… amends

bottle to the holic,  
needle to the addict,
 
skeletons in the closet,
memories in the attic,
 
started recreational,  
simple innocent fun,
 
taking all bets,
first and the last one,
 
what happened next,
can never be undone,  
 
no esteem  
to mount a flex,
no place  
on earth to run,
 
impossible weight of regrets,
mashing you down like a ton..
 
heart overstretched  
like a rubber-band,
all that is left  
are two open hands,  
 
a sober lady  
or gentleman,
start with amends  
to take that stand,
 
whether be one  
or 100 grand,  
 
apologies attempted,
 
start a sober plan.