Submissions by Kunoichi
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
"Painting is poetry which is seen not heard, & poetry is a painting which is heard but not seen." Leonardo de Vinci
10/6/23
i have elevated you
so high
that when this
is over
i will be the one
they criticize
they will never know
what pain you caused
the torment
in every tear
that i have ever cried
how alone i really am
no one will ever know
that you were less
than a perfect man
i talked you up
because i truly believed
that was who you were
did not realize
that version
was only for her...
so high
that when this
is over
i will be the one
they criticize
they will never know
what pain you caused
the torment
in every tear
that i have ever cried
how alone i really am
no one will ever know
that you were less
than a perfect man
i talked you up
because i truly believed
that was who you were
did not realize
that version
was only for her...
#sadness
#heartbroken
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Inexistente
#romantic
109 reads
Empath
Suddenly
I am overcome
by an inexplicable
sadness.
(Can’t speak of it…
it would be misconstrued as madness.)
My light
gets dimmed
almost
to complete
darkness…
I do not understand
how emptiness can be so full,
leaving no room.
I do not understand
how silence can be,
so deafening.
I play a happy tune
but it buries me
deeper into gloom!
I surround myself
with company
but I have gotten
so good at hiding,
they can’t see
the storm...
I am overcome
by an inexplicable
sadness.
(Can’t speak of it…
it would be misconstrued as madness.)
My light
gets dimmed
almost
to complete
darkness…
I do not understand
how emptiness can be so full,
leaving no room.
I do not understand
how silence can be,
so deafening.
I play a happy tune
but it buries me
deeper into gloom!
I surround myself
with company
but I have gotten
so good at hiding,
they can’t see
the storm...
#hate
#dark
#death
#evil
#hypocrisy
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Deadly Thoughts
Me: tell them. They need to know you're depressed.
Depression: don't tell them. You're only going to get more depressed when you realize they don't care. Better fight it alone.
Reason: you may win a lot of battles against depression but you won't win them all.
Me: I'm strong enough.
Depression: I am patient. I only need to win one battle.
© Copyright ~poetisa, maría dé jesús
written 5/5/2019
Depression: don't tell them. You're only going to get more depressed when you realize they don't care. Better fight it alone.
Reason: you may win a lot of battles against depression but you won't win them all.
Me: I'm strong enough.
Depression: I am patient. I only need to win one battle.
© Copyright ~poetisa, maría dé jesús
written 5/5/2019
#sadness
#loneliness
#dark #despair
#dark #despair
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Unavailing
You wanted her so bad
You were willing to break my heart
I loved you enough to let you
I am with the man I wanted
A man that never wanted me
None of it works...
Being with someone YOU love -
Does not work
Being with someone that LOVES you -
Does not work
LOVE requires PERFECT timing
and we are either early
or too late.
~Poetisa Maria De Jesus
12/7/2022
You were willing to break my heart
I loved you enough to let you
I am with the man I wanted
A man that never wanted me
None of it works...
Being with someone YOU love -
Does not work
Being with someone that LOVES you -
Does not work
LOVE requires PERFECT timing
and we are either early
or too late.
~Poetisa Maria De Jesus
12/7/2022
#heartbroken
#UnrequitedLove
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Longing
I convinced myself
That you stayed
Because you wanted
To be with me
I stayed too
Believing that love
Swayed you
Even though you never
Said it
Because actions
Speak LOUDER
Than words
But you have been looking
In all sorts of places
Your eyes are set
In someone other than me
You just have not found
My replacement
…yet
I should leave
But I stay
I want to see it through
I want you
To face my pain
I know
What people will say
But I...
That you stayed
Because you wanted
To be with me
I stayed too
Believing that love
Swayed you
Even though you never
Said it
Because actions
Speak LOUDER
Than words
But you have been looking
In all sorts of places
Your eyes are set
In someone other than me
You just have not found
My replacement
…yet
I should leave
But I stay
I want to see it through
I want you
To face my pain
I know
What people will say
But I...
#heartbroken
#hurt
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Goodbye My Love
I have been fighting back tears all day!
I have to go on
pushing through the pieces
of my broken heart
to find the beating one!!
I have no more excuses
you’ve taken away so much
there is nothing left.
My feelings are distorted
but one remains clear
I no longer feel fear.
My tears will soon catch up to my pain.
For now I have to maintain my strength!
I’ll face it alone
I’ve done it before
I’ll do it again!
I don’t have the luxury
to lay down and die
over a man!
I never thought ...
I have to go on
pushing through the pieces
of my broken heart
to find the beating one!!
I have no more excuses
you’ve taken away so much
there is nothing left.
My feelings are distorted
but one remains clear
I no longer feel fear.
My tears will soon catch up to my pain.
For now I have to maintain my strength!
I’ll face it alone
I’ve done it before
I’ll do it again!
I don’t have the luxury
to lay down and die
over a man!
I never thought ...
#heartbroken
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Amor a primera sonrisa / love at the first smile
Desde que te conocí
me prometí
que solo eras para divertir.
Te empecé a dejar
desde el primer encuentro.
Te empecé a olvidar
desde el primer recuerdo.
Años después
no te he dejado
no te e olvidado.
Aunque quiera no puedo
porqué de ti me e enamorado.
No puedo evitarlo!
Desde el primer encuentro…
tus labios no me avían besado
tus manos no me avían tocado
pero tu sonrisa encontró la mía
desde entonces no concibo
un solo instante sin ti…
me hace daño amarte
pero estoy feliz...
me prometí
que solo eras para divertir.
Te empecé a dejar
desde el primer encuentro.
Te empecé a olvidar
desde el primer recuerdo.
Años después
no te he dejado
no te e olvidado.
Aunque quiera no puedo
porqué de ti me e enamorado.
No puedo evitarlo!
Desde el primer encuentro…
tus labios no me avían besado
tus manos no me avían tocado
pero tu sonrisa encontró la mía
desde entonces no concibo
un solo instante sin ti…
me hace daño amarte
pero estoy feliz...
#love
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Consciente/Aware
Te busqué en los verbos
y te encontré en las mentirás
Nunca te ví a ciegas
pero aun con los ojos abiertos
y a sabiendas que me ibas a doler
no cerré la puerta.
3-14-2019
Poetisa María de Jesús
I looked for you in the verbs
and I found you in the lies
I never saw you blindly
but even with my eyes open
and knowing that you were going to hurt,
I didn't close the door.
y te encontré en las mentirás
Nunca te ví a ciegas
pero aun con los ojos abiertos
y a sabiendas que me ibas a doler
no cerré la puerta.
3-14-2019
Poetisa María de Jesús
I looked for you in the verbs
and I found you in the lies
I never saw you blindly
but even with my eyes open
and knowing that you were going to hurt,
I didn't close the door.
#disappointment
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Unforgiving Pain
I have overcome the pain!
…so I thought
Until that song is played again.
I find a knot building up in my throat,
as I skip through the notes.
I can’t fast forward the memory,
It’s dug in…
At this point
I can’t retreat!
The song isn’t playing,
but my suffering is on repeat!
I don’t understand why
cause
I’m out of love with him…
Why can’t I fall out of the hurt?
I guess pain stays
long after
love is gone!!!
Poetisa María de Jesús
2/28/2022
…so I thought
Until that song is played again.
I find a knot building up in my throat,
as I skip through the notes.
I can’t fast forward the memory,
It’s dug in…
At this point
I can’t retreat!
The song isn’t playing,
but my suffering is on repeat!
I don’t understand why
cause
I’m out of love with him…
Why can’t I fall out of the hurt?
I guess pain stays
long after
love is gone!!!
Poetisa María de Jesús
2/28/2022
#breakup
#conflict
#bittersweet
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Ride or Die
I was your ride or die
until time revealed
what you tried to hide…
You disguised
your excuses
with reason...
Each step you took
was in the direction
of treason!
Every word you said
added a bar to my prison!
I was your ride or die
until I ran out of reasons
to believe in your lies!
There are too many
unanswered "Whys"
But why do "whys" matter
when "What"
is an act
I can't ignore?!
You tore
my heart
I can't handle more! ...
until time revealed
what you tried to hide…
You disguised
your excuses
with reason...
Each step you took
was in the direction
of treason!
Every word you said
added a bar to my prison!
I was your ride or die
until I ran out of reasons
to believe in your lies!
There are too many
unanswered "Whys"
But why do "whys" matter
when "What"
is an act
I can't ignore?!
You tore
my heart
I can't handle more! ...
#heartbroken
#despair
#disappointment
#denial
#emptiness
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The End
I can see myself dying.
Too many endings
for me to bear.
It's poetic justice
for my end to be this way.
I can feel myself
mourning my life
more than my death
With tearful eyes
a broken heart
and a soulless body
I utter the names
of those whom I love.
With my last breath
I say an unheard
"Goodbye"
I'm mourning
the inevitable loss of time
we spent apart.
Life was worthless
when I lost you.
My grand finale
is as I begun...
...
Too many endings
for me to bear.
It's poetic justice
for my end to be this way.
I can feel myself
mourning my life
more than my death
With tearful eyes
a broken heart
and a soulless body
I utter the names
of those whom I love.
With my last breath
I say an unheard
"Goodbye"
I'm mourning
the inevitable loss of time
we spent apart.
Life was worthless
when I lost you.
My grand finale
is as I begun...
...
#grief
#death
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