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I'm guilty of being schizophrenic sometimes I write poems people don't understand
it's when I'm battling delusions you can't see
I'm guilty of feeling too much when you take a slice at me I bleed internally
I won't have you feel sorry for me
I can handle my monsters by writing about them
what I can't handle is being judged for them
she's out of her head I'm going to block her
then pick up her friends like discarded playing cards
shuffle them and I'm all in
bully her publically defame her
then play the victim
the girl who sees demons will take the blame
see the thing that cuts is I'm more than that
I have a kind heart and while my poems may not be your thing
they're from a place of complete honesty
I trap my demons in black and white
so they don't take control in my day to day
how is that I could keep my cool and this woman couldn't or wouldn't?
my feeling is cos people like me just dont matter
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15th Sep 2020 3:48pm
I am so sorry you feel this way. You DO matter to DU, Crimsin. It would NOT be the same without you.
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Re: Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 3:51pm
thank you beautiful Vati I'm going to do my best to put this behind me I don't want to cause people to feel distressed like I do... I just don't want this kind of bullying to happen to someone else or rather continue to happen...
Re: Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 4:01pm
That is probably for the best, Brenda. No sense in driving yourself crazy or feeling like you don't matter. Just know that you do matter, and that life isn't always fair. At least you have these posts for future reference should the member in question ever become active again.
Today is a beautiful gift that we are blessed to have. Kick those shoes off and connect with nature ( if the smoke is not in your area! ). xo
Today is a beautiful gift that we are blessed to have. Kick those shoes off and connect with nature ( if the smoke is not in your area! ). xo
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15th Sep 2020 3:51pm
You struggle with demons we all face you are brave enough to tackle them head on in lines and stanzas, i think you are awesome and you matter to more people than you know
BE STRONG BE BEAUTIFUL AND BE YOU
love and light
Ron xx
BE STRONG BE BEAUTIFUL AND BE YOU
love and light
Ron xx
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Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 4:04pm
Don't let anyone dismiss you, crimsin. You are as good as anyone here.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
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Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 5:32pm
All of the above comments and more...
You. Fucking. Matter.
Never ever forget your innate goodness.
You're the epitome of 'good of people'.
When someone says "She's good people"
🤗 🌹💜🌹💜🌹💜🤗
xo
You. Fucking. Matter.
Never ever forget your innate goodness.
You're the epitome of 'good of people'.
When someone says "She's good people"
🤗 🌹💜🌹💜🌹💜🤗
xo
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Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 5:37pm
i've known You for going on 7+ years and we've chatted about lots of stuff in PM, here & on Facebook.
i believe You and me have healed one another over the years through sharing.
We both suffer from mental illness & perhaps it gave us a spiritual connection --
a stronger Poetification (Poetry + Edify = Poetification).
You, Brenda, matter to me......
Your ink matters, as well, for much of it resonated with me.
i believe You and me have healed one another over the years through sharing.
We both suffer from mental illness & perhaps it gave us a spiritual connection --
a stronger Poetification (Poetry + Edify = Poetification).
You, Brenda, matter to me......
Your ink matters, as well, for much of it resonated with me.
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15th Sep 2020 5:41pm
Hey C,
There is no bigger fan of your work than me. I am truly sad the there are mental midgets on here who dont appreciate real talent when they read it, if they can read that is. If you can leave the possibility of returning to those of us who really care, that would be wonderful...Sadly, A.
There is no bigger fan of your work than me. I am truly sad the there are mental midgets on here who dont appreciate real talent when they read it, if they can read that is. If you can leave the possibility of returning to those of us who really care, that would be wonderful...Sadly, A.
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Please understand we all appreciate the issues you raise because we deal with the same ones. You writing about them makes us feel we are not alone!
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Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 5:54pm
Of course you matter. The internet is a weird place where we only ever see corners of each other. Please don't let it make you doubt your worth. You matter.
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15th Sep 2020 6:17pm
I can only echo the sentiments above. You matter. Your poems matter. Your voice matters. Don’t rent space in your heart and mind to those who are unable to see your worth. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 6:21pm
YOU'RE FUCKING AWESOME
ALWAYS THE QUEEN OF DUP
ANYONE WHO FUCKS WITH YOU FUCKS WITH ME
END OF STORY
MARCH ON
XX
ALWAYS THE QUEEN OF DUP
ANYONE WHO FUCKS WITH YOU FUCKS WITH ME
END OF STORY
MARCH ON
XX
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Re: Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 6:32pm
Re. dismissed
15th Sep 2020 8:26pm
You are truly beautiful
If it's one thing I am sure of is that the spirit of fairness does not correspond I almost always get shit on . With ridiculous justification to top it off. Leaves me shaking my head sometimes I eventually heal from it through writing
My point is I know I am worthy I know I am needed and my presence makes a difference but it doesn't do a damn thing for the treatment I receive
Stand tall within yourself sister continue to love
In the end this shit won't mean a thing
If it's one thing I am sure of is that the spirit of fairness does not correspond I almost always get shit on . With ridiculous justification to top it off. Leaves me shaking my head sometimes I eventually heal from it through writing
My point is I know I am worthy I know I am needed and my presence makes a difference but it doesn't do a damn thing for the treatment I receive
Stand tall within yourself sister continue to love
In the end this shit won't mean a thing
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19th Sep 2020 6:57pm
lol, this is what happens to me many times. Never seen it by the point of view of a female. Nice write.
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Thank you for sharing crimsin,
I know it's takes courage to put ourselves out there. Poetry and writing are so therapeutic and it really helps many of us figure things out. It's been a rough couple of weeks here at DUP, reading the threads and forums trying to really understand where everyone and everything is coming from.
I'm sorry you've experienced such treatment here, no one should be subjected to any kind of verbal abuse (I mean in it's the guidelines) (I mean is basic human decency). At one point it felt as if the integrity of our community was compromised (I don't know, maybe it's just me).
I hope that these events won't deter from posting and sharing your wonderful work, or anyone's work for that matter. That we'll move forward with positivity and hope. We may not all see eye to eye, but in the spirit of human kindness we can receive the respect we put out into the world. I know it's not perfect, and the occasional shoe will be thrown at us and we'll learn to dodge it (Bush style) for the sake of our wits and our sanity.
Everyday I look forward to reading the posts here. I may not to get all them in a timely manner, but I enjoy knowing more about people's lives, their views, and their overall outlooks. The writing here inspires me in many different ways. Your writing Brenda, is exceptional and that's why I'm a big fan of yours.
I know it's takes courage to put ourselves out there. Poetry and writing are so therapeutic and it really helps many of us figure things out. It's been a rough couple of weeks here at DUP, reading the threads and forums trying to really understand where everyone and everything is coming from.
I'm sorry you've experienced such treatment here, no one should be subjected to any kind of verbal abuse (I mean in it's the guidelines) (I mean is basic human decency). At one point it felt as if the integrity of our community was compromised (I don't know, maybe it's just me).
I hope that these events won't deter from posting and sharing your wonderful work, or anyone's work for that matter. That we'll move forward with positivity and hope. We may not all see eye to eye, but in the spirit of human kindness we can receive the respect we put out into the world. I know it's not perfect, and the occasional shoe will be thrown at us and we'll learn to dodge it (Bush style) for the sake of our wits and our sanity.
Everyday I look forward to reading the posts here. I may not to get all them in a timely manner, but I enjoy knowing more about people's lives, their views, and their overall outlooks. The writing here inspires me in many different ways. Your writing Brenda, is exceptional and that's why I'm a big fan of yours.
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Re: Re. dismissed
21st Sep 2020 5:03pm
good morning dearest Wally for my part I genuinely feel bad at the way things escalated it was not my intent when from an honest heart I posed my question I don't like making ripples of the sort that turn into ugly waves disturbing the minds of fellow poets...so many of our hearts are open here thank you for the love you've sent me it's deeply felt...I will continue to write as usual...I've been here since 2011 I've seen a lot of changes some good some not so good...however I considered this a soulful sanctuary for poetic and creative souls may it remain so...have a beautiful day today forgive my late response...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
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20th Sep 2020 4:24am