There are days when compassion rolls like condensation down the windows and pools on the floor with no one to lovingly mop it up and tell it there's a better days ahead
You lost your temper again today over something small and stupid it's shadow the size of a mountain and I ignored your distress because like the boy who cried wolf the sounds of your emotions snapping have lost legitimate meaning
I lost my temper again today over old things, lost things things that happened to a different me in a...
I sometimes wonder how we coexist when we're not on the same page about some really important things
Hell, we're not even in the same book on the same shelf or same section of this library
I'm not even sure we're in the same library
And you resent me for closing down every conversation that could lead to an argument nevermind that you find me too emotional and can't have a conversation with me anyway because my intensity makes you uncomfortable ...
Don't ask me my end game why do you think I need one? Can I do something just for the love of it? without ascribing it some monetary value?
I'm tired of the idea that I need to hustle that I'm just a money-making machine in a flesh suit all I have to do is forget to eat never sleep and pretend like my kids won't hate when they're older cause I was too busy chasing the cash cow rather than spending meaningful time with them
1. My mum sends me articles and videos with titles like "How to overcome clutter paralysis" and I'm not sure if she's being helpful or trying to find me in the mirror
2. Today I want to set the house on fire because I'm tired of doing dishes and getting decision fatigue from looking at my wardrobe as though my clothes will somehow make me beautiful as opposed to just making me, me
No matter how many outfits I try on I can't make myself feel better