Numerical

Terrified-
unjustified extension of self
aiming for destruction
of an unsteady mind

do you mind me?
too little, too much
not enough or-
simply not good enough?

Am I enough?

I made pretty things
folded love into paper
I placed around your home
but was it too much?

and so I measure
numerically delirious
in efforts I place
to make sure Im
the best I can be
for everything

perfection-
a lesson of numbers
I let loose on skin

a symphony,
harmonious cuts of paper
laced in doubts

pretty, useless paper-

tapered to love you
yet thinned to cut deep
slicing into me
as I release vulnerable extentions
of breath I take when my fingers
work to create and manifest
my heart

pretty in a way you claim
is me,
I feel useless but-

am I meaningless?

Numerically speaking
you could find someone
better than me