freakshow

 
you hurt me with a silent goodbye
one day we talked like always
then nothing you just slipped away
you're not the first to do that
you won't be the last
 
it's my insanity that drives people away
I burn too bright  
and no one wants to be there when I burn out
a thousand suns dying
no one hears the cries of protest in deep space
no one hears mine
 
I cry bitter tears for being abnormal
there is no easy out for one like me
I face the day knowing it will be like the others
so brilliant perhaps even a genius
for what?
 
so I see how truly different I am than everyone else
never fitting in
knowing I will lose everyone to my delusions
that I will drive them away
 
my existence is solitary
when my insanity is peaking
I like it that way
I don't need you then
 
the funny thing is I don't reach for anyone to save me
I don't burden anyone with my pain
but you watch me

like a trainwreck, you can't look away  
you're watching now aren't you
why I wonder?
 
is it my sickness or yours really?