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My Grief, Mine Alone
I want desperately
to write about you
To tell the world
how wonderful you were
and how lucky,
anyone who had the
Privilege
of knowing you,
would be
My thoughts…
won’t settle down
and let me
pen my feelings
I’m too afraid
if I do the flood gates
holding back my tears
will tear loose their hinges
and the tsunami of grief
will drown my soul
to write about you
To tell the world
how wonderful you were
and how lucky,
anyone who had the
Privilege
of knowing you,
would be
My thoughts…
won’t settle down
and let me
pen my feelings
I’m too afraid
if I do the flood gates
holding back my tears
will tear loose their hinges
and the tsunami of grief
will drown my soul
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Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
16th Dec 2024 3:41am
Powerful write, H. Into the list it belongs. Grief is an emotional flood pouring from the depths of our hearts. Appreciate you.
Damian
Damian
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
19th Dec 2024 5:21am
Dear DL,
It really is and trying to claw my way out of it only feels like a deeper hole. Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. I’m very grateful to you. H🌷
It really is and trying to claw my way out of it only feels like a deeper hole. Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. I’m very grateful to you. H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
16th Dec 2024 3:49am
My dear, we were born crying. It's part of our oxygen. So don't shut it off.
Good people cry bad. So be a mess.
It's so good to see your words, ya know. You give so much out to others, we deserve a chance to give back to you. Even if it's a cloudy day on your mood, we will raise our lighters and treat you like a rock star.
Your write is very touching, on all of our human levels. It has an ache that reaches out to the reader to where we have no choice but to grab our chests and sigh along.
Well done, H.
Good people cry bad. So be a mess.
It's so good to see your words, ya know. You give so much out to others, we deserve a chance to give back to you. Even if it's a cloudy day on your mood, we will raise our lighters and treat you like a rock star.
Your write is very touching, on all of our human levels. It has an ache that reaches out to the reader to where we have no choice but to grab our chests and sigh along.
Well done, H.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
19th Dec 2024 5:28am
Dear S,
I have never thought of that. We’re born crying. How natural when you put it that way. I won’t admit it but, I think you just shut my mouth.
I wanted to be a rock star when I was young, but your wonderful support, superb insight and RL list is waaaaaay better. Thank you. x
H🌷
I have never thought of that. We’re born crying. How natural when you put it that way. I won’t admit it but, I think you just shut my mouth.
I wanted to be a rock star when I was young, but your wonderful support, superb insight and RL list is waaaaaay better. Thank you. x
H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
16th Dec 2024 4:39am
This crystalizes my recent thinking about how I ought to have composed all of my poems in past tense, since with enough water under the bridge all poetry necessarily becomes epitaphic, no matter our initial intent.
A rose to you, good lady, as we are all naturally tragedian. 🌹
A rose to you, good lady, as we are all naturally tragedian. 🌹
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
19th Dec 2024 5:33am
Dear MS,
Hmmmmm, I like the idea of writing in the past tense because I feel like that would give me a chance to see how it ended before it happened. Then I could change the future.
Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. I think you just helped me realize a new way of doing things. Awesome. 😃
H🌷
Hmmmmm, I like the idea of writing in the past tense because I feel like that would give me a chance to see how it ended before it happened. Then I could change the future.
Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. I think you just helped me realize a new way of doing things. Awesome. 😃
H🌷
Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
25th Dec 2024 10:43pm
"A rose to you, good lady, as we are all naturally tragedian 🌹"
... seconded ...
... seconded ...
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Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
16th Dec 2024 10:14am
Dear H,
My heart made a little jump when I saw you released a piece. You don't post much, but when you do it's spectecular. Onto your piece: it resonates deeply and moved me deeply. I too, am afraid to feel for the tears might drown me. Thank you for sharing such a gem with us 💕
My heart made a little jump when I saw you released a piece. You don't post much, but when you do it's spectecular. Onto your piece: it resonates deeply and moved me deeply. I too, am afraid to feel for the tears might drown me. Thank you for sharing such a gem with us 💕
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
19th Dec 2024 5:39am
Dear D,
I know we’re supposed to cry but sorrow and loss are just so terribly painful. Almost too much to bear. Thank you so much, I’m very touched by your sweet comment and RL list. H🌷
I know we’re supposed to cry but sorrow and loss are just so terribly painful. Almost too much to bear. Thank you so much, I’m very touched by your sweet comment and RL list. H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
16th Dec 2024 1:56pm
I'm with the others. When I saw that you posted I was overjoyed. And I agree with everything that Styxian said. You're always here for us. I'm glad you opened up and are leaning on us. Being vulnerable isn't easy.
It feels like the crying will never end but it will. Letting the flood gates open is cleansing and the release can be life altering. You will be a changed woman. No worse for the wear. Take it from someone who's had her share of grief. It's difficult, but once you open that faucet you will ask yourself why you didn't do it sooner.
Thank you for trusting us with your words. Holding you in thought, Honoria.
It feels like the crying will never end but it will. Letting the flood gates open is cleansing and the release can be life altering. You will be a changed woman. No worse for the wear. Take it from someone who's had her share of grief. It's difficult, but once you open that faucet you will ask yourself why you didn't do it sooner.
Thank you for trusting us with your words. Holding you in thought, Honoria.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
19th Dec 2024 5:45am
Dear H,
I know you’re right. And the right side of my brain is agreeing but the left side of my brain is giving me the finger. So typical. 😏
Your words have provided strength and encouragement on more occasions than I can shake a stick at. While Rome wasn’t built in a day I will slowly but surely allow myself that vulnerability. Thank you for your lovely response and RL list. I’m very grateful to you. x
H🌷
I know you’re right. And the right side of my brain is agreeing but the left side of my brain is giving me the finger. So typical. 😏
Your words have provided strength and encouragement on more occasions than I can shake a stick at. While Rome wasn’t built in a day I will slowly but surely allow myself that vulnerability. Thank you for your lovely response and RL list. I’m very grateful to you. x
H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
Dearest H,
Please do. Write about it, cry about it, we are all holding you here. I second everything the others have said. You've given us all so much support.
And also - I know how that private grief feels. But even if I didn't, you've written it so beautifully here. I love when you share your words & thoughts.
❤️k
Please do. Write about it, cry about it, we are all holding you here. I second everything the others have said. You've given us all so much support.
And also - I know how that private grief feels. But even if I didn't, you've written it so beautifully here. I love when you share your words & thoughts.
❤️k
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
19th Dec 2024 5:52am
Dear K,
Thank you so much for your kindness and support. It’s been a rough couple of months. Lots of losses on top of each other with no time to recoup any emotional strength. The light you shine my way lifts me up to get through another day and I’m ever so grateful for that boost. Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. xx
H🌷
Thank you so much for your kindness and support. It’s been a rough couple of months. Lots of losses on top of each other with no time to recoup any emotional strength. The light you shine my way lifts me up to get through another day and I’m ever so grateful for that boost. Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. xx
H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
Anonymous
17th Dec 2024 3:44am
I so get the losing the hinges part. Let them go. You'll get new ones.
Wonderful, emotive write. I'm always excited to see a new piece from you.
Wonderful, emotive write. I'm always excited to see a new piece from you.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
22nd Dec 2024 3:48am
Dear PD,
Strangest thing. I went to reply a couple days ago but your acct wasn’t active. I’m so glad to see you!
I’ll let go my hinges if you promise to make me laugh with any of your school poems at the end. They're touching and great and always bring cheer when you share them. Thank you so much for your wonderful comment, I’m very grateful.
H🌷
Strangest thing. I went to reply a couple days ago but your acct wasn’t active. I’m so glad to see you!
I’ll let go my hinges if you promise to make me laugh with any of your school poems at the end. They're touching and great and always bring cheer when you share them. Thank you so much for your wonderful comment, I’m very grateful.
H🌷
Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
Anonymous
22nd Dec 2024 4:16am
In a fit of crybaby loserness, I deactivated my account for a couple of days.
Glad you like the school poems. More on the way.
Glad you like the school poems. More on the way.
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Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
19th Dec 2024 7:33pm
What is it about these feeling this year? Everybody including myself is feeling this way. Well, I’m glad you wrote down what you could I always used Dup as my therapy catalyst and it helps to write it out.
One day you will find your way out.
Loves you Honaria ❤️❤️❤️🎅🏼🎄🫶🏻
One day you will find your way out.
Loves you Honaria ❤️❤️❤️🎅🏼🎄🫶🏻
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
20th Dec 2024 3:34am
Dear J,
DU sure is a great place to purge emotions. I’m very glad to see you tonight. Brightened my evening. Thank you for your constant support. xx
H🌷
DU sure is a great place to purge emotions. I’m very glad to see you tonight. Brightened my evening. Thank you for your constant support. xx
H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
20th Dec 2024 8:41am
So powerful and so touching what you spilled of bleeding ink to paint and portray your grief and your suffering.. If we can unite all the words they won't suffice to contain the waterfall of pain let alone to appease it.. Love, Faith, Light and Hope a sustaining solace! We have to dig deep within to touch them.. We need to have a Beauty in the shape of amazing souls to lean on them.. We need to breathe some of our ache in words of beauty like yours dear Honoria ❤️ God bless you 🙏🏻 a pleasure to read you.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
20th Dec 2024 1:30pm
Dear B,
Jeepers! Your beautiful comment is poetry itself. I’m so overcome by this thoughtfulness. “Love, Faith, Light and Hope a sustaining solace! We have to dig deep within to touch them.” is exactly what needs doing. I think in all the sadness I’d forgotten to take a breath and do just that. Thank you for this reminder gift. Just the ticket for today.
H🌷
Jeepers! Your beautiful comment is poetry itself. I’m so overcome by this thoughtfulness. “Love, Faith, Light and Hope a sustaining solace! We have to dig deep within to touch them.” is exactly what needs doing. I think in all the sadness I’d forgotten to take a breath and do just that. Thank you for this reminder gift. Just the ticket for today.
H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
22nd Dec 2024 7:57pm
This is a powerful emotion grief. You penned it well allowing me to see and feel it through your words. I am sincerely sorry for your loss.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
22nd Dec 2024 8:07pm
Dear F,
Thank you for your lovely comment and condolences. A rough couple of months to be sure. I really appreciate your thoughts and insight on this write. I am uplifted by your visit. Thank you. H🌷
Thank you for your lovely comment and condolences. A rough couple of months to be sure. I really appreciate your thoughts and insight on this write. I am uplifted by your visit. Thank you. H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
24th Dec 2024 8:05pm
Hi H.
For me it’s always hard for me to comment positively on a write that reads with so much heartache and pain. You expressed it so much sincerity, almost like a confession to yourself.
I’m always in your corner and wishing nothing but the best new year for you amiga.
This write was truly felt. Sometimes there are no words and that’s okay too.
For me it’s always hard for me to comment positively on a write that reads with so much heartache and pain. You expressed it so much sincerity, almost like a confession to yourself.
I’m always in your corner and wishing nothing but the best new year for you amiga.
This write was truly felt. Sometimes there are no words and that’s okay too.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
25th Dec 2024 9:03am
Dear A,
This subject is a difficult one on which to comment. I totally get that. For me, while the situations can’t change, what I found astonishing- or cathartic might be the better word, is the release of grief. A bit of it anyway. Who’d a thunk poetry could do that? Words, no words, sometimes it’s the soulful energy that’s felt and that’s as meaningful as all the world. Thank you for your lovely and ever constant support.
H🌷
This subject is a difficult one on which to comment. I totally get that. For me, while the situations can’t change, what I found astonishing- or cathartic might be the better word, is the release of grief. A bit of it anyway. Who’d a thunk poetry could do that? Words, no words, sometimes it’s the soulful energy that’s felt and that’s as meaningful as all the world. Thank you for your lovely and ever constant support.
H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
25th Dec 2024 10:51pm
I don't 'check in' much to DUP these days, but I'm so glad I did.
We picked some flowers, including roses, in the garden today and took a pic. You can find it here:
https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/forum/speakeasy/read/11579/945/
All blessings, Josh & Veronika.
We picked some flowers, including roses, in the garden today and took a pic. You can find it here:
https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/forum/speakeasy/read/11579/945/
All blessings, Josh & Veronika.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
26th Dec 2024 1:44am
Dear J and V,
I’m so happy to see you here tonight. I just looked at the photo. Absolutely stunning! What a glorious garden you have to produce such gorgeous flowers and fruits! What a wonderful way to close out this day! Thank you very much for RL and lovely comment above. I wish you both the very best for a healthy happy new year. xx H🌷
I’m so happy to see you here tonight. I just looked at the photo. Absolutely stunning! What a glorious garden you have to produce such gorgeous flowers and fruits! What a wonderful way to close out this day! Thank you very much for RL and lovely comment above. I wish you both the very best for a healthy happy new year. xx H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
26th Dec 2024 7:18pm
Found this relatable, the fear of letting our thoughts and feelings loose with paper and pen, and yet the words won't come out, or when they do, they're different. As we've grown old, we know that grieving is part of life, it's part of the experience, especially when the loss is too much to bear, and yet somehow poetry allows us to express it in easing the pain just a bit.
I hope you're doing well and thank you for sharing.
I hope you're doing well and thank you for sharing.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
27th Dec 2024 3:52am
Dear W,
This is so true. You’ve nailed it right in the head. It is too much to bear and most days keeping it quiet as to not make others feel uncomfortable, well, that’s when poetry becomes the only viable outlet. Thank you so much for the list add and your lovely comment. I really appreciate them, greatly. H🌷
This is so true. You’ve nailed it right in the head. It is too much to bear and most days keeping it quiet as to not make others feel uncomfortable, well, that’s when poetry becomes the only viable outlet. Thank you so much for the list add and your lovely comment. I really appreciate them, greatly. H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
28th Dec 2024 6:59pm
Your pain is so honest. Thank you for sharing it. Loss this time of year is fucking horrible.
Loss any time of year sucks, but at a time when everything is shining and people celebrate life, to lose it is fucking horrible.
You did a beautiful job with this.
Loss any time of year sucks, but at a time when everything is shining and people celebrate life, to lose it is fucking horrible.
You did a beautiful job with this.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
31st Dec 2024 2:16am
Dear B,
Been a rough couple of months I won’t deny them. Having all of you to boost me up on the darker days has been a real godsend.
Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. I know this isn’t a particularity romantic topic and your kind compliment makes me feel like I got an A+. Thank you. xx
H🌷
Been a rough couple of months I won’t deny them. Having all of you to boost me up on the darker days has been a real godsend.
Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. I know this isn’t a particularity romantic topic and your kind compliment makes me feel like I got an A+. Thank you. xx
H🌷
Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
13th Jan 2025 1:27am
I liked the tsunami metaphor, which has a nice Alice in Wonderland feel to it.
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Re: Re. My Grief, Mine Alone
14th Jan 2025 2:48am
Dear CR,
Thank you very much for your read and kind comment. I’m really grateful, thank you once again. H🌷
Thank you very much for your read and kind comment. I’m really grateful, thank you once again. H🌷