My Grief, Mine Alone

Powerful write, H. Into the list it belongs. Grief is an emotional flood pouring from the depths of our hearts. Appreciate you.

Damian

Dear DL,

It really is and trying to claw my way out of it only feels like a deeper hole. Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. I’m very grateful to you. H🌷

My dear, we were born crying. It's part of our oxygen. So don't shut it off.
  Good people cry bad. So be a mess.
It's so good to see your words, ya know. You give so much out to others, we deserve a chance to give back to you. Even if it's a cloudy day on your mood, we will raise our lighters and treat you like a rock star.
 Your write is very touching, on all of our human levels. It has an ache that reaches out to the reader to where we have no choice but to grab our chests and sigh along.

Well done, H.

Dear S,

I have never thought of that. We’re born  crying. How natural when you put it that way. I won’t admit it but, I think you just shut my mouth.

I wanted to be a rock star when I was young, but your wonderful support, superb insight and RL list is waaaaaay better. Thank you. x
H🌷

This crystalizes my recent thinking about how I ought to have composed all of my poems in past tense, since with enough water under the bridge all poetry necessarily becomes epitaphic, no matter our initial intent.

A rose to you, good lady, as we are all naturally tragedian. 🌹

Dear MS,

Hmmmmm, I like the idea of writing in the past tense because I feel like that would give me a chance to see how it ended before it happened. Then I could change the future.
Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. I think you just helped me realize a new way of doing things. Awesome. 😃
H🌷

"A rose to you, good lady, as we are all naturally tragedian 🌹"

... seconded ...

Dear H,  
 
My heart made a little jump when I saw you released a piece. You don't post much, but when you do it's spectecular. Onto your piece: it resonates deeply and moved me deeply. I too, am afraid to feel for the tears might drown me. Thank you for sharing such a gem with us 💕

Dear D,

I know we’re supposed to cry but sorrow and loss are just so terribly painful. Almost too much to bear. Thank you so much, I’m very touched by your sweet comment and RL list. H🌷

I'm with the others. When I saw that you posted I was overjoyed. And I agree with everything that Styxian said. You're always here for us. I'm glad you opened up and are leaning on us. Being vulnerable isn't easy.

It feels like the crying will never end but it will. Letting the flood gates open is cleansing and the release can be life altering. You will be a changed woman. No worse for the wear. Take it from someone who's had her share of grief. It's difficult, but once you open that faucet you will ask yourself why you didn't do it sooner.

Thank you for trusting us with your words. Holding you in thought, Honoria.

Dear H,

I know you’re right. And the right side of my brain is agreeing but the left side of my brain is giving me the finger. So typical. 😏

Your words have provided strength and encouragement on more occasions than I can shake a stick at. While Rome wasn’t built in a day I will slowly but surely allow myself that vulnerability. Thank you for your lovely response and RL list. I’m very grateful to you. x
H🌷

Dearest H,
Please do. Write about it, cry about it, we are all holding you here. I second everything the others have said. You've given us all so much support.  
And also - I know how that private grief feels. But even if I didn't, you've written it so beautifully here. I love when you share your words & thoughts.
❤️k

Dear K,

Thank you so much for your kindness and support. It’s been a rough couple of months. Lots of losses on top of each other with no time to recoup any emotional strength. The light you shine my way lifts me up to get through another day and I’m ever so grateful for that boost. Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. xx
H🌷

I so get the losing the hinges part. Let them go. You'll get new ones.

Wonderful, emotive write. I'm always excited to see a new piece from you.

Dear PD,

Strangest thing. I went to reply a couple days ago but your acct wasn’t active. I’m so glad to see you!
I’ll let go my hinges if you promise to make me laugh with any of your school poems at the end. They're touching and  great and always bring cheer when you share them. Thank you so much for your wonderful comment, I’m very grateful.
H🌷

In a fit of crybaby loserness, I deactivated my account for a couple of days.

Glad you like the school poems. More on the way.

What is it about these feeling this year? Everybody including myself is feeling this way. Well, I’m glad you wrote down what you could I always used Dup as my therapy catalyst and it helps to write it out.
One day you will find your way out.
Loves you Honaria ❤️❤️❤️🎅🏼🎄🫶🏻

Dear J,

DU sure is a great place to purge emotions. I’m very glad to see you tonight. Brightened my evening. Thank you for your constant support. xx
H🌷

So powerful and so touching what you spilled of bleeding ink to paint and portray your grief and your suffering.. If we can unite all the words they won't suffice to contain the waterfall of pain let alone to appease it.. Love, Faith, Light and Hope a sustaining solace! We have to dig deep within to touch them.. We need to have a Beauty in the shape of amazing souls to lean on them.. We need to breathe some of our ache in words of beauty like yours dear Honoria ❤️ God bless you 🙏🏻 a pleasure to read you.

Dear B,

Jeepers! Your beautiful comment is poetry itself. I’m so overcome by this thoughtfulness. “Love, Faith, Light and Hope a sustaining solace! We have to dig deep within to touch them.” is exactly what needs doing. I think in all the sadness I’d forgotten to take a breath and do just that. Thank you for this reminder gift. Just the ticket for today.
H🌷

This is a powerful emotion grief. You penned it well allowing me to see and feel it through your words. I am sincerely sorry for your loss.

Dear F,

Thank you for your lovely comment and condolences. A rough couple of months to be sure. I really appreciate your thoughts and insight on this write. I am uplifted by your visit. Thank you. H🌷

Hi H.

For me it’s always hard for me to comment positively on a write that reads with so much heartache and pain. You expressed it so much sincerity, almost like a confession to yourself.
I’m always in your corner and wishing nothing but the best new year for you amiga.
This write was truly felt. Sometimes there are no words and that’s okay too.

Dear A,

This subject is a difficult one on which to comment. I totally get that. For me, while the situations can’t change, what I found astonishing- or cathartic might be the better word, is the release of grief. A bit of it anyway. Who’d a thunk poetry could do that? Words, no words, sometimes it’s the soulful energy that’s felt and that’s as meaningful as all the world.  Thank you for your lovely and ever constant support.
H🌷

I don't 'check in' much to DUP these days, but I'm so glad I did.
We picked some flowers, including roses, in the garden today and took a pic. You can find it here:
https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/forum/speakeasy/read/11579/945/
All blessings, Josh & Veronika.

Dear J and V,

I’m so happy to see you here tonight. I just looked at the photo. Absolutely stunning! What a glorious garden you have to produce such gorgeous flowers and fruits! What a wonderful way to close out this day! Thank you very much for RL and lovely comment above. I wish you both the very best for a healthy happy new year. xx H🌷

Found this relatable, the fear of letting our thoughts and feelings loose with paper and pen, and yet the words won't come out, or when they do, they're different. As we've grown old, we know that grieving is part of life, it's part of the experience, especially when the loss is too much to bear, and yet somehow poetry allows us to express it in easing the pain just a bit.

I hope you're doing well and thank you for sharing.

Dear W,

This is so true. You’ve nailed it right in the head. It is too much to bear and most days keeping it quiet as to not make others feel uncomfortable, well, that’s when poetry becomes the only viable outlet. Thank you so much for the list add and your lovely comment. I really appreciate them, greatly. H🌷

Your pain is so honest. Thank you for sharing it. Loss this time of year is fucking horrible.
Loss any time of year sucks, but at a time when everything is shining and people celebrate life, to lose it is fucking horrible.
You did a beautiful job with this.  

Dear B,

Been a rough couple of months I won’t deny them. Having all of you to boost me up on the darker days has been a real godsend.
Thank you for your lovely comment and RL list. I know this isn’t a particularity romantic topic and your kind compliment makes me feel like I got an A+. Thank you. xx
H🌷

I liked the tsunami metaphor, which has a nice Alice in Wonderland feel to it.

Dear CR,

Thank you very much for your read and kind comment. I’m really grateful, thank you once again. H🌷

Your poetry is always a welcomed read.  The last stanza with the final couplet is a powerful image.

LJ

Dear LJ,

You’ve left a catch in my breath with your comment. Thank you very much for this lovely response. I’m very humbled. H🌷

Resonates and it's all been said above . I like the words of Jean Rhys: "...and then it became a part of me and I would miss it, if it ever left. I am talking of sadness."

Dear R,

That’s a perfect quote in defining this grieving process. The void left…well, I speak to the choir on this. I really appreciate learning this thought from Jean Rhys. There’s a solace in this for me and I thank you greatly. H🌷

Hi Honoria,

For some reason I missed this post (I think it's when I had a heavy cold and spent a few days indoors). It's a very moving piece, the title accentuates that grief and despair are very lonely experiences.

Best wishes,

Lawy

Dear L,

I’m sorry to hear you were sick and hoping you’re back to feeling right as rain. Grief is lonely and desolate. While I think we all share these experiences at some time or other they are always singular. Thank you so much for your kind comment and RL add. I’m very grateful. Thank you again. H🌷

My apologies for the tardiness and my condolences and sympathy.

Well, we know now how special this person was to you. And in being that close to you, that tells me they were an honorable, respected and loved person.

They say time heals, maybe.  The scar, from the missing piece of our soul they occupied, reminds us.

A huge condolence hug to you my strong friend, hinges and all. And a shoulder to cry on.

Dear L,

No apology necessary. You’re here and right on time.
“They say time heals, maybe.  The scar, from the missing piece of our soul they occupied, reminds us.” I’m going to hang onto this because it’s so true and I hadn’t thought of it in this manner. Thank you so much for this lovely outlet and for the hug and shoulder. Both are welcomed and needed.  I’m taking it with a squeeze back at you. Thank you. H🌷