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Nostalgia’s A Liar
Two days home alone and I want to die
So I watch cartoons
And remember what it was like
When I was five
When there was nothing to be scared of
Dreaming of who I would be when I grew up
Starstruck by the stage lights
Doing ballet in the hallway
And singing all the time
Take me back to those chocolate milk nights
When I was excited by the possibilities of life
Everything’s still the same
I’m being dramatic
I like to romanticize what happened
But I spent my days
Hiding from the future
In a laundry basket
The past is a safe place
But it wasn’t better in the old days
It could be worse
At least I’m not seven
Fighting with a girl
Who used tears as weapons
And if I’m really confessing
I spent the next three years wishing I was never born
But thank god I’m not still eleven
Obsessed with the boy next door
I don’t cry in my closet
Like I did when I was twelve
When she gave me lectures about cutting
When I just wanted a hug and some help
Nothing’s really changed
I like being dramatic but now
I don’t romanticize what happened
I still spend my days
Hiding from the future
In a laundry basket
The past is a safe place
But it wasn’t better in the old days
Maybe it was easier
Before I felt the sting of spring break
When Good Friday was just a day
I miss the way it used to be
But I made it past thirteen
So I can survive anything
So I watch cartoons
And remember what it was like
When I was five
When there was nothing to be scared of
Dreaming of who I would be when I grew up
Starstruck by the stage lights
Doing ballet in the hallway
And singing all the time
Take me back to those chocolate milk nights
When I was excited by the possibilities of life
Everything’s still the same
I’m being dramatic
I like to romanticize what happened
But I spent my days
Hiding from the future
In a laundry basket
The past is a safe place
But it wasn’t better in the old days
It could be worse
At least I’m not seven
Fighting with a girl
Who used tears as weapons
And if I’m really confessing
I spent the next three years wishing I was never born
But thank god I’m not still eleven
Obsessed with the boy next door
I don’t cry in my closet
Like I did when I was twelve
When she gave me lectures about cutting
When I just wanted a hug and some help
Nothing’s really changed
I like being dramatic but now
I don’t romanticize what happened
I still spend my days
Hiding from the future
In a laundry basket
The past is a safe place
But it wasn’t better in the old days
Maybe it was easier
Before I felt the sting of spring break
When Good Friday was just a day
I miss the way it used to be
But I made it past thirteen
So I can survive anything
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