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Blood Quantum
Despite my percentage
I'm classified White—
been so all my life
because I'm privileged
in a country where modern history
favors ivory pastels
of a monarchy
over the red-skinned origins
of its own country
I survived desegregation
in deep south Mississippi—
brutal fights
bathroom tiles splattered
with skin
—shards of teeth
floating as white discs
amid a bubbly pulse
circling a rusted drain
We can pity those impoverished—
donate to food banks;
but, until hunger cracks its whip
across our spine. . .
we won't know what it's like
Linking elbows side x side—
marching streets, demanding justice
won't make our skin Black
—we know that
we get it;
we will always be privileged Whites
despite the blood quantum
our Black husbands, wives
or even children comprise;
they will never be viewed
as privileged Whites—
but a half or fourth or sixteenth
—of something else
Yet, we'll continue to resist inequality
in this broken dream of America—
this fucked up patriarchy
of privileged Whites—
until one day
White privilege will cease to exist
Until that manifests, and it will
I won't pretend to understand
what it's like to be you—
nor if I'll witness it come to pass
during my life
But, I will fight regardless
for a future where my grandson
—or his own, isn't viewed
as a privileged White person
but a human despite percentage
of his blood quantum
~
I'm classified White—
been so all my life
because I'm privileged
in a country where modern history
favors ivory pastels
of a monarchy
over the red-skinned origins
of its own country
I survived desegregation
in deep south Mississippi—
brutal fights
bathroom tiles splattered
with skin
—shards of teeth
floating as white discs
amid a bubbly pulse
circling a rusted drain
We can pity those impoverished—
donate to food banks;
but, until hunger cracks its whip
across our spine. . .
we won't know what it's like
Linking elbows side x side—
marching streets, demanding justice
won't make our skin Black
—we know that
we get it;
we will always be privileged Whites
despite the blood quantum
our Black husbands, wives
or even children comprise;
they will never be viewed
as privileged Whites—
but a half or fourth or sixteenth
—of something else
Yet, we'll continue to resist inequality
in this broken dream of America—
this fucked up patriarchy
of privileged Whites—
until one day
White privilege will cease to exist
Until that manifests, and it will
I won't pretend to understand
what it's like to be you—
nor if I'll witness it come to pass
during my life
But, I will fight regardless
for a future where my grandson
—or his own, isn't viewed
as a privileged White person
but a human despite percentage
of his blood quantum
~
Written by
Ahavati
(Tams)
Published 29th May 2020
| Edited 30th May 2020
Author's Note
#BlackLivesMatter
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
29th May 2020 4:34pm
Re. Blood Quantum
Anonymous
29th May 2020 4:34pm
* standing ovation *
This is one that begs to be a spoken word.
The pacing and repetitions are phenomenal; momentum builds and builds until you drive home the power point.
❤📝
This is one that begs to be a spoken word.
The pacing and repetitions are phenomenal; momentum builds and builds until you drive home the power point.
❤📝
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Anonymous
29th May 2020 4:41pm
Be still my bleeding liberal heart. ❤
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29th May 2020 8:47pm
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Anonymous
1st Jun 2020 1:52pm
Your reading evoked within me flashes of Lawrence Fishburne addressing Zion in the Matrix trilogy. Very powerful.
❤📝
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Re. Blood Quantum
29th May 2020 7:22pm
In, perhaps an obtuse way of thinking. . .feeling,
i've envied and cried for both white and black.
Learning to BE
half white and half asian when blood relatives from both sides have chosen sides..........
makes my goal of kindness and loving and forgiveness that much more difficult.
You know,
When my family moved back to California (Bay Area), i knew nothing of racial black and white and became introduced to this via physical fighting. In Hawaii, it was whites, asians, Hawaiians vs each other.
i spent the better part of my Jr High and High school years watching over my naive (but super smart) Sister.
i detest racism mostly because of what a biracial child of the 1960's had to deal with. When one's own blood won't accept You, where do the bloodlines lie?
I learned EVEN MORE when i became friends with a Black / White married couple!!
i became soooooo ashamed to be a human being based on their experiences shared to me....
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i've envied and cried for both white and black.
Learning to BE
half white and half asian when blood relatives from both sides have chosen sides..........
makes my goal of kindness and loving and forgiveness that much more difficult.
You know,
When my family moved back to California (Bay Area), i knew nothing of racial black and white and became introduced to this via physical fighting. In Hawaii, it was whites, asians, Hawaiians vs each other.
i spent the better part of my Jr High and High school years watching over my naive (but super smart) Sister.
i detest racism mostly because of what a biracial child of the 1960's had to deal with. When one's own blood won't accept You, where do the bloodlines lie?
I learned EVEN MORE when i became friends with a Black / White married couple!!
i became soooooo ashamed to be a human being based on their experiences shared to me....
: (
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 5:15pm
I thankfully had parents who walked the middle line between factions, and taught me to be brave enough to do the same, Tallen. I was the only one allowed to babysit a mixed baby in the 60's/70's when we lived in England.
Unfortunately people are taught to be racist; fortunately we aren't born that way—hopefully the generation of a racial mentality will eventually die out. It's certainly better than it has been over the decades. We've come a long way, but have a ways to go.
Humans are dangerous, but they're beautiful too.
Unfortunately people are taught to be racist; fortunately we aren't born that way—hopefully the generation of a racial mentality will eventually die out. It's certainly better than it has been over the decades. We've come a long way, but have a ways to go.
Humans are dangerous, but they're beautiful too.
Re. Blood Quantum
29th May 2020 8:34pm
I read this just as soon as it was posted and I keep coming back hoping I can think of anything to say.
But I can’t. So I’ll say, this is well done.
But I can’t. So I’ll say, this is well done.
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 5:18pm
Re. Blood Quantum
29th May 2020 9:54pm
One person at a time, one family at a time, one community at a time it will happen... someday when color, race or differences won't matter.
When things like what happened this week happens, it reminds us all over again how little progress human race have overcome in conquering prejudice, to unlearn the learnt.
A very passionate poem Ahavati, one that will stand the test of times.
When things like what happened this week happens, it reminds us all over again how little progress human race have overcome in conquering prejudice, to unlearn the learnt.
A very passionate poem Ahavati, one that will stand the test of times.
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 5:20pm
Exactly, Layla! It's a very slow process, but I do believe that one day it will come to pass. The 'Golden Boy' club is disintegrating. Most importantly, it begins with us, with each individual.
Thank you very much.
Thank you very much.
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30th May 2020 00:25am
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30th May 2020 5:22pm
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30th May 2020 00:26am
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30th May 2020 5:23pm
Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 4:15am
When I heard the full story about what happened on monday and the violent response, I thought about how it reallly goes beyond race to just something everyone is feeling, lacking money and needing help, undeserving of punishment under the current circumstances, let alone death. I thought of how this echoes the story of Les Miserables, in a way, hunger being so universal as you mentioned. If the current circumstances don't remove color lines in peoples mind, you wonder what could, but a violent unity is not a sustainable one. We all just need to be treated like people, and as if we all matter.
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 5:27pm
That is a very astute comment, PR. Returning evil for evil is never the answer; however, I can so understand the frustration of black people in this country. We have admitted to the injury, but have failed to stop the bleeding.
I do believe it will stop, I hope in my grandson's time.
Thank you for such a thought-provoking comment.
I do believe it will stop, I hope in my grandson's time.
Thank you for such a thought-provoking comment.
Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 5:27pm
That is a very astute comment, PR. Returning evil for evil is never the answer; however, I can so understand the frustration of black people in this country. We have admitted to the injury, but have failed to stop the bleeding.
I do believe it will stop, I hope in my grandson's time.
Thank you for such a thought-provoking comment.
I do believe it will stop, I hope in my grandson's time.
Thank you for such a thought-provoking comment.
Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 6:25am
A top'notcher f'sure.
But then again, you are Ahavati !
Love------
dkzk
But then again, you are Ahavati !
Love------
dkzk
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 5:27pm
Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 11:55am
A sad commentary but true! We hear of commitment every time one of these atrocities happens. However those commitments seem hollow when it happens again and again! The answer is change with newborns. I’m not sure we can change no matter how good our intentions. Great write!
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 5:29pm
Oh we can change! We have proven that time and time again, i.e - blacks/women being able to vote, etc!
Thank you!
Thank you!
Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 8:10pm
This is a great, earnest work.
I remember being scolded for drinking from the "colored fountain" in Lexington, SC when I was about five years old. That is amazing to me. The entire history of race in this country is amazing -- the arrogance of my ancestors, their brutality. You would think we are enlightened now and not capable of such, but these latest horrors are indicative of our recent march backward.
I remember being scolded for drinking from the "colored fountain" in Lexington, SC when I was about five years old. That is amazing to me. The entire history of race in this country is amazing -- the arrogance of my ancestors, their brutality. You would think we are enlightened now and not capable of such, but these latest horrors are indicative of our recent march backward.
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
30th May 2020 9:05pm
The South was hell back then, Jav. I am so glad my parents got me out of it. I appreciate your perspective.
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30th May 2020 10:10pm
Re. Blood Quantum
31st May 2020 9:09pm
Hell yes!! Way to use your beautiful voice to shout out a deeply needed message, a dedication of love.
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31st May 2020 9:11pm
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1st Jun 2020 2:00am
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1st Jun 2020 11:45am
Re. Blood Quantum
1st Jun 2020 9:23pm
i've been wrestling with whether or not to comment & then how
because i feel like my milk white arse cannot begin to understand the inequality or the injustice & therefore, i should probably stfu
but
silence is complacenct is complicit.
it bends my mind something fierce how white society can be surprised by the forceful response I've been watching on the news; oppressed, disenfranchised people will speak in a language they know will be heard/that cannot be ignored & usually, that is rioting. listening to the discourse has even made me empathize with/understand the looting, the symbolism of the illusory promise of rising above & attaining something which white privilege has always had at their fingertips. regardless. and still, there is this threat that if you're black at the wrong time and place, you'll be stripped of your human rights, your dignity and be brutalized, murdered in the streets for the world to see.
i don't know what's going to make people wake the fuck up to the fact that racism has no place in our society, we're so adaptable but this persists to the detriment of future generations.
you've written this with grace & humanity 🖤
because i feel like my milk white arse cannot begin to understand the inequality or the injustice & therefore, i should probably stfu
but
silence is complacenct is complicit.
it bends my mind something fierce how white society can be surprised by the forceful response I've been watching on the news; oppressed, disenfranchised people will speak in a language they know will be heard/that cannot be ignored & usually, that is rioting. listening to the discourse has even made me empathize with/understand the looting, the symbolism of the illusory promise of rising above & attaining something which white privilege has always had at their fingertips. regardless. and still, there is this threat that if you're black at the wrong time and place, you'll be stripped of your human rights, your dignity and be brutalized, murdered in the streets for the world to see.
i don't know what's going to make people wake the fuck up to the fact that racism has no place in our society, we're so adaptable but this persists to the detriment of future generations.
you've written this with grace & humanity 🖤
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
2nd Jun 2020 8:29pm
I've been wrestling with responding to such a gracious comment. Silence is complacent is complicit is such a astute statement. White society is largely uneducated—the documentary Wally recommended, the 13th is a true eye-opener for America and her privatized prisons and legalized slavery.
I've issued a challenge on my facebook page, that anyone who says "Alllivesmatter" without watching that documentary is automatically booted from my friend's list because I. am. done. with white privilege.
Thank you, Katja, for everything. xo
I've issued a challenge on my facebook page, that anyone who says "Alllivesmatter" without watching that documentary is automatically booted from my friend's list because I. am. done. with white privilege.
Thank you, Katja, for everything. xo
Re. Blood Quantum
2nd Jun 2020 6:45pm
I believe there are 2 types of racism; ignorance and hatred, the former being the most common which at some point however righteous we may feel we have all been guilty of, a judgment or an assumption, this can be solved easily with education and simple facts.
Hatred on the other hand is much harder to fix, it is deep seated and often rooted in loss or failure and the need to blame.
Some people just hate and racism probably gives them a platform.
Our differences should be celebrated. We are different but the same
I mean what is race anyway
I am a member of the human race, the rest is just a description!
Great poem by the way
I really felt your passion 👋👍😀
Hatred on the other hand is much harder to fix, it is deep seated and often rooted in loss or failure and the need to blame.
Some people just hate and racism probably gives them a platform.
Our differences should be celebrated. We are different but the same
I mean what is race anyway
I am a member of the human race, the rest is just a description!
Great poem by the way
I really felt your passion 👋👍😀
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
2nd Jun 2020 8:34pm
Excellent response, monkeyman.
I have been guilty from ignorance myself. During Ferguson I yelled "Alllivesmatter"!
not anymore.
I have been guilty from ignorance myself. During Ferguson I yelled "Alllivesmatter"!
not anymore.
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Indeed all lives do matter
but right now we need to show solidarity with our fellow human beings who who do not get treated equally stand side by side and demand equality in justice equality in representation and equality in opportunity for all.
#blacklivesmatter
but right now we need to show solidarity with our fellow human beings who who do not get treated equally stand side by side and demand equality in justice equality in representation and equality in opportunity for all.
#blacklivesmatter
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Re. Blood Quantum
Viewing the poem as a poem rather than a polemic, I like the use of personal experience (“barroom fights”) and colour and blood to create a raw earthiness that grounds the poem in the real world.
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3rd Jun 2020 4:48pm
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3rd Jun 2020 9:33pm
I didn’t offend you, did I? If so, I’m sorry and I didn’t mean to. By “polemic” I just meant a poem with a political ideology. When I give my opinion on a poem I prefer to address its artistic qualities before any belief it represents, within reason. I wasn’t trying to suggest that your poem was an attack.
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Re: Re. Blood Quantum
3rd Jun 2020 9:49pm
Lord no, Jack. you've never offended me! When it comes to poetry, you know your stuff. I was just clarifying for anyone who might think it was if the looked up the word! LOL!