Contextualize You

 
just because i desire you intensely
doesn't mean i respect you
but in all fairness how would you know
i was groomed as a gentleman
that's a cultural thing
a form of indoctrination if you will
but not me at my core..
'my behind close door politics'
now that's a little closer to the truth..
 
i..live....somewhere between
compassion and contempt..
hence my mood swings..
pay very close attention
cuz if you keep gettin caught in how YOU feel
you'll miss my point
 
i love to love..
love is a canvas i can splash upon all goddamn day
but had to learn through trial and error
not to place it where it's not appreciated
where it wasn't worth the effort
...
see..i know what you're capable of
on both ends of the spectrum..
and no ..i refuse to argue with you on this
not in the habit of wasting oxygen..
i got my brand of shit
and so do you..
the issue here..
we keep focusing on mines..
 
ok..
i'll...ahem.. man up..
take the charges..
but you are truly delusional
if you think i can't really see you..
got that 'smartest person in the room syndrome'  
goin in high gear
i hear between your lines..
the backhanded compliments
the secret desires..
..
guilt trip me..you can try..
but it won'y fly  
it's definitely a tale if two cities
i lie...you lie..
as we lie between these sheets
now shut up and open your fuckin legs..
 
....
 
circa 1993