No End To Pain

I remember you
And I miss you and me
But I hated the pain
Always in your face
No one ever cared enough
Not me or you
So we suffered in the bed
Of our own abuse
And nothing was ever
Good enough
For either of us
You were always to blame
And so was I
Slowly circling around
Wolves ready to pounce
But sometimes we loved
At least that's how it seemed
At least that's what I think
I don't know anymore
I can't see what is real
Or what was real
I made my own fantasies
Making make believe
That unicorns and rainbows
Can really be real
If you wish upon a star
Things will change
And get better somehow
I couldn't let go of my dream
I had to believe, I had to
And the last few years
Were really really bad
Scary, twisted and painful
Back into addiction and lies
There was no light
At the end of the tunnel
Kept walking in darkness
Just forging ahead
Believing instead of seeing
And you were always right
But you were so wrong
And so was I
The worst part of it all now
I still want to believe
After everything
It's a complete lost cause
We both agree
Nothing left of you and me
I'm alone on someone's floor
And miles away I see you
Sleeping on the couch
Because you can't sleep
In our bed anymore
You told me that the other day
I asked if I could change
The room or the blankets
Something to help make it
Comfortable for you
Is there anything I can do
No, stop believing just stop
But I remember you
And I miss us anyway