Empath

Suddenly
I am overcome
by an inexplicable
sadness.

(Can’t speak of it…
it would be misconstrued as madness.)

My light
gets dimmed
almost
to complete
darkness…

I do not understand
how emptiness can be so full,
leaving no room.
I do not understand
how silence can be,
so deafening.

I play a happy tune
but it buries me
deeper into gloom!

I surround myself
with company
but I have gotten
so good at hiding,
they can’t see
the storm inside of me…

(the best place to hide is in plain sight)

Fake it until you make it
does not work…
I have been faking all my life!

I may be here
but I am merely passing by…
A victory contested by some.
…the misconception.
Others call it depression.
…another misapprehension.

(Is anybody paying attention?)

I DO NOT WANT TO BE ATTUNED!

Knowledge is NOT power!
Realization is demolishing!

I do not have demons
inside of me
that I am fighting!!
They are all around.
You can easily spot them.
…they are inhumane!
Creating “masterpieces”
with their atrocities.

I am not suicidal!
I do not want to be part of a world
That only pretends to function
cause reality requires action!
I want reprisal…
I do not want to be part of a world
where evil
is entertaining
& people take pleasure
in destruction!
Demanding better
But refusing to be better!
The world is just a place
filled with hatred…

I AM NOT DEPRESSED!

I am not depressed…

…I am disappointed!!!!

© Copyright ~poetisa, maría dé jesús
Written 4/27/2023