A Little Bit Less

A Little Bit Less
 
I wish I weighed a little bit less
Then maybe I would see
It doesn’t matter what I weigh  
It really won’t change me
 
There’s a notion in my mind
It would cure all of my woes
But you wouldn’t love me less
And you wouldn’t love me more
 
I wish I was a little less sad
That the tears would one day stop
The depression that takes over me
It controls my mind, my thoughts  
 
I’m done looking for a reason  
I just welcome it upon me
I’m used to it, my dark cloud
It’s become a sort of hobby
 
I wish I was a little less ugly
Every time I look in the mirror
I wish I was a different me
I wish that I was thinner
 
And I’m back to that desire
Wish to be somebody else  
This isn’t who I want for me
Want to be anyone but myself  
 
I wish I would cry a little bit less
Each day new tears say hello
I let them slide, cold down my cheeks
I sit there and let them flow
 
I wish I was a little less crazy
Make the thoughts in my head just stop
Instead I entertain their rant
Then I listen and eavesdrop  
 
I hear all their suggestions  
Their opinions all mistakes  
I try to pay no mind towards them
As these thoughts predict my fate
 
I wish you’d blame you a little bit less
You are not part of the problem
You help me more than I admit
It’s these voices, I can’t stop them
 
I wish you could what I see in you
For me you are all that is good
If only you could understand this shit
If I could explain it then I would  
 
I wish that you’d love me a little bit less
You’re the one I don’t want to hurt
These voices take over and make me insane
They push me, they say life is short  
 
I’m holding on the best that I can
They promised me that I could fly
Love me a little bit less if you could  
It’s just easier to say goodbye