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Killer Instincts
It’s ok if you stain my hands yellow
I’ll catch everything you throw
And the bloodstains will fade away
You’ll never have to be alone
I never want to see the day
When your eyes won’t close
I hate saying I love you
To everyone but you
If I finally did it
I’d kill you too
If I close me eyes
Your heart will stop beating
I don’t know how to stop
Making sure we’re both still breathing
I can’t even sleep
There’s dead people in my dreams
I’m tired of being awake
Let’s steal his gun and leave this place
Your eyes ask me if I’m ok
When I start to breathe the wrong way
I don’t think it’s going to be ok
There’s blood on my hands
And too much pressure behind my eyes
I’ll keep spinning until I die
This is ridiculous
I need to get over this shit
And learn how to live
I know it’s my fault
All we do is watch
I fuck everything up
I’ve had enough
I’ll catch everything you throw
And the bloodstains will fade away
You’ll never have to be alone
I never want to see the day
When your eyes won’t close
I hate saying I love you
To everyone but you
If I finally did it
I’d kill you too
If I close me eyes
Your heart will stop beating
I don’t know how to stop
Making sure we’re both still breathing
I can’t even sleep
There’s dead people in my dreams
I’m tired of being awake
Let’s steal his gun and leave this place
Your eyes ask me if I’m ok
When I start to breathe the wrong way
I don’t think it’s going to be ok
There’s blood on my hands
And too much pressure behind my eyes
I’ll keep spinning until I die
This is ridiculous
I need to get over this shit
And learn how to live
I know it’s my fault
All we do is watch
I fuck everything up
I’ve had enough
Published 6th Aug 2023
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6th Aug 2023 9:11pm
I like this, a lot. There is both a sense of confusion and frustration going on throughout. Which perhaps reflects true thoughts (?)
Almost a helter skelter view by the author. The scene you write of is obviously a mirror of your current mindset.
A sense of impending finality, as well. It's close and you are not sure how to stop it or cope.
Yeah?
Keep breathing, keep writing. It's always worth it.
Almost a helter skelter view by the author. The scene you write of is obviously a mirror of your current mindset.
A sense of impending finality, as well. It's close and you are not sure how to stop it or cope.
Yeah?
Keep breathing, keep writing. It's always worth it.
6th Aug 2023 9:22pm
I’m glad you liked it. You hit the nail on the head. Thanks for the encouragement too, I really needed it today.
6th Aug 2023 11:51pm
I know what you're going through, I'm going through it too. If you ever need to stain someone else's hands, let me know :)
Sending so much love
Sending so much love
