Ride or Die

I was your ride or die  
until time revealed  
what you tried to hide…
 
You disguised  
your excuses
with reason...
 
Each step you took
was in the direction  
of treason!
 
Every word you said
added a bar to my prison!
 
I was your ride or die  
until I ran out of reasons
to believe in your lies!
 
There are too many  
unanswered "Whys"
 
But why do "whys" matter
when "What"
is an act
I can't ignore?!
 
You tore  
my heart  
I can't handle more!
 
I was your ride or die…
 
I resent my fat  
I resent my ugly
I resent the fact  
that because of it  
you could't love me!!!
 
I was your ride or die
today I wish for the latter
because without my rider
what can anything else matter?
 
I was your ride or die...
now I will ride alone
but I know I will see you
in every passing sign
on the road…
 
I will feel you
in the wind…
 
I will love you, baby
until the very end!
 
 
~poétisa maría dé jesús  
3/14/19