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Conquistadora
Some of us are born
to be fireflies.
With our random light, in the dark,
it can seem aimless.
Some people complain
even as they chase us.
They think we're playing games.
But we're just trying to get by.
They want to pull off our wings
and our legs,
to make us into ornaments.
I guess there's worse fates
when it's time
to fade away.
I think the first word
I ever learned to say
was goodbye.
And it keeps being the last
every time my light dies.
They lose me in the darkness.
They've no patience
for the tired creature I've become,
during my need to huddle
within the dim of my thoughts.
-I'll be back, I had to go
back, to find my wings.
I'm still searching,
using words as a torchlight.
I'm a firefly, after all.
An ornament, an earring,
whispering in someone's ear.
I hope someone hears.
~~~
Were you lost, too, in broad daylight.
Looking back at the steps took
during the meandering nights
of how did you get
so misguided.
The stars were so millionth,
so far away
and so random.
Yet you saved your
(always folded) wings,
until you saw the star
that was moving.
Blinking; A man-made firefly.
So you finally flew
to find me.
My words have always been
a search-light.
Amber, a candle's glow.
Like the matching ring
upon your finger.
-It took awhile
for things meant to be.
~~~
It wasn't luck.
It was fate, blending
with circumstance
to turn lightning into love.
I felt it, even
with my eyes closed.
(Because I had tried to hide
myself behind my eyelids).
You saw me anyway
and I felt your smile
when your lips pressed
against my cheek.
There was a "before you".
Those years I spent looking back
at the ruins I called my previous life.
I'd always turn away, while
it was still burning.
Nothing to salvage
once the wounds were cauterized.
Theirs, mine, didn't matter.
Scars are flesh ribbons
from all the second place finishes.
And while;
A pot-hole formed
where I had stood
in the dry road too long.
You brought rain.
I wasn't sure...
But the birds gathered,
quenched their thirst.
To them a pond, within the asphalt.
(Perhaps it was just your freckles
around your tears, but
made me brave enough
to lean down
and find salvation).
So we kissed, and
it was as if
a gentle lightning came rolling
over the fields where
my thoughts laid out,
like fading lights
from every day
that I had died, a broken firefly.
Yet, here you are, and
everything about you is bright.
I hope somehow I can repay you
with my own luminance,
as it returns to me by the day.
Then by night.
When your lips touched mine,
our guards fell away.
I could tell because
you were soft,
when I placed my hands
upon your hips.
Neither of us ever got very good
with armor.
So in the past,
our smiles and eyes
had formed into bows and arrows.
It had worked pretty well
for keeping distance.
Until now.
Maybe I was more, after all,
than a torn apart lightning bug.
I always wanted to be a falcon,
even wounded would be okay.
Calling from a branch,
while my wings healed.
And here you are,
after hearing my songs;
A conquistadora,
brave enough to find me
when I was lost
for so long.
~~~
Author's Note
That's a great pic of Del. Shopping day, she was pretty excited like most women would be. Lol
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Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 2:05am
The 2 of you sure do light up the halls of the Underground with hope. I read your poetry, the both of you, & it fills me with peace. Big smiles here
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 2:12am
It's time in our lives for peace.
I'm working on a pretty brutal short story, so this write keeps me happy and focused on what's good. Ya know?
And thank you, Willow. I realize many of my writes are repetitive in theme, etc . Yet it's the prevalent mood I'm always in!
I'm working on a pretty brutal short story, so this write keeps me happy and focused on what's good. Ya know?
And thank you, Willow. I realize many of my writes are repetitive in theme, etc . Yet it's the prevalent mood I'm always in!
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 2:41am
You always give me the mushy heart feelings whenever I read your love poetry.
You are such an amazing person and writer. You are the living
embodiment of literature. What a blessing to be the subject matter.
The title is fabulous too!
How did I get so lucky:)
You are such an amazing person and writer. You are the living
embodiment of literature. What a blessing to be the subject matter.
The title is fabulous too!
How did I get so lucky:)
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 2:55am
Ready?
Thank you for taking the chance, and believing. It took a lot of guts and faith.
Thank you for trusting me. For trusting in something so far out of reach, seemingly.
You are incredible.
It's nice to have you to focus on. It's the whole point of me keeping a good heart, and faith, all this time.
We are our own reward.
Thank you for taking the chance, and believing. It took a lot of guts and faith.
Thank you for trusting me. For trusting in something so far out of reach, seemingly.
You are incredible.
It's nice to have you to focus on. It's the whole point of me keeping a good heart, and faith, all this time.
We are our own reward.
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 2:42am
Oh fuck, that’s … Styx, I’m literally I tears. I could not be happier for you. To have existed through the thorny mazes of life, you deserve this beautiful bed of roses.
Shine bright my brother. Now that your soul has its mate, shine until heaven cries in anguished admiration.
This was fucking beautiful.
So are the two of you.
Shine bright my brother. Now that your soul has its mate, shine until heaven cries in anguished admiration.
This was fucking beautiful.
So are the two of you.
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 3:04am
Well shoot, you write a pretty beautiful comment, young lady!
The VA doctor told me today that besides my wear and tear, I'm pretty damn healthy somehow.
I never planned on being healthy! I've made some bad choices.... lol.
So now its time for the payoff. To live happily ever after and throw in some spicy stuff here and there to give my heart a work out, etc etc.
She brings the spice!
Thanks you. I like it when you punch me on the shoulder and say good job. Lol.
Have fun in N.O.
Of course, it doesn't ever mean no there. So be careful also! Lol.
The VA doctor told me today that besides my wear and tear, I'm pretty damn healthy somehow.
I never planned on being healthy! I've made some bad choices.... lol.
So now its time for the payoff. To live happily ever after and throw in some spicy stuff here and there to give my heart a work out, etc etc.
She brings the spice!
Thanks you. I like it when you punch me on the shoulder and say good job. Lol.
Have fun in N.O.
Of course, it doesn't ever mean no there. So be careful also! Lol.
Re. Conquistadora
Anonymous
7th Jun 2024 2:49am
So beautiful. The line about the first thing you ever learned to say was goodbye is memorable.
I just did a quick read, but I will feast on this amazing work in earnest when I'm not half asleep.
I just did a quick read, but I will feast on this amazing work in earnest when I'm not half asleep.
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 3:06am
Sleep well!
And thank you.
Yeah, that part about goodbye could have steered this write in a dark direction. But, fuck the past.
Now and the future is where I'm looking.
And thank you.
Yeah, that part about goodbye could have steered this write in a dark direction. But, fuck the past.
Now and the future is where I'm looking.
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 3:37am
It's amazing what a beautiful woman can do for a man when he thinks his world has been turned upside down. I'm reminded of the Genesis song Your own special way...."You have your own special way of turning the world so it's facing the way that I'm going....."
Great poem, Styx.
Great poem, Styx.
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:21am
(Good song!)
Thanks amigo.
Looks only get people so far. It's the energy and personality that will carry us through.
I feed off that enthusiasm like liquor.
Thanks amigo.
Looks only get people so far. It's the energy and personality that will carry us through.
I feed off that enthusiasm like liquor.
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 5:17am
Great metaphor. I love watching fireflies which I don't get here often unless it rains a lot. Very beautiful
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:24am
It seems like fireflies are getting scarce all over actually. Probably mankind's fault.
Thanks for the note, too. It's very appreciated. I do try to make my writes worthwhile.
Thanks for the note, too. It's very appreciated. I do try to make my writes worthwhile.
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 8:35am
Dear S,
That’s really lovely. Reflecting on the evolution of where we started to where we are now and appreciating the gifts that were/are given is so prevalent in the poem. It’s joy to read and know how it all started. 😊
H🌷
That’s really lovely. Reflecting on the evolution of where we started to where we are now and appreciating the gifts that were/are given is so prevalent in the poem. It’s joy to read and know how it all started. 😊
H🌷
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:29am
Thank you, H.
Who knew! I tell Del that I'm the stem and she's the flower. Because I'm tall and thin and she's pretty! Lol.
Honestly it's the energy she brings. It awakened my tired ass.
My writes basically lay it bare. Well, metaphorically of course.
And thank you for noting the progress. We are doing pretty dang good!
Who knew! I tell Del that I'm the stem and she's the flower. Because I'm tall and thin and she's pretty! Lol.
Honestly it's the energy she brings. It awakened my tired ass.
My writes basically lay it bare. Well, metaphorically of course.
And thank you for noting the progress. We are doing pretty dang good!
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 10:06am
Now this is poetry!!! 😊 Weaved with gentle,
beautifully flowing words. Of your journey through
light and dark, back to love.
I really liked - scars are flesh ribbons from all the second
place finishes.
The peaceful ebb & flow of your thoughts is exquisite ✨
beautifully flowing words. Of your journey through
light and dark, back to love.
I really liked - scars are flesh ribbons from all the second
place finishes.
The peaceful ebb & flow of your thoughts is exquisite ✨
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:35am
Thanks Debbie
It's easy when I have such a great focus point.
The biggest thing her and I have in common is that we see the positives to come. Because they do. Our attitudes create our future a great deal.
It's easy when I have such a great focus point.
The biggest thing her and I have in common is that we see the positives to come. Because they do. Our attitudes create our future a great deal.
Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:45am
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 2:00pm
I love fireflies, or lighting bugs here in North Carolina! I saw the first few dance a couple of night ago and I smiled at the magic of it all.
This is a beautifully metaphoric testament to love from a realistic place of experienced maturity. And you are right in that many chase those who light up life, hoping to capture something from someone else that they could easily have themselves if they tried.
Here's a little music for you and Adelphina's dance: https://youtu.be/k72jGJTC_3o?si=18Z7zBb4OHvCfcS9
This is a beautifully metaphoric testament to love from a realistic place of experienced maturity. And you are right in that many chase those who light up life, hoping to capture something from someone else that they could easily have themselves if they tried.
Here's a little music for you and Adelphina's dance: https://youtu.be/k72jGJTC_3o?si=18Z7zBb4OHvCfcS9
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:40am
Hey there!
When I was a kid, I thought lightning bugs and fireflies were two different types. Because some have a more yellow light and some are more slightly greenish.
It made sense back then anyway. Lol.
I also called them lantern bugs too. Because so many ended up in jars.
Your synopsis is a really good point, btw. You nailed it. I appreciate the insight.
When I was a kid, I thought lightning bugs and fireflies were two different types. Because some have a more yellow light and some are more slightly greenish.
It made sense back then anyway. Lol.
I also called them lantern bugs too. Because so many ended up in jars.
Your synopsis is a really good point, btw. You nailed it. I appreciate the insight.
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 3:49pm
Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:43am
Thank you! It is love and appreciation, too.
The world is turning so bitter and callous. It's easy to get dejected and give up hoping for much.
Yet, it's also a big world. There's always a chance out there. We have to be brave enough to try.
The world is turning so bitter and callous. It's easy to get dejected and give up hoping for much.
Yet, it's also a big world. There's always a chance out there. We have to be brave enough to try.
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 6:40pm
The thing I love about your writing is the float.
Words stand up on their own and convey feeling without even trying. Even with heavier themes than love you manage to grace us with your style. And you very much have a style. Like you tell me what you see in my paintings, I very much feel a man with so many stories to tell and hoping you have the time to tell many …. You’ve got a man’s look of blueprints and personal construction. A romantic, a sage, a storyteller. I could go on and on. Your love story with Adel is cotton candy, cold beers and a shot of whiskey for you and tequila for her. No hangovers, just hang in there’s…
Congrats on this write
BIG .. you know what !!!’ LIKE
Words stand up on their own and convey feeling without even trying. Even with heavier themes than love you manage to grace us with your style. And you very much have a style. Like you tell me what you see in my paintings, I very much feel a man with so many stories to tell and hoping you have the time to tell many …. You’ve got a man’s look of blueprints and personal construction. A romantic, a sage, a storyteller. I could go on and on. Your love story with Adel is cotton candy, cold beers and a shot of whiskey for you and tequila for her. No hangovers, just hang in there’s…
Congrats on this write
BIG .. you know what !!!’ LIKE
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:53am
Damn I owe you money for that pitch!
Thank you Gary. I just write whatever the daydreams and moods aim me towards.
Oh, Del may want to stick to wine. Don't ask! We like wine around the house. Lol.
I really appreciate your solid words. It lets me know that I'm doing okay at this stuff.
Thank you Gary. I just write whatever the daydreams and moods aim me towards.
Oh, Del may want to stick to wine. Don't ask! We like wine around the house. Lol.
I really appreciate your solid words. It lets me know that I'm doing okay at this stuff.
Re. Conquistadora
7th Jun 2024 9:34pm
Damn, I want to just put away my pen forever, this is so good...
(Don't worry, I won't. The world needs all the poets it can get.)
I love the idea of being a firefly - that resonates with me. I can only shine for so long, and always wishing those moments could last...
Anyway, your love story gives me such beautiful hope. Thanks for sharing this with us.
❤️k
(Don't worry, I won't. The world needs all the poets it can get.)
I love the idea of being a firefly - that resonates with me. I can only shine for so long, and always wishing those moments could last...
Anyway, your love story gives me such beautiful hope. Thanks for sharing this with us.
❤️k
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 3:57am
Hell no you ain't stopping! You're a mainstay that keeps me staying!
I feed the site because of what I get out of it. Really. I want paid in words from others. I get motivated more than people realize, by what I read. It helps steer the moods and ideas.
And my dear, hope is always free and can never be taken away.
Thanks for the nod. Now go write! Lol.
I feed the site because of what I get out of it. Really. I want paid in words from others. I get motivated more than people realize, by what I read. It helps steer the moods and ideas.
And my dear, hope is always free and can never be taken away.
Thanks for the nod. Now go write! Lol.
Re. Conquistadora
Anonymous
7th Jun 2024 10:01pm
So fitting. Fireflies are the epitome of romance & rarity. To find your firefly in a world full of crazy lights...that's special!
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
9th Jun 2024 4:00am
Good point, about what lights to follow.
Fireflies represent childhood, too. When things were somewhat blissful maybe.
I try really hard not to lose focus of what's good out in the world. And if by chance something good comes to me, I cherish it. It's rare.
Thanks for the comment. You are so right about the romance aspect. Unscathed.
Fireflies represent childhood, too. When things were somewhat blissful maybe.
I try really hard not to lose focus of what's good out in the world. And if by chance something good comes to me, I cherish it. It's rare.
Thanks for the comment. You are so right about the romance aspect. Unscathed.
Re. Conquistadora
10th Jun 2024 1:04am
A masterpiece. Leaves me wondering if the original intent was to be so autobiographical? it seems as if you ignored inhibitions to give us a beautiful heart song. I hate to signal out any one part but the most enjoyable lines:
"Maybe I was more, after all,
than a torn apart lightning bug.
I always wanted to be a falcon,
even wounded would be okay.
Calling from a branch,
while my wings healed."
"Maybe I was more, after all,
than a torn apart lightning bug.
I always wanted to be a falcon,
even wounded would be okay.
Calling from a branch,
while my wings healed."
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
12th Jun 2024 1:25am
Thank you so much for that.
My writing is mostly a secret in my real life. But the older I'm getting, and mellowed, I'm way more open about it. It shocks a few people! Lol.
I dunno, I just write what hits me. Basically it writes itself and I just tap the keys. But it seems to work okay for me. So far!
My writing is mostly a secret in my real life. But the older I'm getting, and mellowed, I'm way more open about it. It shocks a few people! Lol.
I dunno, I just write what hits me. Basically it writes itself and I just tap the keys. But it seems to work okay for me. So far!
Re: Re. Conquistadora
12th Jun 2024 2:06am
Mine is mostly a secret as well in my real life. Not sure if anyone would be able handle it. LOL the reals, the highs, the lows, the way my mind thinks....There is one though......hes been by my side for 25 years and counting.....he gets me. <3 Great write by the way. Its fabulous. And so are you 2. :)
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
12th Jun 2024 2:23am
Thank you for that.
For ages, I basically wrote in secret. Even when in the Army, as a biker, etc etc. It was my wish list in a way. But also felt vulnerable to anyone reading it. And we can't have that! Lol.
The internet changed that. Really. It gave me a secret space to grow from. Yet allowing others to see what I could do, away from "rough" environments, ya know?
It keeps me focused on what actually matters. My peace of mind. Serenity.
For ages, I basically wrote in secret. Even when in the Army, as a biker, etc etc. It was my wish list in a way. But also felt vulnerable to anyone reading it. And we can't have that! Lol.
The internet changed that. Really. It gave me a secret space to grow from. Yet allowing others to see what I could do, away from "rough" environments, ya know?
It keeps me focused on what actually matters. My peace of mind. Serenity.
Re: Re. Conquistadora
12th Jun 2024 2:35am
Re. Conquistadora
16th Jun 2024 6:41pm
Amazing, the things you can imagine. Love the comparison with the firefly. Terrific handling of the analogy.
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Re. Conquistadora
17th Jun 2024 1:25am
Much appreciated, Alviola. Sometimes the imagery in my head just builds it all, and I just copy it down. Sometimes I look back and say "I wrote that?". It's like being possessed. Really.
Re. Conquistadora
9th Aug 2024 5:34am
This was just beautifully done. I really dig your ability to tell a story. May you both be blessed with many years together. Into the list it belongs. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
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Re: Re. Conquistadora
18th Sep 2024 2:55am
Hey I'm sorry somehow I overlooked this comment.
Thank you sir, belatedly. I truly appreciate your encouraging words.
Thank you sir, belatedly. I truly appreciate your encouraging words.