Dear Mister...

Dear Mister,


I've Never been one for words so i wrote you this letter
i figured i'd start off by letting you know,
i've not once appreciated your 'games' of red rover
how you would say the word and obediently i already knew...

I will not plead ignorance to the obvious truth,
that your heart was blackened from the trials in your life
But your own loss of innocence was no excuse to steal MY youth
A hard lesson learned; unrelenting misery and sacrifice is the cost of life

You betrayed my trust and like a blinded fool, i was unaware
I suffered 4 years by you, and the memories haunt me
but you are a monster with a heart of stone, i know you don't really care
you tainted me, and in the cruelest ways forced me to see

As children, the world is a glorious place, full of mystery
but here i am trapped in the darkness of insanity
i'm lost and afraid, losing my grip on this reality
i turn to self-destructive ways to cope as a sense of clarity

There's so much more i could say to you
like how much i hate and despise your being
how i can't stand even the mention of you
how i wish you to burn in the depths of hell for all eternity

my guilt? i miss the 'family' that we once were before your sickness entered your body
but i see clearly now that we never were, just wishful thinking of a child deep inside me
you forced me into silence and the secrets were trapped inside my body
with no way to escape my own sickness threatened to overtake me

i'm still among the lost souls of the one's who's meaning and existence is worthless
but monsters like you don't give a damn, you only wish to satisfy your desires
i hear time and time again to rise above this, that i'm worth more than this
but i do not believe, that freedom and a peace of mind, is a prize for me to acquire

I know i've never been one for words, so i wrote you a letter of a young girls stolen youth
every single one of your wrong doings, with time shall be unveiled
i give you this last hello and my final farewell, and with speaking of hidden truths
because in the end everything comes to light and all is revealed

i've said all that needs to be, so I guess that i will end it all with this
you can be a coward all you want, ignorance is bliss, but my strive will continue to persist