Hate Sex for One

 
Too late at night
can't get you off
my mind
and I refuse to cry
for you

Squeeze my breasts
hard
the pain sudden and sharp
rake fingernails up my thighs
dig into my hips
harsh as your voice
spitting venom in my head

Grab a vibe
turn it up high
not a speed I like
but fast
and my body can't deny
the power

You glower over me
      Dumb cunt
and I come
      You're not good enough to be my slut

Fantasize that I'm dry
your sandpaper fingers
scarring me inside

Clit numb
the motor hums relentlessly
hate-filled words pelt me
and I come
convulsing again
and again
till it hurts

Imagine the door slam
the way you often left
without saying anything

Lying in a mess
bruised nipples
broken skin
morning will rise in purples
blues and reds

There's no release in this
no relief
barely notice the tears
too exhausted
not to sleep