Piss takers

So yet again have I been played like a fool,
By my so called mates that think they're so cool.
They sit and wait till they can stick their teeth in,
And all my feelings are just for the bin.
At first they act so friendly over the blower, "How are you mate?",
Arrange a time then on purpose turn up late.
As far as I can tell, they do it for shits and giggles,
It's like I'm a worm on a hook that can't stop my wiggles.
Because they use me as bait, use me to get what they need,
They don't realise I'm fucked off and that my heart bleeds.
They entice me with kind words saying I'm 1 of the group,
Then they make jump through hoop after hoop.
Because they know something about me, they know that I'm weak,
And that friendship is really all that I seek.
But of this they take advantage just to make me feel ostracised,
Knowing full fucking well that my feelings I can't hide.
Then when the tears begin and I feel so ashamed,
It's not my body, but my mind they have maimed.
To know I'm the person that they hate cuts like a shard,
And to carry on going is fucking really hard.
To try to feel wanted I act far too eager,
Trying so hard, I'm burning up with a fever.
What the fuck have I done so wrong?
And this goes on for precisely how long?!
This may sound like the ramblings of a fucking bellend,
But their behaviour torments me and my mind will not mend.
I'm just so tired of being pushed around,
Just do what you want, please put me in the ground.
Because seriously, I can't take much more,
But as much as I look, I can't find a door.
My "friends" treat me with so much hate,
But I've only just realised it and now it's too late.