Paper Heart sinking...

So many great lines, where do I begin?
One thousand paper cut words is a start
This is ultra personal and revealing in a coveted Kx way
I'll interpret with what's in front of me
You have a lock box with memories and work to do
There is light down the road, you have a horizon that stretches wide
Poets often live their past and their fantasies forward
Strength from having endured hangs in the balance here
An astonishing write

BIG LIKE

RL AWARD

This is the kind of comment that leaves wondering where to begin myself. I think everyone can identify with paper cuts, that sting that just never seems to go away. This is definitely ultra personal and revealing, you obviously picked up on that. There is a lot packed away in this one... One of those I usually decide not to post. Since it was inspired by another poem I went ahead and did anyway. I have compartmentalized many things but I draw on the past for strength and it has increased my passions. We all have a past and we have to choose what to do with it the best we can. I choose to find strength from it and to make fantasies come true. Astonishing, thank you for the great compliment, BIG LIKE, and RL.

Endorheic calls to mind that Star Trek episode where crew members are reduced to piles of white powder surrounded by their uniforms.

Super creepy.

But being ever so slightly narcissistic, I immediately recognized that indeed I am..."stranded in sonnets"...and I suppose I justify the stranding as a kind of balance betwixt form and content. How many of us are thusly caged? We write with the most freedom from WITHIN the comfort zone, where I also suppose BDSM comparisons will eventually abound.

Your poem neatly reiterates that we poets may be the only folks who are capable of being successfully auto-psychoanalytical.  

At least I like to narcissistically think so.

Well you covered a lot of ground there MS. I love the comment... First a Star Trek episode, hell yeah... like Twilight zone, Tales from the Darkside, and other shows I love. I will have to go find that episode now and watch it. ;)

Well, there is a lot of darkness in this one like some others. Super creepy makes sense to me.

I had not thought about it as narcissistic but I suppose everything is ever so slightly really if you think about it. There is some identity and ego in everything ultimately searching for balance and form always. I imagine we all have our cages and compartmentalization too perhaps. It can be hard to write outside your comfort zone. I certainly find things like passion much easier to post. Ah yes, BDSM comparisons. I find that BDSM for me is one thing that helps me immensely in calming my rapid thoughts. That's why I love it. Gets me out of my head so to speak...

Ah, I definitely know something about being auto-psychoanalytical. :p

Haha... yes... Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts with me. I found them very interesting indeed.

Absolutely mind opening, truly a amazing piece
Fantastic read,
Love and light
Ron xxx

Hey Ron, I am here to open your mind. :) This one comes from the heart and soul as usual. I am happy you thought it was a truly amazing piece and found it a fantastic read. As usual it just kind of hit me but allowed me another opportunity to express some things from deep down. Much love and light back atcha.

This one really pushed the perimeter...

Ah yes RT, this one pushed the perimeter. I usually regret doing that but oh well, I am told that's how we grow and it's cathartic and all that so I will go with that. ;) I am used to pushing boundaries in many ways though so I suppose it is what it is. I will just do it and move on to the next. Anyway, the perimeter always needs to be expanded. That's how we deal with the past and push forward into the future.

I totally agree...

You have taken a jumble of images and jig-sawed a desolate ocean. You missed The Power of Words from themes, cos this is a genuinely devastating poem. Ironically, you are now in position not to use words as mere shields, but bloody weapons. The female narrative is candid and deftly delivered. Cathartic, creative and truly flattered that this stands as a companion piece. As us Taffs say, this is mint.

So many images... it takes to create a desolate ocean. I always forget about the Power of words theme, actually there was another theme that I would have used for this one also but I always spin out in comments when I use that one so I decided against it. This one comes from quite a devastating time and place so I guess that shows. I am still working on cathartic but I am glad you found it creative and a worthy companion piece to your exceptional writing. Taffs, I love that and mint too. So cute. :p

The intimate address, as to a confidant, slow cadence, build and denouement hold the kind of vulnerability that sings to me. I think its some of your finest work that I've read. I love what Rob had to say and he's one of the finest poets I've known as well.

Oh yes, this one is very intimate driven by some painful memories. I like the feeling that is to a confidant. There is definitely an increased vulnerability when you are very young. I was expressing the emotion, feelings, confusion, and damage that coincided with that. That you feel it is some of finest work means the world to me; it really makes me feel like I have grown in my writing and ability to express some things, or share them. Like you, Rob has a unique and very impressive way of writing. I am lucky to be here with so many amazing writers.

Very powerful. I don't think your boats sunk yet. Keep your head up, friend.

Oh no, many have sank but I just fold some more and keep going. That's all you can do right? I always want to be strong for others in my life, and for myself. So no matter what life throws at me I will do what I must to keep going. Having so many trials when I was very young prepared me for almost anything. This is more about the past but things with my Mom is the one thing I guess I never could truly be prepared for. Because no amount of being stubborn and persistent can fix it. So I am struggling with acceptance and grieving over what's to come.

My mind has been blown wide open.  Keep on writing.

Well I do love blowing your mind, generally not with something so melancholy. But still I love it anyway. ;) I am really glad you stopped by to read, fold some paper boats with me, and share your thoughts Francisco.

Dear K,

Oh the melancholy in this is palpable. It reminds how fragile we are even when we build brick walls around us for protection. Beautiful yet, sorrowful and poignant piece. I really liked the formatting. It seemed to support the ideas and words to be emphasized. H🌷

That's so true, the more we are hurt and abused, the more we build those walls trying to protect ourselves. But we also wall the part where we torture ourselves for those things and that can be very difficult to deal with. A lot of sorrow did go into writing this one but everything is part of who we are. I know my experiences have helped define me, and you do what you must to move past some things and be the best you can be. I always hope my formatting will add something. Emphasize certain thoughts and expressions... So I am always really happy to hear when that works as intended.

Such an amazing write Kristina X. You never cease to amaze me with your words!
I would love to live inside your mind….

You leave me speechless Mary with your beautiful words. I love that you feel that way. That means so much to me that I don't know how to adequately express that. Living inside my mind, oh boy! you don't know what you are getting into there. lol My mind is definitely a mindfield of crazy, lust, passion, suffering, sadness, and so many other things... With some happiness mixed in too. ;) And your comment makes me happy. 💖

Oh my... damn those words that will never be spoken, but that constantly drop bombs in our hearts and minds... regular bloodletting onto the page is one of the only ways to reduce their power. Or maybe I'm just reading my own experience into this. Either way, the suffering and aloneness is palpable. Keep floating those boats... you're not alone.
❤️k

So many words that are never will be spoken, and yes definitely lots of bombs in our hearts and minds. Sometimes those things find a way out anyway. Perhaps it's vague but we know what it means. That bloodletting, like cutting with a razor and using the blood as ink to spell things out. Things that continue to plague us in one way or another. And perhaps that does reduce their power, that anxiety that is always lurking; always reminding at times. There can be a lot of suffering and aloneness even when not alone especially when dealing with our demons. I will keep floating those boats though. Thank you for the lovely sentiment BT. You are not alone either. :) x

Hi Kristina

This is painfully stunning. Each stanza is like its own story.
Love this kind of writing. We all can relate to pain and paper cuts!!
I actually felt a little sting when reading that line.
There is a certain self imposed freedom in writing it down
in blood, tears, whatever is within reach.
Its a powerful thing amiga:)
So is this write!!
Loved from beginning to end:)

I will always root for you to find some peace and power in your writing.

I am glad you found it painfully stunning Adel. I love how you see each stanza being like it's own story, I can see that too. Pain is something that has a profound impact for sure and the sting of paper cuts always seems to last so long. Somehow a more jagged cut just seems to stop hurting faster for whatever reason. Writing it down is interesting, I can definitely do that readily but sharing some things is different. I have so many things I have written and not shared with anyone. Often it just causes me anxiety, so I am still figuring out the whole cathartic thing but I think I am getting better at that. There is something about writing in blood and tears... You can definitely feel it, writing it, sharing it, reading it. It does seem a powerful thing in conveying those feelings and emotions. I am glad you saw power in this one. We grow from our experiences and hopefully become stronger from them as well. I love that you loved it. And thank you for always rooting for me. You are truly a lovely person and I very much appreciate it.

Wow, Kristina❣ There's some deep thoughts and reflections in this beautifully written piece. What a compelling metaphor in this passage, "drifting in heavy flow of ink
menstruation of bloody words"
Bravissima, goddess poet❣🌹
Oh and you taught me a new word, endorheic

I love teaching new words, especially considering your extensive vocabulary; I consider that an accomplishment. There are definitely some deep and raw thoughts and reflections in this one. I am glad you found is compelling and beautiful, and it's always great to get a Wow. I often write in metaphors as you know. This is one of those that I debate posting or not so I am glad you found value in it and could feel it. Thank you so much for the wonderful comment and sharing your thoughts.

Incredible as the pain drips through each drop of blood...your metaphor is highly effective in carrying the message k

Ah yes Tim, there is a lot of pain and suffering that went into this one. Certainly brought up some memories writing it so I am sure that's what you are feeling. I am glad you thought the metaphors were highly effective in conveying the feelings and emotions embedded in the words.

A graceful and haunting piece.  Damn.. I really don't say much when I leave comments on poems but in this instance I can't even find the words to really do this poem justice.

LJ

I like your description of graceful and haunting Lj. There is a lot of suffering and pain that went into this one. It was a very difficult and confusing time that lasted for a long time. You have also left me without words with your comment. You are such an incredible writer and knowing that the emotion and feelings expressed in this one left you without words is really amazing. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts.

Kristina, this was heart tugging and beautiful. Your metaphors drop so many truths this entire piece is enlightening.

Thank you for sharing such an incredible piece of work, it really shines a light on the different themes.

I am glad you found it heart tugging and beautiful Wally. And that the metaphors were effective in conveying the emotion and feelings behind this one. There is a lot to it, even without covering the details. I am also really glad you found it an incredible piece of work. It's not easy to share about some things that's for sure. There were a number of other themes that apply also. I have learned which ones not to use as well. Replying to comments can be a challenge sometimes.

This is something written while hiding behind the bed.  The pain of it is unfortunately obvious.  I'd like to say well done, but that sounds inappropriate.  
 This is needed, to be written, shared, and read.  

This is wonderful, in that it shows your strength.  

Perhaps I was sitting at the shore of the Styx river while writing this one. Or at least while experiencing it. There is a lot of pain, suffering, and confusion that went into the feelings and emotions being expressed. I know what you mean by it seems inappropriate to say certain things in response. Although I can definitely appreciate people's take and appreciation of the pain and suffering too. I suppose it needed to be written. I have written many that I have not shared but perhaps I will share more of those in the future. I am really glad you see the strength in it. Significant challenges in life can make us stronger and wiser.

this is phenomenal.. so many pleasures in your exposure through genius metaphor and word crafting... very pleased to have come upon your pen.. what intrigue i find in the workings thus far..

Well hey sinister. I am so glad you came upon my pen as well. I must admit your comment leaves me speechless. I love that you thought this one is phenomenal and appreciate the metaphors. This one is deeply meaningful for me, although pretty much all are in one way or another. Still it relates to a very difficult time in my lift growing up. And I love that you are intrigued by what you have found so far and I really appreciate you sharing your thoughts with me. I look forward to checking out your writing soon as well.

i see life in various persuasions, one vibration always point is " through the darkness births the most profound and beautiful light".. One we mold ourselves upon, refining us..as nothing can truly define ourselves but us, as I am the only eye that can stop inertia as fluent...remarkable vessels when attributed, accounted and loved by self..  I feel the hurt, despair, yet I see the remarkable in it's depth by what you create... it's truly a thing to behold..  I rejoice for your strength, dedication and art..all the makings of a magnificent artist/soul..ok i'll shut up..pleasure is mine..
"you write in the vein" as i call it..personal, intelligent, insightful, etc.. we can write but the brakes off in the pocket..deviant blessings...Sinister

I completely agree, it is through the darkness that you can appreciate the most profound and beautiful light. I know the darkness has shaped me much more than the light ever could. My passion, drive, and proclivities were all shaped mostly by the darkness. And I was exposed to a lot of darkness early on in my life. But I made it through all of that and you could say it opened me up to a variety of things very young. And I explored those things deeply. There was a lot of hurt and despair, and a lot of damage done. Often it is through suffering that we gain wisdom, strength, and dedication. The pleasure is mine as well. Writing in the vein, I like that. I write from the heart and soul.

Spectacular writing, writing that doesn't come along too often on here !
Incredible

Well damn! you guys just want me to shut up don't you? Leaving speechless again. I love that you think it's spectacular writing and of a rare nature. It definitely came from a deep, dark place. So perhaps you could feel the deep emotion embedded throughout.  Some very difficult things happened to me while I was growing up and this reflects that. Those very difficult challenges definitely change us forever but we learn from them and grow. I have often said wisdom  comes from suffering.

Hope you win POM, I voted for you !
Deserving

Thank you so much iconic. That's a very sweet thing to say and I appreciate it a lot. There are so many phenomenal submissions for POM. I am always surprised when I am included.

HUGS..I can identify and relate with you with my own past in some ways...not that I would even try to say I know how you truly feel and all with things you went through, just that I can relate. You seem to kind of do what I do in a sense with my own writing, let it out a little bit, give the reader a "taste" but still keep a lot locked up inside too. Just kinda trying to say I get it, get you in a sense. Keep writing, it's therapeutic and you're awesome at it.

Always love HUGS. Sorry that you can identify and relate Michael, I know we all have a past; some are more devastating than others I suppose. Often you miss out on experiences you should have had and they are replaced by something entirely different. Anxiety, fight or flight but you can't fly... and something inside dies instead. But there is always something to replace that, sometimes it's more anxiety but for me I have intense desire and passion as well. You really said that perfectly. "let it out a little bit but still keep a lot locked up inside too" That's definitely true. I let out more over time. At first I kept it all in. Jury is still out on if it's cathartic or not but I have become a little more comfortable with it. I am very bad about keeping things in and not 'burdening' others with what I am going through internally. Also I don't want to change how people think of me. But it's nice to be understood, and I am glad you feel I am awesome at it. Thank you Michael, I really appreciate it!

Sneaking about again lol love this write, not much I can say what other comments have been made but they're very accurate, very well penned :p

Well it's always nice to have you sneaking around Ink! I am glad you found yourself here as I had not read this in a very long time so it was interesting to re-read it now. Certainly a lot of history tied up in it. But anyway, I love that you loved it! I hope to get back to reading soon myself... Work has been insane and I am traveling next week again so everyone else wants everything now. :p

I love Lu you and I know what we vowed I love him to unconditionally and am proud of us we three and the whole family are evolving with him he wants equals he changes his mind he loves you exactly where your at how do expect you would grow up and he never had the need to evolve that is close minded I love you both I won't choose sides anymore you are funny and outgoing but need your entourage you are tender and kind in private but if you feel like you don't have my full loyalty you get jealous and want to war I've left you alone at a point eons ago I made you the center of my universe and provoked his jealousy in a bad way don't let guilt stand in your way... it's time for us to heal as a family and though you are loathe to admit it you have come to love the humans...you were young once and he provoked your jealousy badly then after some time away you realized you loved him so much it hurt... you sought to destroy he living breathing vision or masterpiece in a rage you felt rejected forgive him and yourself I know real love when I see it now... I am beginning to believe I can be a real companion not hiding behind an angels fear of rejection and guilt my brother I love you both he loves you most but we need peace.