eye contact

 
I am angry feeling ineffective
I avert my eyes when you command I look at you
I don't wish to

I linger in your mind
did I make you mad because I was curious about your nature?

I am bluntly honest
if that makes you uncomfortable get used to it
you would strike me down if I lied to you for being a pretender
you would see it there secreted in my open face
no guile will you find...plenty of dark and light conflict
but I'm not an actor

if I'm not feeling a thing you'll know it
I love you but truthfully I'm not fully understanding who you are
there is something plaguing me

you can say you've been there for me
but hey I've given you my heart and that's forever
act as bad as you want
I'm your whipping post
but don't expect praise from me today
it would feel phony
and would only hurt us both

I love you

I love you

I love you

isn't that enough?

if I am the great cosmic joke to you
spit it out
I'll still love you but I will

walk