"the heart wants what it wants"

 
did you know I loved you?
yes I've fallen for many poets
but it was always just writing
I liked to vibe with them
 
you were different though
I fell for the man behind the words
I envisioned a life with you
and yes I know you...
 
I know the secrets you hide even from yourself
"the heart wants what it wants"
to quote Woody Allen
 
my heart wanted you
still wants you
I love you for who you are
not what you aren't
you don't have to hide with me
or pretend to be something you're not
 
I see a masculine. strong and yet sensitive soul in you
I love you...
you don't see me though
and if you do
you're afraid of what I make you feel
 
I hurt you confessing I took another man
I see that now...
ask yourself how many women have you buried yourself in
looked into their hollow eyes knowing they weren't me?
 
I hold you above all else
you know I do
and yes it hurts
it hurts me too...
 
you're not in my arms
and my words are empty replacements
you'll never be mine
and I ache with the knowing

a sore spot that is constantly poked
by the cock of another