handle because the core of it would have me mentally broken trying to recall this ache through written words. Pleased I was able to allow you to experience just a flash of the turmoil. Southernlovesent.com xo

Wow Tara, That was so moving and it needed to be told so that others may gain courage from it. In these cases length of ink don't matter baby. I was touched by every last word. You are astonishing in your courage, inspiring in your strength and your love for your son shines through it all.
I'm humbled in your presence.

Hey Tony, I’m procrastinating around with writing my novel for a lot of personal reasons, though there has to be a sequel/series because of how crazy and juicy my life is...lol... and because many family members are involved, it’s kind of hard to agree with what’s publically shared. The birth of my son should be the easiest to write since it deals with mostly me and the backstory of his father, still, I’m slow as hell. But I completely agree, I think my store can help a lot of women who can’t bear children, or went through similar stories. Thank you hon, and graceful bow for listing her. xo

what a soul pleasing story! you had me riding along with the emotions etched on the page, i'm so glad you were able to triumph through that ordeal, thanx for sharing this struggle with us goddess...

Dean, thanks babe, truly an ordeal that started out the moment I walked into my GYN all smiles, waiting for her to confirm my pregnancy and how many weeks, what vitamins etc..... but when she ran tests and asked to see me back the following week, I knew in my spirit something was wrong. They admitted me the next week and I stayed until I delivered him. (over 5 months) Even then, I left the hospital empty handed. So I adore your word, ‘triumph’. :) ....indeed.... 

….that’s the thing Sonsista, I didn’t know my own strength!  Every damn day they came in my room running tests, telling me, what didn’t grow, what didn’t develop, what they couldn’t see, what was damaged; cutting, sticking, pulling, dissecting, couldn’t find the direct source or cause of why he wasn’t growing and through it all, I always felt weak, cowardly, and spiritless. I acted and reacted frail and feeble minded, until the moment I described in the poem, my unselfish prayer. Thank you for the love....xo

Deeply moving, n the outcome truly
lifted my spirits n lightened my heart... A wonderful piece my sweet Tara :)

Thank you Rich! I’m so happy you felt *my heart-beat*, that is this poem. :) Truly something personal and special in my life that I rarely expose outside eyes to, but the ending became my amazing new beginning…. so very many years ago, and I wanted to share...

The words of a survivor!  God has higher purposes for us and all things, and you proved it with not listening to the voices who told you "no".  There must be something special needing to be done by your son, since his entry into this world was trying to be stopped.  My own daughter has a blind eye and survived both cancer and epilepsy--I'm sure she has a great calling, just like I see that your son must, too, having conquered his own handicaps.  It's the people like them, who will make a difference because they know firsthand, how it is to live through stuff.  Love to you, proud Mama!  xoxo

Lisa, this testimony of yours about your daughter touch me greatly. We all have a purpose but some of us have a fight within our purpose, like my son and your daughter. Special steps were order for them. I'm just so thankful my faith was stronger than the doctors voices. The most amazing aspect of this is..., when I asked God to prepare me for my child, and give me the tools and wisdom to handle anything that came my way, I didn't know he already had. I'd been working with children who had pervasive developmental disorders, autism and other special/challenging needs for over 5 years. God was already on top of it! I was ready for my son. Thanks again for sharing ML! xo

This is beautiful and full of faith. I share your history on the recommendation for termination of my second child by doctors. I, too, didn't listen and have a healthy daughter. Good on you.

Ahavati, this is a wonderful surprise and beautiful, heartfelt personal response, and I'm so pleased you've shared this with me. Thank you....