Losing your virginity

 
Star Wars marathon,
release date order,
pressed up behind me.

No wandering hands,
our favorite films,
unwilling to turn away.

Hours slip by
in happy silence,
enraptured until the moment.

“Turmoil has engulfed
the Galactic Republic;”
minds start to stray.

Then his hands,
my pleased smile,
still, loyalty holds us.

And it comes;
“Oh no! Hey!
Help me! Help me!”

Like final permission,
sweet breaking point,
youthful bodies clash together.

Jar Jar Binks,
how I despise
that I owe you this memory.

I was 15    
it was my first "big" summer party.    
     
I was alone, sanding by the wall.    
     
You, older, 20?    
You, strawberry blond hair,    
tanned legs, and a not so shy smile.    
     
From across the room,    
you walked up to me and said,    
"Follow me."    
     
I did.    
     
Behind the closed door, you undid one button after another,    
pushed my shirt off my shoulders;    
it hung down from the waist of my jeans.    
     
 You said,    
"Unbutton me."    
     
I did.    
     
Your blouse hung undone from your cut off jeans;    
you weren't wearing a bra;    
your breasts were small;    
your nipples were perfect.    
     
You knelt before me,    
removed my sandals,    
undid the three buttons of my jeans;    
and slid them to my ankles.    
     
As you stood, you said,    
"Remove mine."    
     
I did.    
     
Your flip-flops were tossed aside,    
and I slid your tight cut offs down to your feet.    
     
You smiled, stepped out of your cut offs, and said,    
"Step out of yours."    
     
I did.    
     
You hooked your thumb in the waist of my boxers,    
pulled them out from my waist,    
hooked your big toe in the waist,    
and pushed them down to my feet.    
     
You said,    
"Step out of them."    
     
I did.    
     
You said,    
"Your turn, remove mine."    
     
I did but not the way you removed mine.    
I used both hands, running them down your legs.    
Your bikinis slid to your feet.    
and you stepped out of them.    
     
The tan of your legs went all the way up    
showing that you were a natural strawberry blond.    
     
Using your hands, you pull me back to standing,    
stopping me from staring.    
     
You moved your mouth to mine,    
kissed me,    
and pressed your tongue in to my mouth.    
     
You said    
"Kiss me back."    
     
I did    
and our tongues caressed each other.    
     
Your hand wrapped around me    
and led me to the bed.    
     
You said    
"Follow me."    
     
I did, considering what your hand was gripping,    
how could I not?    
     
And sat next to you.    
     
You laid back on the bed, separated your legs,    
and said, "Touch me."    
     
I did,    
laying next to you,    
my fingers massaged you.    
     
Your other hand went around my waist    
gripped my butt cheek, hard.    
     
You said    
"Hold me closer to you."    
     
I did    
my hand gripped your butt cheek,    
we pulled together,    
I felt your nipples touch my chest,    
while your hand stroked me,    
and my finger rubbed you.    
     
You said,    
"Move you finger."    
     
I did    
and you guided me in.    
     
You said.    
"Fuck me."    
     
I did.

you invited me in
in through the door
into your room
into your arms
into your bed
into you . . .

wait, wait, let's go back bit

you invited me in

     met at Starbucks
     shared a love for coffee --black, unsweet
     split a brownie
     talked of this and that
     liked what we saw and the little that we shared

     it was raining

           offered you a ride
           bench seat
           you sat close
           hand on my knee --higher
           hand on your thigh --higher
           
           quick kiss as I pulled in your driveway
           turned into a longer kiss
           a fondling feel of your breast
           a groping squeeze of my crouch
           
in through the door

     jacket unzipped, tossed on the chair with yours
     wet shoes untied, left next to yours on the welcome mat
     hands pulled your mouth to mine
     tongues found each other
     
into your room

     trail of clothes on the floor down the hall
     hand slap on ass
     quick head turn, hand grabbed, held to breast
     mouth to mouth, tongue to tongue
     hand fondled breast
     hand fondled dick
     into room, laughing

into your arms

     long, deep kiss
     hands caressing backs
     hand hugging bodies tightly together
           hand gripping ass cheek --lower, deeper
     hand hugging bodies tightly together
           hand stoking ass valley --lower, deeper
     front to front --nipple to nipple, navel to navel, thigh to thigh
     leg raised, ridden, wetness rubbed against thigh

into your bed

     on your back
     hands reaching to embrace
     knees raised, apart
     open

     on my knees, between your feet
     hands supporting weight moving downward, forward
     leaning into your arms
     entering

into you

     pushing
     closed, tight
     forcing
     writhing
     crying, do it
     begging, please, now
     demanding, now, yes
     membrane breached
     
     all the way in
     tightness stimulating
     wonderfully lubricated
     forceful strokes
     maximum arousal
     immediate orgasm
     
     didn't know it was your first time
     should have had much more foreplay
     sorry

     wanted it this way
     wanted to really feel its loss
     thank you

     you didn't cum
     your first time isn't done
     spread your legs

           fingers and mouth
           lips to lips
           tongue to clit
           licking, lapping
           teasing, stimulating
           finger caressing, petting, parting, probing, deeper
           curling, stoking
           wetness increasing
           pelvis squirming, wriggling
           hands gripping head forcing mouth and tongue deeper
           convulsion, contracting
           sighing

     now your first time is complete
     thank you for the honor of being your first

     I want to thank you for being my first
     on your back, spread your legs

           mouth and hand
           lips to tip
           taking fully
           surrounding, sucking, licking
           teasing, stimulating
           hand caressing, petting, patting, squeezing                  
           hardness increasing, throbbing
           hands gripping head forcing deeper into mouth
           spasming, erupting
           sighing

     want you to be my second

     now?

     no, next Friday, Starbucks, after work, 6?

     yes