Itís ok if you stain my hands yellow Iíll catch everything you throw And the bloodstains will fade away Youíll never have to be alone I never want to see the day When your eyes wonít close
I hate saying I love you To everyone but you If I finally did it Iíd kill you too
If I close me eyes Your heart will stop beating † I donít know how to stop Making sure weíre both still breathing I canít even sleep Thereís dead people in my dreams Iím tired of being awake Letís steal his gun and leave...
They came over when I was sick When mom had to go to work I sat in his lap As we colored inside the lines She helped me cook The plastic chicken and corn Always an obedient wife She believed in everything Even he told us to pray The sickness away
We twisted and turned down the roads Brought her sprite and peanut butter So he could keep eating her soul
I sat in the living room Under the card table Watching cartoons As machines fed her air
I moved back into my old head But someone reversed the floor plan Things are the same as theyíve always been Backwards but right where I left them I want to stay here but I canít I donít remember why it used to make sense
I sleep enough and exercise Sometimes I even socialize So why do I still want to die
Burned out from my feelings Iím dead and sleeping in the dark Nothing has a meaning So flip the switch and reset my heart I need a new lightbulb in my head How many people will it take to make me...
They were hiding out in the back row And everyone thought they were lost They let me forget my name As we pealed the paint off the walls They said he was jealous of me Maybe they werenít wrong
Heíd ask me how Iíd been Then laugh and say we donít have any friends
Throw some ashes in a water bottle We donít care what happens tomorrow Because they all know lifeís not fair Here it feels like we belong somewhere So kick back your chair And Iíll kick you in the shins Summer never has to end
Ignoring my feelings until they go away My hands feel hollow I havenít talked in three days Canít sleep without headphones Donít want to feel anything They keep asking whatís wrong with me I donít know how to say I want to feel the blood run out of my veins
I need to meet someone new I keep walking around the woods Hoping to run into you
Take me out of the old days So I remember how Iím supposed to think Someone needs to fix my brain My momís getting tired Of being worried everyday Come...
The sirens are shrieking from the water hose Keep the umbrella over your head So the confetti doesnít sink into your bones Smash the hammer in your ears Before they take over your soul And you start eating rose petals
Twist the apple stem again Trust me you donít want this
Attracted to everything you donít know You wear desperation like cheap cologne It feels innocent until they start To poke holes in your butterfly scars They seduce you with strawberry pop-tarts Then tear out your heart
Two days home alone and I want to die So I watch cartoons And remember what it was like When I was five When there was nothing to be scared of Dreaming of who I would be when I grew up Starstruck by the stage lights Doing ballet in the hallway And singing all the time Take me back to those chocolate milk nights When I was excited by the possibilities of life
Everythingís still the same Iím being dramatic I like to romanticize what happened But I spent my days Hiding from the future In a...
You injected fire into my veins So I could feel something Hijacked the chemicals in my brain So I could be normal and sane Everyone likes the new me But I donít feel anything I tried to bury my thoughts And now Iím laying in a grave
This isnít what I signed up for Their approval isnít satisfying anymore
The yellow walls are murdering me I needed a break from reality Not a brand new identity You said this would finally make me happy Satisfaction guaranteed But I only got more suicidal tendencies ...
The water steals the colors from the sky As your eyes turn black and white Youíre fading away in my hands I know we wonít survive past the twilight The leaves dance around us for the last time It was our fate to die in the afterglow
The violin knows we never had a chance As it confesses the violence of a bittersweet romance
Youíre as innocent as the stars You canít understand why Iím so dark I donít want to say goodbye But Iím an optimistic nihilist most of the time And Iíve spent too much of my life ...
My legs will never be toothpicks And Iíll never be paper thin They laugh at my stretched skin And I flinch when I look in the mirror The marks on my face Tell me how Iím going to die I freak out when I see people outside Donít look at me I might cry
Thereís always something new For me to hate I chase self love By running in place
I want to be happy Without having to try Be excited Without being terrified My heart started racing † When they walked by Iím hungover From the...
Itís spring again And youíre out every night With your new friends Youíre all coated in same skin I donít know how I thought I could ever fit in Letís go back to when The snow kept us inside
Iíve always been told Theyíre not better than me But thatís not how it seems
I want to know what theyíre talking about They make me feel like Iím missing out I spend everyday alone in my house While theyíre running all over town But they all say they want my life Iím not allowed to want to...