The Secrets Within

I’ll retreat from the shame inside
Where all the pain resides
Take a break from the thoughts
Close off where my battles are fought
Yellow tape cordons off
The places marshmellowy soft
The things they don’t need to know
My life is not a reality show
I see the way they look at me
I’m never what they want me to be
Turn around to walk a lie
The list goes on of what I deny
Tears come down when I’m alone
Shut down the computer, turn off the phone
How do I find the words to say…
When no one believed me yesterday?
Take a breath… do I speak the truth?
Or keep my silence and remain aloof?
I alone hold the key
To what I am and want to be
Lock the chest, it’s without a treasure
Only a scale of how I am measured
Take a peek at the secrets inside
If they were yours, would you want to hide?
Or would you stand tall and proud
Scream it out, all noisy and loud
My breath it catches in my throat
Panic flutters, yet I don’t want to choke
Take a breath and let it out
“When you doubt your power, you give power to your doubt”
So this is me retreating
For a moment defeated
Deep down I don’t want to fight
I just want to be alone with the quiet

© Indie Adams 2011