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Morning Rituals
There’s nothing profound
swirling in my brainpan, so I’m just going
to tell you about my morning.
I had a fermented yogurt bowl
with strawberries and walnuts for breakfast.
Pretty standard for me, as breakfasts’ go.
Forty-five minutes of crunches,
planks, core tightening, and weight lifting.
I simultaneously love and hate
that part of my day, though I always
feel stronger afterwards.
Morning chores are standard:
housework is never-ending, so I’ve learned
to find an end spot each day.
I shower.
Then I stand in front of the mirror
and look at my scars.
I run my fingertips across the thin, smooth
lines, pressing in, feeling
for any bump or knot that might suggest
the cancer has come back.
Once satisfied, I try to remember
how my chest looked with breasts:
futile, as I can’t remember.
I linger in the mirror for a moment,
letting the anger pass through
and then I pull myself together
and move on.
My morning rituals: boring but complete.
swirling in my brainpan, so I’m just going
to tell you about my morning.
I had a fermented yogurt bowl
with strawberries and walnuts for breakfast.
Pretty standard for me, as breakfasts’ go.
Forty-five minutes of crunches,
planks, core tightening, and weight lifting.
I simultaneously love and hate
that part of my day, though I always
feel stronger afterwards.
Morning chores are standard:
housework is never-ending, so I’ve learned
to find an end spot each day.
I shower.
Then I stand in front of the mirror
and look at my scars.
I run my fingertips across the thin, smooth
lines, pressing in, feeling
for any bump or knot that might suggest
the cancer has come back.
Once satisfied, I try to remember
how my chest looked with breasts:
futile, as I can’t remember.
I linger in the mirror for a moment,
letting the anger pass through
and then I pull myself together
and move on.
My morning rituals: boring but complete.
Published 22nd Apr 2022
| Edited 12th May 2022
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22nd Apr 2022 3:12am
The last part seems a bit self torturous, but we imagine that you would have to have lost a body part. This would most definitely give you a different out look on things, Thanks for the breakfast and workout, we workout every morning and usually do something in the evening. We love loosing ourself in sweat and quieting our mind for just a bit. Tight work on your part Lady, you're a true fighter
12th May 2022 4:05am
I think it's less self-torturous at this point, and more accepting (and probably of lot vigilant).
I started cycling again today and it was glorious. There is something to be said for that mood boost. Thanks, Me. I'm definitely not a "throw in the towel" type, but you knew that :)
I started cycling again today and it was glorious. There is something to be said for that mood boost. Thanks, Me. I'm definitely not a "throw in the towel" type, but you knew that :)
engrossing morning to get used to in fact. tough choice but bravely done. admire the grit and charm. nicely done
thanks for the peek. good day to you. will be fine.
thanks for the peek. good day to you. will be fine.
12th May 2022 4:07am
It's the morning of (this) champ. It was a tough choice, but self preservation, and all that. Thanks, to_be.
7th May 2022 1:25am
Well, here I was casually reading a happy go lucky morning ritual, when life popped up. As rituals do, they become familiar and hopefully it helps you get through past difficulties, while keeping you vigilant. Your words tend to make me think so. Hugs to you Eerie, scars, fermented yogurt, crunches and all.
12th May 2022 4:09am
Life always seems to be popping up, as it is wont to do. The familiar does really help me to get past the hard parts, and I have no choice now but to be vigilant. I'm okay with that. It's just my fact of life.
Thank you, Leo. Hugs right back.
Thank you, Leo. Hugs right back.
14th May 2022 3:21am
You are a brave woman to face your day with so much grace and strength, even after having clearly been through so much that was truly terrible! I have certain scars of my own, too, that are painful to think about, but for very different reasons than yours. Life is sometimes like a merciless blacksmith, and we are often the metal that is being forged. For some, the fire can burn hotter than for others... but it burns, nonetheless. In the end, we can still become a thing of beauty... for there is beauty beyond the physical, even if many men in this world cannot comprehend the truth of that. One's truest beauty shines forth from within... and is that much more captivating for doing so! The thing to remember always, is never to let what one has lost deter one from thinking about all they have to offer still. Even the fairest of all ancient Greek and Roman statues still have their cracks... some, like the Venus de Milo are even more flawed... but all are nonetheless beautiful regardless. But I do understand the anger you must be feeling! Which makes me hope that you are currently doing well, or at least better. Love and Light to you! :)
16th Jun 2022 3:14pm
I've always believed that a lot of these require discipline, especially the exercise. Yes, they may be boring, but the satisfaction of having a checkmark on that to do list must feel good. You're tough and I thank you for sharing. Perhaps that discipline will rub off on others on their daily morning rituals/routines.
