Halfway house of Hell

Why do I feel cold on the warmest days?
Is it because my heart as it decays?
It seems like it's always raining inside of me,
Nothing can live in this dead sea.

Feeling my veins as they collapse,
Is it because my sanity has had a relapse?
Feeling my mind as it slips so far,
Is this normal, or awful bizarre?

Can any of this madness make any sense?
Why am I trapped in this nightmare so intense?
Being asleep but feeling wide awake,
Was my life one big mistake?

I walk alone inside this place,
Wishing I could hide behind a smiling face.
It hurts so much to go thru this,
It's like falling into a abyss.

Never seeming for it to stop.
Why can't life and death make a swap?
How do I know what is inside of me?
Could it be insanity?

I just close my eyes and just pretend,
Just a moment of happiness he would send.
I see and hear everything in my mind,
I have built this wall to hide behind.

Here you can't touch or see my face,
For it's my own hiding place.
I wish I knew this from the start,
I could find solace in your heart.

You said you will mend my broken soul,
Finding all of the pieces to make it whole.
I wish I knew my angel which flew above?
To know who killed me with their love?

You said you would help me; you told me this!
You would wipe away my tears and give me a kiss
I only ask one question, and that is...why?
Why didn't you love me before I had to die?