Submissions by Indie (Miss Indie)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
human, quirky, dark.
SELF POEM
Published
24th Nov 2022 9:36am
24th Nov 2022 9:36am
fish bowl
My world is small
but I try to make it feel big
I do yoga
gardening
photography
write a blog
watch random documentaries
and spend way to much time
on social media
And I pretend
these things hold the weight
of my life
I pretend that my loneliness
isn't like drowning in slow motion
I pretend that the things
that make me smile
are contagious and that
someone
anyone
will take the time to give a shit
beyond the
"Oh that's nice" sentiment
And instead of asking ...
but I try to make it feel big
I do yoga
gardening
photography
write a blog
watch random documentaries
and spend way to much time
on social media
And I pretend
these things hold the weight
of my life
I pretend that my loneliness
isn't like drowning in slow motion
I pretend that the things
that make me smile
are contagious and that
someone
anyone
will take the time to give a shit
beyond the
"Oh that's nice" sentiment
And instead of asking ...
#myself
#SelfWorth
60 reads
1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
10th Nov 2022 8:14am
10th Nov 2022 8:14am
fantasy
She's heartbreak waiting to happen
can't see any moment past this one
sends me videos of herself
when she's wasted
and has OD'd twice this month
People tell me I should know better
than to love a bad girl
not that I see her that way
and maybe that's my mistake
that I see her as reflection of my past self
someone struggling to find themselves
while they're drowning in chaos
And I almost feel guilty for doing okay
while she's falling apart
and I know I need to keep her
at arms length so she doesn't...
can't see any moment past this one
sends me videos of herself
when she's wasted
and has OD'd twice this month
People tell me I should know better
than to love a bad girl
not that I see her that way
and maybe that's my mistake
that I see her as reflection of my past self
someone struggling to find themselves
while they're drowning in chaos
And I almost feel guilty for doing okay
while she's falling apart
and I know I need to keep her
at arms length so she doesn't...
#love
#friendship
#drugs #addiction
#drugs #addiction
90 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Nov 2022 3:59am
9th Nov 2022 3:59am
warrior pose
My body ached from chasing
a hyper active toddler along the beach
I stretched myself out with yoga
back into a body that felt almost normal
or as normal as my body allows itself to be
I went an "understanding trauma" workshop
and felt both sad and vindicated
sad because I still have to live the the after affects
every waking moment of my life
vindicated because I'm on the right path
back towards a semblence of the goddess
I used to be
I live every day feeling broken
and I fight for the moments of peace ...
a hyper active toddler along the beach
I stretched myself out with yoga
back into a body that felt almost normal
or as normal as my body allows itself to be
I went an "understanding trauma" workshop
and felt both sad and vindicated
sad because I still have to live the the after affects
every waking moment of my life
vindicated because I'm on the right path
back towards a semblence of the goddess
I used to be
I live every day feeling broken
and I fight for the moments of peace ...
#identity
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfWorth
78 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
1st Nov 2022 8:02am
1st Nov 2022 8:02am
greenhouse
I tried yoga today
stretched myself into lightheadedness
and pain from muscles unused
it was the most relaxed I've felt
in I can't remember how long
despite the intrusive thoughts
that creep in whenever I try
and blank my mind
apparently my brain doesn't know
what you do with clear skies
...
I bought flowers for my empty greenhouse
and basil and mint and parsley
I miss having a garden
full of pretty things
mixed with things I can eat
I've been thinking about it months
today I had the energy to...
stretched myself into lightheadedness
and pain from muscles unused
it was the most relaxed I've felt
in I can't remember how long
despite the intrusive thoughts
that creep in whenever I try
and blank my mind
apparently my brain doesn't know
what you do with clear skies
...
I bought flowers for my empty greenhouse
and basil and mint and parsley
I miss having a garden
full of pretty things
mixed with things I can eat
I've been thinking about it months
today I had the energy to...
#LifeAsAWriter
#SelfReflection
81 reads
11 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2022 3:28am
22nd Oct 2022 3:28am
questionable truths
We hang ourselves out to dry
pretend the world can't see us
and the way this crumbles
on close inspection
There's a knock at the door
always waiting
with a promise of a better tomorrow
if this were a libertarian state
where everyone was equal
and this hand up
didn't come with chains attached
to some moral code
we've exorcised
like the demon it is
I close my eyes and don't think about it
I smile at every knock at the door
though I would prefer a deadbolt
and a day of movies and popcorn
but...
pretend the world can't see us
and the way this crumbles
on close inspection
There's a knock at the door
always waiting
with a promise of a better tomorrow
if this were a libertarian state
where everyone was equal
and this hand up
didn't come with chains attached
to some moral code
we've exorcised
like the demon it is
I close my eyes and don't think about it
I smile at every knock at the door
though I would prefer a deadbolt
and a day of movies and popcorn
but...
#drugs
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4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Oct 2022 12:18pm
2nd Oct 2022 12:18pm
dreaming in woven fibers
I try to remake myself
in imaginary ways
like the illusion
will strip away the dreary panic
of this reality that never lets me
find sure footing
I used to be an adventure in motion
I lived for the chaos of a day unexplored
I was always a walk, a bus trip
a train ride away from something new
Now I find it hard to walk out my front door
as though the tendrils of what took her
will find me and drag me down a path
that's not mine to live
because I know these memories
aren't a prophecy
they're...
in imaginary ways
like the illusion
will strip away the dreary panic
of this reality that never lets me
find sure footing
I used to be an adventure in motion
I lived for the chaos of a day unexplored
I was always a walk, a bus trip
a train ride away from something new
Now I find it hard to walk out my front door
as though the tendrils of what took her
will find me and drag me down a path
that's not mine to live
because I know these memories
aren't a prophecy
they're...
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles #fear
#LifeStruggles #fear
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2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
26th Sep 2022 2:29am
26th Sep 2022 2:29am
Coco
I haven't lived in the real world since you died
in my mind you're still alive
if I think I'll break into tears
so I don't think, don't feel
I just futurise our next encounter
which I know is never coming
but I hold onto anyway
because I miss you
and I can't accept that you're gone
© Indie Adams 2022
in my mind you're still alive
if I think I'll break into tears
so I don't think, don't feel
I just futurise our next encounter
which I know is never coming
but I hold onto anyway
because I miss you
and I can't accept that you're gone
© Indie Adams 2022
#love
#grief
#death #denial
#death #denial
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3 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
9th Sep 2022 4:04pm
9th Sep 2022 4:04pm
past midnight
His snoring sounds
like a cat purring
content in dreamland
...
I'm watching kid's shows
on YouTube at 1am
with a sleepless toddler
I'd rather be asleep
...
The minutes pass too slowly
waiting for you to sleep
© Indie Adams 2022
like a cat purring
content in dreamland
...
I'm watching kid's shows
on YouTube at 1am
with a sleepless toddler
I'd rather be asleep
...
The minutes pass too slowly
waiting for you to sleep
© Indie Adams 2022
#children
#family
#sleep
131 reads
8 Comments
STORY POEM
Published
29th Aug 2022 4:32am
29th Aug 2022 4:32am
life hacks with a two year old
They only tell you useless things
when you're about to become a parent
like how little sleep you'll get
and how your sex life will disappear
as though you're not savvy enough
to realise babies take work
They tell you about the terrible twos
about tantrums and attitude
and how you'd happily give them back
on the bad days, if they weren't so damn cute
They don't tell you about the joys of potty training
and how in one week of trying
your two year old
will piss in everything from your shoes
to a duplo...
when you're about to become a parent
like how little sleep you'll get
and how your sex life will disappear
as though you're not savvy enough
to realise babies take work
They tell you about the terrible twos
about tantrums and attitude
and how you'd happily give them back
on the bad days, if they weren't so damn cute
They don't tell you about the joys of potty training
and how in one week of trying
your two year old
will piss in everything from your shoes
to a duplo...
#children
116 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Aug 2022 1:05am
29th Aug 2022 1:05am
over-chewed bubble gum
I lose the flavour of myself
in isolation
like over-chewed bubble gum
there's a hint of what I was
but everything else is stripped away
Some days I don't know who I am
I'm voiceless and silent
and while I hold out a hand for myself
it's like trying to make friends with my reflection
we move in syncronicity
but every movement is meaningless
and better done without a mimicking audience
Some days I write to find myself
but my words are an echo
and I'm the only who can hear
their fading whispers...
in isolation
like over-chewed bubble gum
there's a hint of what I was
but everything else is stripped away
Some days I don't know who I am
I'm voiceless and silent
and while I hold out a hand for myself
it's like trying to make friends with my reflection
we move in syncronicity
but every movement is meaningless
and better done without a mimicking audience
Some days I write to find myself
but my words are an echo
and I'm the only who can hear
their fading whispers...
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
#illness #MentalHealth
#illness #MentalHealth
193 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Aug 2022 4:35am
23rd Aug 2022 4:35am
drifitng rain clouds
I’ve got the shifting aimless in my veins
I listen to sad songs to remind me that I’m alive
because positive affirmations don’t feel real
in this white walled world
Some days I can’t remember who I am
if you remember, come find me there
I would love to know your face
like I love all the faces that come through
the revolving door of temporary desolation
Cause we call need to sleep sometimes
it doesn’t matter how
as long as our heads hit a pillow
and we turn off long enough
to find semi-dreamed peace
...
I listen to sad songs to remind me that I’m alive
because positive affirmations don’t feel real
in this white walled world
Some days I can’t remember who I am
if you remember, come find me there
I would love to know your face
like I love all the faces that come through
the revolving door of temporary desolation
Cause we call need to sleep sometimes
it doesn’t matter how
as long as our heads hit a pillow
and we turn off long enough
to find semi-dreamed peace
...
#depression
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
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SELF POEM
Published
21st Aug 2022 1:04pm
21st Aug 2022 1:04pm
scope
Depression is trying to find meaning
when everything feels meaningless
Every day I wake up
I have to choose to fight for myself
to fight for the spark
that’s missing in my heartbeat
to fight for the smile
I want to feel on my face
Because there is beauty
on the edges of this darkness
where the sunlight meets
the never-ending night
and I have to step outside
my comfort zone to find it
There’s beauty in the ordinary
the way a flower grows
through a crack in the pavement
unfazed...
when everything feels meaningless
Every day I wake up
I have to choose to fight for myself
to fight for the spark
that’s missing in my heartbeat
to fight for the smile
I want to feel on my face
Because there is beauty
on the edges of this darkness
where the sunlight meets
the never-ending night
and I have to step outside
my comfort zone to find it
There’s beauty in the ordinary
the way a flower grows
through a crack in the pavement
unfazed...
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#LifeAsAWriter
#MentalHealth
#art
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8 Comments
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