just sayin

my hatred of feeling  
is deeply held  
into the ground so it seems  

emotion can build  
seemingly illogical structures  
but depending on where you’re standing  
everything can be logical  
 
though not every day  
and not today  

if saturation can dictate variances in normalcy  
then regardless of how deep i’m in it  
i should be normal for that depth  
but it’s not normal
 
it’s not normal to feel this kind of nothing  
and that that doesn’t feel...often feels severe  
 
so is deeply held  
into the ground so it seems