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Hang Up & Dial Again
I find it extremely difficult at times to accept compliments
Residual effects from being told I'm a worthless piece of excrement
I know that it ain't fact but it remains in the back of my mind
Like I'm tethered to it and can't get it to unwind or unbind
I grind to find peace of mind and I'm trying to be mentally well
Often times, my mind puts me through psychological HELL
But I hide it well like the man of steel is in my genetic code
One point in time I wanted to fold but chose to stay bold
Words can burn and scold a soul and then hold on for dear life
Especially when they're cold and roll off the tongue of one who gave you life
From one who lost her life a year ago to this very day
Corona jumped on her then took her sunlight away
But her words stay displayed in writing; shadowing my psyche
Haven't read them lately and I'm still standing and fighting like a G
Reality is that we all have hidden inner demons of our own
I'm just deciding to own mines in rhyme since I can't get her on the phone
Residual effects from being told I'm a worthless piece of excrement
I know that it ain't fact but it remains in the back of my mind
Like I'm tethered to it and can't get it to unwind or unbind
I grind to find peace of mind and I'm trying to be mentally well
Often times, my mind puts me through psychological HELL
But I hide it well like the man of steel is in my genetic code
One point in time I wanted to fold but chose to stay bold
Words can burn and scold a soul and then hold on for dear life
Especially when they're cold and roll off the tongue of one who gave you life
From one who lost her life a year ago to this very day
Corona jumped on her then took her sunlight away
But her words stay displayed in writing; shadowing my psyche
Haven't read them lately and I'm still standing and fighting like a G
Reality is that we all have hidden inner demons of our own
I'm just deciding to own mines in rhyme since I can't get her on the phone
Published 7th Jun 2021
Author's Note
"If you'd like to make a call, please hang up and dial again. " - Operator
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7th Jun 2021 8:56pm
8th Jun 2021 3:11am
Yes words from love ones cut clean to the quick. It's hard to get these things out of your head it's like they were branded onto your heart of hearts. We often think that these thinks attack your soul or that you soul wears them like clothes. Their effects travel so far into into your future, but tight work dude
8th Jun 2021 5:22am
I very much admire your courage and strength; they both very much inspire.
I think that if we are lucky we have loved ones who show us love... but even if this is the case, society and the institutions will definitely seek to instill feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness.. I have heard you refer to the pen as a sword, and I concur with this... I think that this idea is on display here. I can feel the strength growing with the write, like a spell, a spell that I was able to participate in. Very powerful.
I am sorry for your loss. I have experienced similar.
and I can totally relate to the phone metaphor, in my own unique way...
I think that if we are lucky we have loved ones who show us love... but even if this is the case, society and the institutions will definitely seek to instill feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness.. I have heard you refer to the pen as a sword, and I concur with this... I think that this idea is on display here. I can feel the strength growing with the write, like a spell, a spell that I was able to participate in. Very powerful.
I am sorry for your loss. I have experienced similar.
and I can totally relate to the phone metaphor, in my own unique way...
8th Jun 2021 11:39am
Thank you Cipher_O for your condolences, compliment, and feedback. They're all appreciated. Words have the power to heal and the power to kill. I use mine for self-healing and encouraging others, who they resonate with, to push through and persevere. Thank you for taking the time to read this piece and commenting.
