veiled threat

 
tears torn from porcelain whispers
star gazing your masculinity
you grip me...stealing my feelings
masturbating madness...you go on pretending

kisses from passions book
I once loved you, yes
it took twenty years to learn the truth
you remained hidden in a diary of lies
I see clearly now the monochrome fabrications
in three D...I see your sin Mister

I pushed at the thin veil you wear
naked I can't look away
guilt by association
I'm guilty of loving you

narcissistic revelations
you outmaneuvered me
self-centered I was busy looking in the mirror

you stalked my feminity
closed all the exits and locked all the doors
you held me, hostage, while I remained unaware

will I take a chance and run
or be another case of Stockholm syndrome
victimized by my own fear
it doesn't seem like me
does it?

you let me parade around as if in charge
until I thought to go
then you played hotel California
"you can check out anytime you like but you can never leave"
on the stereo

a revolving door 5150
I signed myself in but can't sign myself out
it's a lifetime commitment

I've been committed to matrimony prison
where I'm deemed unfit
to make my own decisions