... to realize that I am

Having my own issues with self harm my whole adult life I relate totally to this write.  It's easy to look at this beautiful woman and only see the beauty and not the pain she endures. But in the end she sees her scars as saviors.  Then and only then does the self love begin .....

Courageous ink KX

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That is so true PS. Yes, I have a lot of pain. Sometimes we don't know what people have been through or what they are going through. Everyone has their own journey and challenges. Mine has come with many and I avoid writing about some things, I would rather put out more positive things but sometimes just a little comes out. Still I stress it and may take it down. But your comment really is perfectly on point. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts.

Hey BP, really sorry to cause any sadness. I suppose we can't always write positive things but I still might hide this one. Anyway, thanks for your comment. I really appreciate your thoughts.

my apologies dearest Kristina I read this wrong
hugs dear lady I read it as a masochistic write
I'm sending my love...

Hey Crimsin, I can be confusing sometimes so no worries. This is certainly a different write for me but it's history, still I really appreciate the hugs and love so much!

Fight to get better.  Keep on writing.

Always fighting to get and be better Francisco. Thank you so much for the continued encouragement and love.

My oldest son is a chick magnet.  At least two, that  I know of,  went to therapy for self harm when they were in high school.  It is a lot more common then you think. Mind you that was like a year ago. I had my boys in my early twenties. The light at the end of the tunnel is that they are still young. They have time to turn it around and get it under control and change their life. Or at least try. This is very courageous of you. Putting this out there.  The poem is powerful. But so are you.

Uh oh, chick magnet... sounds like trouble. ;) I think it's more common, the bigger issue was what was behind it but this stuff happened when I was an adolescent. I always struggle with convincing myself to post but with something like this it is much more so. In some ways I think well maybe it's good to just do it but most of my writing on this I would never post. Perhaps I just have to much anxiety about it for it to be cathartic. Anyway, I am glad you found it courageous even if I don't feel very courageous on this one. Thank you so much for the kind words - you are so sweet, it means a lot to me! But regardless of this write please still think of me like what you said on 'inferno' okay?. ;)

Hugs and love from across the pond
Love and light
Ron x

Hey Ron! Thank you so much for the hugs and love, and spreading your light around here. It is definitely a much brighter place because of you.

We all desire to feel something, be it love, desire, or pain, we as humans need. We need some type of anchor to this world that is so full of the physical. We need some of that which others seem to take for granted, from the trees changing colors to the birds chirping. even the changes in temperatures need to be felt. Is it wrong to to get you release or catch your feelings from one broken heart after another or to slowly release the hurt with the edge of the razor. We are only humans and at times loves is love and pain is pain, we all need to release. Tight work Lil X  

It's true we all desire to feel and that can certainly take different paths. I learned a lot about myself and it guided my continuing journey in any ways. The self harm part was something I could control and have power over. It was definitely a release of negative emotion and one I saw as essential to survival in a way.  We can feel very deeply, both positive and negative. That release and need can indeed come in many forms. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts.

As always ever changing, it’s good to view ourselves from different perspectives, then expressing those new perspectives can be rewarding

This is a beautiful expression of the memories of fragility to the strength of the outward acknowledgment

Definitely evolving, learning, and growing. Sometimes we take a step back but ultimately move forward. I like how you described the fragility to strength of outward acknowledgement. Perhaps my posting something like this is needed to face that anxiety and move through it. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts.

Dear K,

Letting out a sliver of darkness allows a ray of sunlight to get in.
Shedding the toxic and spreading awareness can be so helpful in both directions (to you and your reader). I think poems like this can be so helpful. I don’t want this to be a preachy sermon on the mount and it really does begin and end with your comfort. I think this is not only a great read from a creative standpoint point but another side of you that endears your reader to you even more. It’s raw and true. xx
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That's true; the light cannot exist without darkness. I am glad you think it can be helpful in both directions, I hope that it is. I don't find  comfort in it but perhaps there is a subconscious aspect that is cathartic that is not easily acknowledged. Ultimately I must have written and posted it for a reason; or I would like to think so. That maybe it could be helpful in some way. I am happy you found it a great read and creative. Your kind words and thoughts have really helped me a lot.

Ugh! I’m the worst communicator. 🙄 I forgot the rest of my thought about your comfort. It was meant to continue saying it’s all about your comfort keeping this posted, because I’d read you weren’t sure you’d keep it up. Sorry about that. 😊

Turn your head for past is out of our hands...dive into the future whee love still awaits

Yes sir! understood and a great message. Sometimes the past comes to mind and tries to haunt us but we can turn it to strength and move forward. Part of my reason for being so reluctant to post something like this is I never want to be seen as victim. I have moved on from the past and look to the future. I have more important things to worry about like giving love and support to my Mom. I won't allow the past to hinder that and the things I want to accomplish or relationships. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts.

Hey KX…….this is something I know well of…….it’s hard to find another to luv you as you do them…….most the time it’s yourself that’s needs their luv more than they need you…….most don’t want the deepness of luv that comes straight from the heart…….I’ve learned this painfully…….so many thoughts rumbling thru my soul on this…….outstanding ink…….purple luv & hugs xo :)

Hi FG, I always adore getting purple luv and hugs. This is one that can be interpreted in multiple ways. It's primarily about something that happened in my life that I don't really talk about here but I occasionally touch on. Jury is still out on it being cathartic. I am really glad you thought it was outstanding ink. Thank you so much for the comment and your thoughts.

Hi Darkwords. It overwhelmed me a bit writing it but the past is not always a good thing. There is definitely pain, and some elements of desire to be taken as well. Sometimes when bad things are happening you definitely have a strong desire to be loved for who you are and not 'loved' for other reasons. Thank you so much for your sweet and kind words. I really appreciate that a lot.

Powerful and intriguing spill Kristina. Too often are we fall into a pit of despair feeling unworthy and letting harming ourselves (or letting other harm us). It's a vicious cycle that is difficult to break out of.

Thank you for sharing such a personal piece.

This one was definitely personal for me. I struggle with sharing some of the darker parts of my history but occasionally I open a little.  Perhaps I will share more at some point. That pit is definitely an easy one to fall into especially when certain things are going on. Sometimes that harm seems like the only way will survive and it definitely starts a cycle that stays with you. Thank you so much for the comment and your thoughts.

Direct and elegant, I like that description. It's not easy to share pain sometimes, for me especially. Often the pain is written in other ways but this was more direct. I am glad you see talent. Thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts with me.

This level of introspection takes a lot of courage and patience.
Much respect to you, Kristina
A heavy vibe indeed

Ah yes! a lot of introspection in this one. I do have lots of courage and my past is certainly part of that. In some things I am quite patient, while in others I am not patient at all. I also very rarely use personal pictures but I think the introspection made me feel it was appropriate here. Thank you so much for the respect. :) There is definitely a heavy vibe on this one and it's very personal. Always struggle a bit with posting about certain things.