Uncontained

 
 
I am uncontained    
Soul leaking out through the cracks    
Those cracks that are supposed to let the light in    
And they do, so lovely at first -    
But then it burns    
 
Burns holes in my self-control    
Illuminates the shady-shamey corners    
….it should feel like freedom….    
But instead it is an agonizing nakedness    
Laid bare against my will    
Sobbing, surrounded by strangers    
Uncontained    
 
Bits of me and bits of crazy    
(I can’t tell which is which)    
Pouring down my face    
Splashing messy upon peaceful lives    
Watering seeds of regret    
   
The lack of balance    
Between letting light in    
And letting dark out    
Gives me vertigo    
And I can’t walk this line straight anymore    
No matter how quietly I let love tiptoe in,  
It awakens greed and rage and fear    
   
So it’s time to seal the cracks    
Close this widening breach, repressurize    
Lest I lose all integrity    
And end us all in a blast of emotion    
Uncontained