Don't hide your scars (+Reading)

Fantastic. Absolutely great piece awesome read
Loved the accent
Love and light
Ron x

You are too sweet Ron, and fantastic.
I know my voice cracked some, this damn reading thing is not easy. :p
Way too self conscious I suppose. But you really help me to be less so.
I do love the British accent, but living there while growing up could not overcome the South...
still maybe you hear a little something extra in there, do you? ;p
So much love and light back at ya. XO 💖🌎

hello beautiful Kristina I love layers here
of scars and pain and an openness that allows
a deeper kind of love 💕

Such a perfect comment, crimsin.
Your opinion means a lot to me and I really appreciate you sharing it.
We all have so many layers of scars and pain, accepting them can be difficult but it allows us to move past them, become stronger, and grow. Sharing them can be even more difficult but I love the thought that openness allows for a deeper kind of love and understanding. XO 💖🌎

Haha, Oh yes! so much trouble, but I blame you. So there.
Damnit, how am I supposed to say something snarky and sarcastic when you say something so awesome.
Now you have me all tongue tied. * kick * Stop that.

Interesting that you could feel that. No, I will probably continue to think why the hell did I do that. Sometimes I write about something and the deeper meaning causes me anxiety and then I say why the hell did I post that. And then I kind of spin out on comments... and say why the hell did I say more about the actual things that made me anxious about sharing in the first place. God damn brain. There should be an off switch for this thing. And then I think * nevermind * it's a long list....

There is no peace in my head my dear SMS. Just chaos. XO :p (see above) XO 💖🌎

You are strong beautiful smart sexy woman for sharing this poem.  I believe in you.  Keep on writing.

Damnit Francisco how am I supposed to respond to that. You know strong beautiful smart sexy is like catnip for me. You don't want to see me get catnip crazy, or do you? Thank you for believing in me, the compliment, and trying to make me more crazy. ;) XO 💖🌎

Yes I Do my sexy KristinaX.  😋

I knew you would say that... 😽🐾 X

You to do something for yourself like wear a sexy bikini to the supermarket.  Maybe you should walk around in the buff inside your place. You get to get down with your crazy self.  You got my vote.

A phenomenal reading detailing a relationship that is tried and true but tested.  It's never easy to understand another's pain when you yourself are so stripped bare of emotion and testament.  I salute you again for laying bare your sensitivity and strength to find peace in your personal battles.

BIG LIKE

RL AWARD

I really love that you thought it was a phenomenal reading. Thank you! I am still very self conscious about posting these. It's kind of hard to put yourself out there like this not knowing if you did a good job or if people will like your voice, etc. This is also a poem of self dialogue so that maybe I won't be so hard on myself sharing certain things. There is always an internal struggle and I have taken many things down soon after I posted them. Sensitivity and strength can be a very difficult combination sometimes. Love the BL and thanks for the RL. XO 💖🌎

"Let's count the mental wounds"
I see it as a fight to heal ourselves as well as make sure others don't have to feel those wounds.

Wonderful poem, friend 😁

Hey there DC, I am so happy you stopped by and shared your thoughts with me. Yes, it can be quite the struggle to heal ourselves especially from certain types of wounds that cut really deep. You can even become addicted to the excitement of it. Some things change you forever and redefine your boundaries, or remove them altogether. I have done my best to heal myself from those wounds but you still find yourself making more. Still you can find strength in all of it at some point and that deeper wisdom that comes from such challenges. XO 💖🌎

I do try to hide them.l, although it’s not always an easy thing to do. Some of them cut so fucking deep. But this is what I was taught to do. Bury that shit, lock it away in boxes, smile, bear the burden alone, keep moving forward. I love this spill Kristina. Thank you for sharing this with us love.

Stay amazing little warrior

Whiskey

Yes, I can see how you would be like me. I really don't discuss things like that with anyone. I suppose the somewhat anonymity of being here gave me the false courage to post. But in reality it takes a lot out of me, because at a subconscious level I get really anxious about it. And then I kind of just avoid looking or take something down. I think you are beautiful and I know those wounds are part of who you are. And I know about compartmentalizing and bearing the burden alone. I will keep fighting. :) Now give me the key to those boxes. ;) XO 💖🌎

Hello KristinaX. This poem deserves more than a like.

Love. x

Hey there Mant, that is such a sweet thing to say and I appreciate it so much. You made my morning brighter. I hope you have a wonderful day. Much Love. :) XO 💖🌎

Love this. Very talented poet

Hey there heather. I am so humbled by your words and I really appreciate you stopping by to read me and give me your thoughts. I hope you have a wonderful day, you have made mine brighter. :) XO 💖🌎

Dear K,

What can be said that hasn’t already been truthfully shared by the above comments?  I wish I had the remedy to make us all feel better about those scars, visible and invisible but that would make me god and that position has already been filled by god.  I think it takes a ton of courage to post inner truth and I am really grateful you can do this on such a grand and meaningful scale. It’s a great write and so very helpful.  X
H 🌷

You know, you are so often the remedy to making me feel better. Maybe you don't realize how you make people feel with your words so all I can do is tell you that you are amazing. and if you were in that position I think you would be great. Sometimes my seeming courage is just my lack of filter. But I have so many things I need to be strong for and I am very determined and driven so I will always do my best. I am so happy you found it helpful. I appreciate your words so much. X  XO 💖🌎

Beautiful.

Hey Heart, well if there is one word to describe you then it would be beautiful. Thank you so much for stepping into my little part of the world and sharing with me. XO 💖🌎

KristinaX, your words glisten with the steel of a soul that has known the depths of sorrow and risen into an all-encompassing love. I adore this from start to finish. The passion in your voice, your inflection, is that of a woman who has seen untold suffering and is bold enough to have her man undress to show his naked scars and bare them as an offering to you. You share everything within and without him and learn the map of his heart. I love your voice, your words, and all between.

XoXo
John

And your words are always such a beautiful symphony to my ears GM. Going from the depths of sorrow to an all encompassing love is quite the journey. I suppose you need to love yourself first in many ways. I love your thoughts on the reading so much. I have many of my own scars and when you can both share them with each other you can come to a much deeper understanding and love for each other. One not only based on happiness and joy, but all the trials and tribulation of pain and suffering. Thank you so much for listening and sharing your wonderful thoughts with me. XO 💖🌎

Scars show our strength through our pain x

Yes, I am trying to tell myself that. I usually just keep everything in and I don't talk about it. I guess I felt like I needed somewhere to put just a little of that energy but really I just feel kind of stupid for posting the previous one. It was impulsive and I knew it would cause me anxiety. I guess I can only hope some people got something out of it. Thanks for being here and sharing with me. XO 💖🌎

so well done miss KX
i know youve got a lot of good feedback here
but just wanted to say that this was like a meditational
the listener can sit back and listen to your soothing voice
with a taint of vulnerability,
and the 2nd half is like being in a relationship with you
and ones' issues sitting at the base of this dark well, looking up at you the light above
looking down, giving hope, extracting from the coldness

Hey there CI, I really love hearing your perception of this. Meditational, soothing, with a taint of vulnerability; I love that, there is definitely vulnerability but to be seen as meditative and soothing is such a wonderful thing to say. You can hear so much. :) And the 2nd half, "like being in a relationship with you ..." I adore that you could feel this in such an intimate way. That is really special, thank you so much for sharing. XO 💖🌎

Looks like I missed the bus. LOL

This has such an open vulnerability. Just like you mentioned about the open book.
It's never easy baring it all for the world to read and see.
The more you do it the easier it gets.
If it can help someone as well as yourself - so worth it:)
Brave write Chica:)

The bus will always wait for you. :p

I feel like such a loon because I don't do vulnerability well at least externally. This one was just some self dialogue about what I think was an mistake in that regard. Sigh, sometimes I feel hopeless. There is a reason I avoid social media. :) But yes, if it can help someone else or by some crazy stretch myself then it's worth it. Thanks chica, your comment helps. :) XO 💖🌎

Okay I've been drinking, so don't be offended if I speak a bit gruff.  Because I don't mean it that way at all.  Especially after reading this and the notes.

First of all, where the hell did you get that twang in your voice!  Girl, tell me you ain't got an old pick up truck (1949- 1966 ish). Cuz that's just too much bonus!  

Now, this is about your notes and replies to others.  
When you/we write and post, no one judges us harder than we do ourselves.  Weakness is only the inability not to write about anything.  Throwing yourself to the mercy of others, with writing, is NOT weakness.  It's bravery.  
Most all writers in here have shown plenty of empathy and that should encourage your strength.  Obviously we all have our tender spots and wounds, but that is only the scuff marks from living life and not hiding from it.  
People want to feel part of a group.  And even if that club has its moments of "this is my shitty past moments",  everyone can empathize.  
If they can't, because they suck, then fuck'em, they suck.
And they are a lonely minority stuck in their gloom.

Who is perfect?  No one.  Perfect is being left on a shelf and collecting dust.  Be real. Write the beautiful things and the ugly ones too.   That's how we become advanced.  We get better.  Bleed out the bad anytime you want.  We accept it, to have you with us.
And that goes for everyone.  You belong, as is.  
Nothing in life that you've experienced has made you less.  Nothing. You're the perfect version of you now.  As we all are for ourselves.  

Write the reality.  It's actually easier to follow than worrying about a persona.  
And it's admirable.  

Damn, you come across so strong Styx, it's like yes sir - whatever you would like. ;p Whatcha drinking? (well were you drinking as it were) I want you to be gruff more often. Offend me... ;) Just know my broken filter might offend you more. lol

Haha, no old pickup truck. Perhaps I should get on that. Bonus, huh? I like the sound of that. lol I guess I was born with it because I sure did not get the British
accent living there much of the time while I was growing up. Once a southern girl, always a southern girl. Moonshine, pickup trucks, and all. And oh so hot. Humid too. ;p I like the mindset you have put me in.

Yes, sir. I started to get into one of my more lengthy responses but I can tell there is no arguing with you (or myself really). Still my next post will be aimed in a different direction. Which direction are you in?

Oh let's not talk about perfection, God that will be a long discussion. I have struggled with that a lot due to my OCD. As I grew up I was able to get a better hold on it. To realize that when it takes 5x the amount of time to achieve the last 5-10%, most of the time it's just not worth it. But I will always be my harshest critic by far... thinking things are never good enough. And that I am not good enough. I am bracing for a scolding, a spanking, or something now. lol But it does push me to always do better and to always achieve more so you have to take the good with the bad I suppose. Self worth, and self acceptance is something we start to establish at a young age and when you go through certain things it can truly leave you with many internal struggles that last a life time. You have to take that and try to channel it into something meaningful. Okay, I am going to shut up now before I go on and on and then kick myself for it. :p

Thanks Styx really, this helps and you made me smile. You are a good guy, I don't care what they say. XO 💖🌎

*my go to drink is Jameson Whiskey and ginger ale.  Jim Beam if I'm feeling average.

My big flaw is that I have a vocal glitch (prob brain damage, lol).  It used to bother me. But as I got older, I realized it just makes me "me".  
-It doesn't happen when I whisper.  And I have a deep whisper.  Lol.

Sometimes you need to pick a scab or 2

That is so true. God forbid my OCD gets a hold of them, I will dig a hole in my soul. Scars can be ugly but they are my scars and I try to do the best I can with them. I suppose I like the texture if nothing else. Thanks for stopping by and commenting Carpe. It's great to see you. XO 💖🌎

What a voice... damn you can draw me anytime.

Well damn, I like drawing you in... I must admit I am always reluctant to post these so it's so great to hear you like it. I will draw you over and over again. Thanks RRm1. :)  XO 💖🌎

Scars tell a story, secrets, mysteries that some are afraid to reveal and others are willing to give themselves open and honestly.

Beautiful work. Always love to hear your voice

Scars definitely tell a story. Some hide a lot of secrets and mysteries. Some perhaps are not easy to share and might even change how someone thinks about you. But when you can share those things in a way that results in a better understanding and perhaps write a new book that might even heal or erase some scars it can be truly wonderful I think. Giving yourself openly and honestly to someone that you can trust. I am so happy you thought it was beautiful work. 'Always love to hear your voice' That is such a lovely thing to say. Thank you! XO 💖🌎

Damn, this was really the right one to send last. Idk how I missed all these, I guess I've been on pretty sporadically since I got hit by that truck on my bicycle about 18 months ago. This write is really proportional in the depth and unfolding and yet contemplative reflection of voice, I love how audios add dimensions. Terrific honest vulnerability. I'm really struck. Generally I keep my comments to the work itself because, without knowing someone, it's presumptuous to say something personal, but I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to.

I can forgive you since you were hit by a truck. (joking :p) Just don't get hit by a truck again damnit! There is a true intimacy to sharing your scars with someone. We spend so much time building up these barriers and self defense mechanisms that it can be really hard to open up about some things. But when someone shares that pain with you, when you can take part of it and give part of yourself in return then that's something truly special and beautiful. It helps you move forward in life, to contemplate all of what comes next which can be so much better. I am not good at vulnerability, generally I keep things buried deep. I don't share them with people and I wonder what would they think if they knew, how would it affect them, and so on. It's complicated. Anyway, thank you so much for offering an ear Daniel. :) XO 💖🌎