Into my loneliness comes— {i}

We take what we can get and hopefully it is enough

"i wrest with the bones ov you, skeins ov half-form'd skin
purl'd into the veins ov notebook sheets
a vain attempt to tattoo you
even temporarily into the annals ov my mistakes"

Your poetic flow shoots from this mystical mouth in sheets of pure silver with etched in soul hammered truth...using enemy lies to polish the leaves and place this heart afoot

love
J

So nice to see your return.

Dear S,

“it is an unappeasable desire, a repetition ov faux intimacy
the ecstatic illusion “ I’d have to cut and paste the whole piece to express all the parts I admire. However, the last stanza reached out and grabbed on a personal plane that took my breath away. Faux intimacy. The imagery here has me reliving some scenes I wish I wouldn’t but the power of this piece is overwhelming and impressive! I’m so glad to see you back! I hope you are well and wish you many wonderful returns in the new year! Xx H🌷

"And from your stardust i bathe in Immortality"

Mortar and pestle potion perfect prick my finger
I still bleed, and burn, and gush a gaping gospels satanic hymnal bloody yearn
flayed, surprised at how the ink and cursive stayed and pranced like steeds
through the pain of needles I grew closer in a comfort that glistened
now and then, in a spin, its ok to pump the breaks
no matter in the end result I still can see your face

picking up the pieces I bid the suction of a thesis
pain is proper when inflicted amid delight
and so we hear chilling waters splash
the wait to surface worth more than cash
ever spectral neath' the blue
the blinks and lies lead me to you
swell of Mussorgsky Violins come leave me found
and under stained glass waters leave me drowned

make haste the blood moon sounds among as thought of you must grow
the cardiac, lungs, the breath of tongues
the way a dead man hangs from to and fro
turned up the bass and fingers sync'd
from your mind I'd take a drink

insatiable how panes of glass wrench heart and soul

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you never cease to turn an image or feeling inside my head.

dear charkhol'd dichotomy ov half-light {&} midday ~
your words were blood {&} ash in my mouth; a sinister swell
ov larvae writ(h)ing
[decadent metaphors]
coagulat'd in runes amid the leaves steeping in cut glass
monkshood merlot
savor'd on fork'd tongue, sips ov bruise
s
  w
i
  r
l
  'd
a copper coin maelstrom against scarr'd discern [hearse/nak'd filament
hipster bold
asylum invitation]
tannin tenets, the (un)holy scripture ov pagan communion
wafer-thin curs(iv)'d verse
sit
stand
a  p  a   d
  p   l   u
genu(ine)(in)flect(ion)
from her, the void

I love it.

добро пожаловать обратно дорогая Кейт.  надеюсь, тебе лучше. I am ecstatic to read your words again. You thrill me with your derp,  visceral, beautifully macabre style.
I love this stanza. To me it evokes attempts to remedy dissonance, perhaps in vain, to achieve harmony within oneself or with a lover   Bravisima mon tres belle amie! ♥️

Intoxicating,  you leave a fragrance of pain written in this poem ..
I hope that life gets better my dear sweet shadoe❤️
love always my friend ❤️
Jackie

Damn !!
so Hauntingly ethereal, Beautiful and intimate longing.......

" {iii}
slivers ov geen glass; shatter'd petals kissing the vacuum ov your iris
obscur'd _ a swan dive into
the monochrome swallow
{how wonderfully, singularly l.o.s.t
i am
so(lo)st}  "  <<<<<--------- i HAVE felt this, this aching yen -- relatable Feel

Happy You are back from Your oasis from DUP,
kind of sad that this is how You're feeling.

Hoping for smoother stone-less stints along Your Tao

I think I would take “faux intimacy” at this point. That at least would be something. A lack of “intertwining limbs” is indeed a lonely space to dwell in. I find it difficult to sidestep physical pain and discomfort in order to seek moments that aren’t solo.
When do we get our moment back...

Happy to see you’re still kickin’ it. Love to you.

Beautiful video addition, Katja. You have a wonderful reading voice and I'm so happy to see you back.